
Just because of me...
Chapter 35
So we're on our way to Belfast,all the way up,we drove down succesfully.
In the van,I'm the one driving,because I'm the only one who can't sleep.
Sandra's sitting next to me,because Baby Styles is doing great work in making her stay awake.
'How's Baby Styles doing?' I ask Sandra,because honestly driving at night,can be quiet boring
'Baby Styles?' She chuckles
'Yeaah,that's how the boys call your baby' I say,chuckling as well
'And what about the other one?' She says,rubbing her stomach
'Pardon?' I ask,looking at her bemused
'The other one' She states,looking out of the window absent-mindely
'What for another one,Sandra?' I exclaim,almost waking the sleepy heads up
She doesn't answer,but looks at me amused
'You don't want to tell me that you're pregnant with twins,for fuck's sake?' I frown at her,for a second not focusing on the road
'The doctor told me,the last time I was there that,she didn't look right.That's why she has not seen the second child,forming in my body.A girl as well' She smiles at me proudly
'So they will be called Jordan and...'
'Darcy' She answers 'Harry wanted to give the second one the name,because I named the first one after you' She answers
'Was is a hard battle?' I ask getting more curious
'A hard battle' She chuckles again 'That's a good choice of words.It was actually one of the biggest fights we ever had' She smiles at me and I gape at her
'What are you waiting for.Tell me what happend,girl.I know I'm just 19,but time is running though' I say and she starts telling me her little story
I'm now pregnant for 3 weeks and I can tell that movies don't lie when it's up the side effects of a pregnancy.I'm ill almost every day and my mood swings are so frustrating - not just for me.
Harry is so excited about being a dad,I mean,I can't understand why.We're actually too young,aren't we?When my little kiddo comes I'll be twenty.Twenty and mum.I'll have a little creature,crying and screaming and calling me mum.Oh gosh...
I haven't even talk with Harry about how we should call him or her
I would really like to call her Jordan or him Aiden.I hope it's not going to be such a drama..
'Harry?' I ask him softly,trying to start this topic softly and calm
'Beautie?' He answers and that makes me blush
'Have you thought about a name for our little kiddo?'
'Darcy' He states,looking at me,bemused
'Darcy?'
'Yeaah Darcy.What do you have in mind?' He asks me with a frown
'Actually,when it's a girl I want to call her Jordan and if it's a boy I'd like to call him Aiden' I eventually answer
'Jordan?' He asks
'Yes.Jordan' I answer
'Do I have no say in this case?' He asks me,his frown deepens
'Actually..no'
'Sandra,it's my child as it is yours.So I'd also like to say something when it's up to the child's name' He states,getting annoyed
'C'mon.The only thing you did is impregnant me.' I finally answer,my mood swings making my decisions
'Pardon?' He asks and I think he's getting mad at me. Oh no boy,don't play this game with me.
'You know what I mean.You're actually not the one,who's feeling ill everyday and who's gonna be in pain,pressing this little kiddo out of you,aren't you?.And let's stay serious,everything else is up to me' I growl at him
'Are you kidding me?So you want to tell me that I have nothing to say in this case,because I'm a man' He glares at me angryly and that makes me even more angry at him
'Good that you got it' I tell him sarcastically
'Sandra don't behave like child.' He says and that's it for me
'Like a child?!' I yell at him 'Like a child?!'
'Yes that's actually what you're doing.You're behaving like a five years old.' He yells back and I jump up
'Ok,boy don't play with me like that.I'm the one,who has to endure what you've done to me,for the next 9 months and then for the next 18 years,so shut the fuck up' I yell back at him
'Don't you think,to make a baby you need two persons?And I didn't rape you,did I?' He shouts
'No you didn't.But if you were not a horny fucker,I wouldn't be pregnant' I counter at him
'So you're mad at me,because you're pregnant?' He says and stand up as well
'No shit,Sherlock!' I shout at him and want to leave the room,because that's too much for me.
Exactly in that seconde,when I want to leave,he grabs my wrist and holds me back
'Leave me alone fucker!' I growl at him,but he doesn't and I have to stay because he's for fuck's sake,stronger than me
'Leave me in peace,for fuck's sake! I'm pregnant because of you.Isn't that enough?' I shout at him and he doesn't say anything but just looks at me as I try to escape out of his strong hold
'Let me go!' I yell at him again
'And what if not?' He says sternly and I turn around to look at him
'Listen,I'm doing Krav Maga since I'm 7 years old,so don't play with me when it's up to those things' I say calm but sternly,glaring at him
'So you'd hurt me?' He stares straight into my eyes,green eyes meeting light-brown.
'If you'd behave like a fucker,I don't know...' He looks at me shocked
'Sandra,that's not the girl I am falling in love with,everyday a new.What's wrong?' He looks at me serious and I know that it's the time to end up this fight
'No' I whisper and tears prick out of my eyes
'No?'
