I'm standing before the mirror.Tears in my eyes and I look tired.Just tired and exhausted.In my hand is a knife and I look at it.Dad told me who my mum's murderer is.I cried.I have scars all over my arms.I cut myself.I look back to the mirror.I smile,a wicked smile.I start laughing and then all of a sudden the knife I had in my hand is in my stomach.

'JORDAN!!JORDAN!!' Niall shouts

I scream loudly

'It's just a dream.Everything's ok.It's just a dream' Niall's above me,stroking my face.

'Pshh,it's ok.It was just a dream' He then whispers and I'm still not sure where I am

'W-What happend' I stutter,perplex

'You obviously had a nightmare.Jordan,you're bleeding'

As I look down my wrist I see it as well and I feel the pain

'Aaargh.That hurts' I mouth

'Here is a plaster,just wait.' As he puts me the plaster on I realized where I am
I'm in the bathroom sitting on the cold floor

'C'mon let's go to the livingroom' Niall carries me there but I am still not sure how that could be

'Jordan.How do you feel?' He asks me handing me a glass of water

'I'm - I'm f-fine' I finally stutter

'You're important to me and I would be sad if you died' He then says

OK?What does that mean?

'Pardon?'

'When I found you,you said ,,Do it,nobody cares if you'd be dead".But I would.I can't think,I don't want to think about you being you know.' I see tears in his eyes 'I love you and I don't want anyone or anything to harm you,not even you to harm yourself' He then carefully takes my wrist and places small kisses on the place where I cut myself

'B-But..I was just dreaming.I didn't know I cut myself while sleeping and I know that I slept in the livingroom after I talked to my dad' Was I sleepwalking?

'Were you sleepwalking?' He then asks me my unspoken question,looking concerned

'Obviously' I whisper still shocked 'But I never did before actually.Just my mum..but you can't inherit sleepwalking so..I don't know.But I don't think that will happen again.'

*Niall's POV*

She looks at me and I see the fear in her eyes.She's afraid.Of herself.I can't help but hug her.She doesn't deserve all the pain she has to go through.Such a beautiful,funny,smart girl deserves to live a normal life.Without problems.Her only problem has to be how to bear me,not how to survive the night without killing herself while sleepwalking.Why does she has to suffer so much?

'I love you,too' She whispers giving me a kiss

'I don't understand why you love me.I'm a catastrophe.I'm a living catastrophe.How can you endure it?'

She doesn't see how much she means to me.I love her since the day I met her.I want to see her laughing,giggling,joy spread around her face.I love to see her smiling.I love to see her being happy.

'I do because I can' She smiles

Praise the Lord she can smile!!
I can't stop hugging her.She's so perfect to me.
Then after lying there,in the silence I notice that she's back to sleep on my chest

Notes

Love you guys

P.S. The dream she had in the story I had two weeks ago everynight for five days and it's really terrible to dream this.

But I love you still

xxjustteenagedirtbags