The next morning I wake up and my eyes are sore.As I touch my face I feel the big rings under my eyes.The sun shines through the window and directly in my eyes.Wouldn't my life be so fucked-up I'd have probably even enjoyed the sun.As I want to stand up,I hear some snoring next to me and I jump up.What the fuck?As I look at the floor,I see a male figure with a pillow covering his head lying on the floor sleeping.Who for fuck's sake is that?I look at myself just to prove if I didn't do anything stupid last night but I still wear my clothes.Should I scream?Or just leave the person in the house?Or maybe I should wake him...I'm okay with that waking-him-up-thing.
But how?

'Errm..hello?' I whisper lighty shaking the boy.I can't believe that I'm actually doing this

'Hello.Good morning' I whisper again 'Who the fuck are you?' I say under my breath and regret it immediately as I notice that I said that out loud

'So you don't even notice your boyfriend' The male person smirks and now looks up at me

No...that's not Niall.

'What the fuck are you doing here Austin?' I asks sternly as I look into his eyes.That makes me want to puke

'I've missed you darling.I want you back' He says and reaches for my hand but I immediately flinch

'Don't you dare to touch me' I hiss at him

'Still fiesty.Still sexy' He whispers,checking me out.

'Your disgusting' I say right in his face and want to stand up and leave.He can die in here if he wants to.

'Where do you think you're going,missy?' He smirks grabbing my wrist

'I'll leave you damn douchebag' I say and his smirks fades.His eyes turn from brown to black within seconds as he pulls me close to him.My chest forcefully pressed against his.He bends down to kiss me but I turn my face away from him.He takes my head and forces his lips on mine.I push him away directly,fury taking advantage of me as I slap him in his face hard

'Do you think I will let you be with this Niall?I mean,I'm better than he is.We both know that.You're mine.' He whispers,his mouth just inches away from my ear holding me in place and I turn my head away from him 'Did you forget all the party,all the fun,all the sex?' He whispers again one hand running up and down my spine

'No I didn't' I reply,smacking his hand away and he smirks at me

'I didn't forget,how you pumped me up with several drugs and alcohol and taking advantage of it.I didn't forget how I had to worry every night that I'll probably be dead tomorrow because one of your enemies wanted to kill me for revenge.And the sex..Oh the sex.I'll never forget how you took my virginity and then fucked Noemie who was a good friend of mine.No..how you took my virginty and raped Noemie who was a good friend of mine because she fucking commited suicide because of you.Yes,I will never forget you because your one of the reasons I was afraid to fall in love again.Yes.I was so dumb.Because I did love you,I would have done anything for you but you..Just look at you.. the nasty little self that you are.But guess what,my dad and I moved to London which was the best fucking decision we ever made.I've found a wonderful loving boyfriend who accepts me the way I am and who loves me endlessly and who I love endlessly.You are a nothing.Compared to him,you had to be pleased if I say you look like a pieace of shit.I don't need you,my friend.I just want to vomit when I think about you.And here you are..again using your criminal skills and enter into my dad's house.What have you planned?Did you want to sleep here and then in the morning when I see you I'll fall into your arms and you can fuck the shit out of me?Guess what...if I could I would take the next knife and cut that little thing down there you call penis and throw it away into the next bin because that's where you actually belong' I say almost yell furiously

He doesn't move and then suprising him and myself I spit in his face

'You bitch will regret that.That's a promise' He yells as I run downstairs and leave the house

I don't need this shit anyway.I want to be with Niall now just with Niall.I need him now urgently.

As I am home,I jump into the elevator and open the door and Niall jumps up and looks at me bemused.

'Where wer you?' He asks but I don't answer,but just kiss him.A deep passionate kiss.

'W-What happend?' He asks again as we come to a rest on the couch

'Just say that you love' I say and wrap my hands around him

'I love you'

Notes

It's just a filler.Sorry guys that it's not that much because I'm still a bit depressed.Mad,furious and depressed because of what I had to hear in the news.It's just I sometimes just fucking hate this fandom when I hear things like this.I was just crying in front of my aunt when I saw,what happend to us directioners.How a fandom can be so hated by everyone else.How we can hate each other so much.How we lost the track and lost the fact that makes us fans:that we love the boys endlessly.I'm just disappointed in what happend to my family..you guys are my family..it's just sickening how many had to die..that people had to die because of our disrespect for each others.It's not just that certain people say stuff but we're all responsible for what happend.We have to stop this..we have to start a new.Let's forget this fuck that happend and concentrate on the one fact that unites us all: 5 Boys with amazing voices and wonderful attitudes who changed our lifes completely,who probably saved our lifes.Guys I'm just a normal,crazy girl living in the west of germany but I know that we can do this.I still have hope and I hope that it's not in vain.We love them and they love us
Let's never ever forget that