'No.I would not hurt you.I would never hurt you.I couldn't.Not that I could not up to my skills but I could not up to my heart.I love you' I whisper again as I start crying
'Hey..don't cry' Harry whispers and embraces me
'I'm sorry.I don't know what's wrong with me.It's just..It's just' I take a deep breath
'I know' He whispers
'I thought,I'd lost her.I was so afraid.I still am.I did not know ,what to do if she would have..'
'It's ok' He whispers and strokes my back 'I'm ok with Jordan' He eventually says and I look up and look him in his eyes
'Really?' I ask him,not believing what he's telling me
He nods his head and I give him a kiss
'I can tell' She chuckles and we both start laughing
An hour later,we're at the airport.
'Do you want to wake them up?' I ask Sandra and just now I see that she's sleeping as well
How should I wake them up.I know.A clear my throat,drink a cup of water and start:
Feeling my way trough the darkness
Guided by a beatin heart
I can't tell where the journey will end
But I know where to start
They tell me I'm too young to understand
They say I'm caught up in a dream
Life will pass me by if I don't open up my eyes
Well that's fine by me
So wake me up when it's all over
When I'm wiser and I'm older
All this time I was finding myself, and I
didn't know I was lost
As I go on singing,I hear the sleepy heads grumble and when the song is over I start laughing at them because they look really funny.Eleanor's hair is a mess,Perrie was sleeping on Zayn's chest so her make-up is ruined Liam's head is on Danielle's lap which looks really cute.
My sweeties legs are on Harry's lap and Sandra is sleeping next to me.
'Are we there?' Louis asks as he raises his head from Eleanor's lap
'Yeah.Actually we're there since 10 minutes.Guys wake up' I joke and the others grumble even louder
After a few more minutes of grumbling,they finally stand up and stagger ou of the van.
'Sandra?' Harry whispers 'Wake up,honey'
'Hmm' She says and sleeps again
Harry and I start laughing and he decides to carry her to the airplane
'Thank God that she's even with twins light' Harry jokes and carries her bridal style out of the van
In the plane,which is by the way,morbidly big,I sit down on a seat next to Niall as tiredness runs through me.
'Where are we going now?' I ask Niall sleepily and he laughs at me
'Sweden,baby' He smirks at me
'Real Sweden or France?' I wink at him
'Real Sweden.' He smirks and gives me a light kiss 'Stockholm'
In the van,I'm the one driving,because I'm the only one who can't sleep.
Sandra's sitting next to me,because Baby Styles is doing great work in making her stay awake.
'How's Baby Styles doing?' I ask Sandra,because honestly driving at night,can be quiet boring
'Baby Styles?' She chuckles
'Yeaah,that's how the boys call your baby' I say,chuckling as well
'And what about the other one?' She says,rubbing her stomach
'Pardon?' I ask,looking at her bemused
'The other one' She states,looking out of the window absent-mindely
'What for another one,Sandra?' I exclaim,almost waking the sleepy heads up
She doesn't answer,but looks at me amused
'You don't want to tell me that you're pregnant with twins,for fuck's sake?' I frown at her,for a second not focusing on the road
'The doctor told me,the last time I was there that,she didn't look right.That's why she has not seen the second child,forming in my body.A girl as well' She smiles at me proudly
'So they will be called Jordan and...'
'Darcy' She answers 'Harry wanted to give the second one the name,because I named the first one after you' She answers
'Was is a hard battle?' I ask getting more curious
'A hard battle' She chuckles again 'That's a good choice of words.It was actually one of the biggest fights we ever had' She smiles at me and I gape at her
'What are you waiting for.Tell me what happend,girl.I know I'm just 19,but time is running though' I say and she starts telling me her little story
*6 months earlier,Sandra's POV*
I'm sitting in the living room,my legs on Harry's lap as I think about the last events.Jordan's in hospital.When I heard what happend,I cried so much.I mean,she's my best friend.She always was.Even though,I didn't saw her often after we moved,we stayed in contact.And when I heard that she got kidnapped and all that stuff and when I saw Niall,sitting next to her,his eyes red from all the crying,that was just too much for me.And then there's this other thing.I'm now pregnant for 3 weeks and I can tell that movies don't lie when it's up the side effects of a pregnancy.I'm ill almost every day and my mood swings are so frustrating - not just for me.
Harry is so excited about being a dad,I mean,I can't understand why.We're actually too young,aren't we?When my little kiddo comes I'll be twenty.Twenty and mum.I'll have a little creature,crying and screaming and calling me mum.Oh gosh...
I haven't even talk with Harry about how we should call him or her
I would really like to call her Jordan or him Aiden.I hope it's not going to be such a drama..
'Harry?' I ask him softly,trying to start this topic softly and calm
'Beautie?' He answers and that makes me blush
'Have you thought about a name for our little kiddo?'
'Darcy' He states,looking at me,bemused
'Darcy?'
'Yeaah Darcy.What do you have in mind?' He asks me with a frown
'Actually,when it's a girl I want to call her Jordan and if it's a boy I'd like to call him Aiden' I eventually answer
'Jordan?' He asks
'Yes.Jordan' I answer
'Do I have no say in this case?' He asks me,his frown deepens
'Actually..no'
'Sandra,it's my child as it is yours.So I'd also like to say something when it's up to the child's name' He states,getting annoyed
'C'mon.The only thing you did is impregnant me.' I finally answer,my mood swings making my decisions
'Pardon?' He asks and I think he's getting mad at me. Oh no boy,don't play this game with me.
