I've Got This Friend

I walk into school alone today. The musky summer wind smacks me in the face as I try not letting the tears run down my face. On habit, I sat on my front porch waiting for Ashton to bring his jolly self to me and make me laugh, and smile, and happy.

"Wassup Jessie!" Michael cheers making his way over to me. For some reason he complains about going to school, but he always has to show up early.

"Hi Michael." I softly say, trying to give him my best smile.

"'Hi Michael'." He mocks my tone, slouching his shoulders. "What's wrong?"

I shake my head. "I'm good."

"Your not though." He smirks.

"I'm surprised Ashton hasn't told you." I shrug.

"By the way you just spoke his name, I'm guessing it's about him." He says. I raise my eyebrows, letting him work this out. Soon he nods, getting the point. "I haven't talked to him today actually. What is it? Are you two fighting again?"

"Something like that." I sigh and begin walking to my locker.

"Tell me." He whines.

What he doesn't know is that I'm having to push the tears back just talking about the subject. "We're not friends anymore, Mikey."

"Wha? No. That's not true." He states. I turn around to show him my now tear streaked face.
"What the hell is going on between you two? You all used to be attached to the hip."

"Not anymore." I sniffle.

"Come here." Michael puffs out his bottom lip, pulling me into a hug. "I'll talk to him about it, okay?"

I see Ash come around the corner as Michael talks. "Here's your chance. I'll see you around." I push him back as Ashton comes closer. As I'm walking away, I hear him sigh, them murmurs something. Probably about how much he hates me for doing nothing.
That's what i couldn't figure out. Why was he so mad at me? I did nothing to him. I think this is why I'm so upset. Not knowing what I did is killing me inside.

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The school day flew by thankfully quickly for my liking today. I didn't sit with the guys at lunch today. Michael told me to sit with them anyways since the other guys were still my friends, but I didn't want to make Ashton feel uncomfortable with me sitting across from him, so I ate my lunch in a loud silence.

"Jessica are you okay?" Mum asks me when I enter the door.

"I'm fine. Just tired." I say and without another word, I confine myself in my room.

Moments later, a knock sounds at my door, revealing Travis. "Hey bug. You want to talk?"

I shake my head. "Not really."

"Is it Ashton?" Travis bluntly states.

I sigh and sit up, nodding. Instantly the tears come back to my lids. "He hates me, and I don't even know what I did." I sob.

"He doesn't hate you." He shakes his head.

"You haven't even seen the way he acts around me, or head what he said."

"I have time."

I draw in a breath. "He's been upset with me ever since I started seeing Jack. First he was just all moody, and then it turned into rude comments. And now we're not friends."

"I thought you broke up with Jack."

"We weren't even a couple. We went on a few dates is all. But I called it off when Ash started acting this was because I'd rather have my best friend than somebody I didn't know. It just kinda hurt though because it feels like even if I did have boyfriend, Ashton would get jealous and ruin it for me. When I told him this, he told me that if I thought he was getting in the way, then to not even call him a friend. That was the last time I talked to him."

"You should talk to him about it." Travis nods. My frustration level goes from a 1 to a 10 in a matter of seconds. I just told him everything and that's the response he gives me?

"I did. You see where that got me." I spat. "If you just came back here to know what was wrong with me, leave. I didn't ask for your advice."

"Well your getting it. I bet I know what the issue is. I'd much rather you talk to him about, than me tell you." Travis sighs and stands up from the chair.

I don't come out of the room for the rest of the night. I kept thinking about what Travis said, and it's tearing me apart. How come he knows what it is but I don't? Am I really that blind?
Sobbing into my pillow all night, I finally drift off. The water from my eyes making me tired. Little did I know what these next few days had in store for me.

Notes

For the next chapter I'm going to skip ahead a couple weeks or so. So just in case anyone gets confused, that's why. Thanks for reading though! I love you all so much :)