'You know what I mean.You're actually not the one,who's feeling ill everyday and who's gonna be in pain,pressing this little kiddo out of you,aren't you?.And let's stay serious,everything else is up to me' I growl at him
'Are you kidding me?So you want to tell me that I have nothing to say in this case,because I'm a man' He glares at me angryly and that makes me even more angry at him
'Good that you got it' I tell him sarcastically
'Sandra don't behave like child.' He says and that's it for me
'Like a child?!' I yell at him 'Like a child?!'
'Yes that's actually what you're doing.You're behaving like a five years old.' He yells back and I jump up
'Ok,boy don't play with me like that.I'm the one,who has to endure what you've done to me,for the next 9 months and then for the next 18 years,so shut the fuck up' I yell back at him
'Don't you think,to make a baby you need two persons?And I didn't rape you,did I?' He shouts
'No you didn't.But if you were not a horny fucker,I wouldn't be pregnant' I counter at him
'So you're mad at me,because you're pregnant?' He says and stand up as well
'No shit,Sherlock!' I shout at him and want to leave the room,because that's too much for me.
Exactly in that seconde,when I want to leave,he grabs my wrist and holds me back
'Leave me alone fucker!' I growl at him,but he doesn't and I have to stay because he's for fuck's sake,stronger than me
'Leave me in peace,for fuck's sake! I'm pregnant because of you.Isn't that enough?' I shout at him and he doesn't say anything but just looks at me as I try to escape out of his strong hold
'Let me go!' I yell at him again
'And what if not?' He says sternly and I turn around to look at him
'Listen,I'm doing Krav Maga since I'm 7 years old,so don't play with me when it's up to those things' I say calm but sternly,glaring at him
'So you'd hurt me?' He stares straight into my eyes,green eyes meeting light-brown.
'If you'd behave like a fucker,I don't know...' He looks at me shocked
'Sandra,that's not the girl I am falling in love with,everyday a new.What's wrong?' He looks at me serious and I know that it's the time to end up this fight
'No' I whisper and tears prick out of my eyes
'No?'
'No.I would not hurt you.I would never hurt you.I couldn't.Not that I could not up to my skills but I could not up to my heart.I love you' I whisper again as I start crying
'Hey..don't cry' Harry whispers and embraces me
'I'm sorry.I don't know what's wrong with me.It's just..It's just' I take a deep breath
'I know' He whispers
'I thought,I'd lost her.I was so afraid.I still am.I did not know ,what to do if she would have..'
'It's ok' He whispers and strokes my back 'I'm ok with Jordan' He eventually says and I look up and look him in his eyes
'Really?' I ask him,not believing what he's telling me
He nods his head and I give him a kiss
*back to the here and now,Jordan's POV*
'Oh fuck.That was a battle indeed' I look shocked'I can tell' She chuckles and we both start laughing
An hour later,we're at the airport.
'Do you want to wake them up?' I ask Sandra and just now I see that she's sleeping as well
How should I wake them up.I know.A clear my throat,drink a cup of water and start:
Feeling my way trough the darkness
Guided by a beatin heart
I can't tell where the journey will end
But I know where to start
They tell me I'm too young to understand
They say I'm caught up in a dream
Life will pass me by if I don't open up my eyes
Well that's fine by me
So wake me up when it's all over
When I'm wiser and I'm older
All this time I was finding myself, and I
didn't know I was lost
As I go on singing,I hear the sleepy heads grumble and when the song is over I start laughing at them because they look really funny.Eleanor's hair is a mess,Perrie was sleeping on Zayn's chest so her make-up is ruined Liam's head is on Danielle's lap which looks really cute.
My sweeties legs are on Harry's lap and Sandra is sleeping next to me.
'Are we there?' Louis asks as he raises his head from Eleanor's lap
'Yeah.Actually we're there since 10 minutes.Guys wake up' I joke and the others grumble even louder
After a few more minutes of grumbling,they finally stand up and stagger ou of the van.
'Sandra?' Harry whispers 'Wake up,honey'
'Hmm' She says and sleeps again
Harry and I start laughing and he decides to carry her to the airplane
'Thank God that she's even with twins light' Harry jokes and carries her bridal style out of the van
In the plane,which is by the way,morbidly big,I sit down on a seat next to Niall as tiredness runs through me.
'Where are we going now?' I ask Niall sleepily and he laughs at me
'Sweden,baby' He smirks at me
'Real Sweden or France?' I wink at him
'Real Sweden.' He smirks and gives me a light kiss 'Stockholm'
Notes
I hope you like this Road Trip ideaI think this will go on 3 or four chapters and then some other things start like...
No I'm not going to tell you ha ha ha
OK.BYE BYE
xxjustteenagedirtbags
10/21/13