I've Got This Friend

His eyes fluttered. His eyes fluttered. My whole body stiffens and i glare at my broken boy coming back to life. "A-Anne." I draw a shaky voice as everyone lets go of me to let me speak.

"I know, dear. It hurts, but somehow we will get through this." She pats me back hugging me harder.

"N-no. He's-"

"HE'S ALIVE!" Michel yells cutting me off. The room falls very silent as everyone looks to Ashton in disbelief. The suddenly, the whole room rejoices. Cries, and hugs, and 'i love you's' are sent around the room, but i just stand there in complete shock. It felt like i did when we were we first informed that he'd been put in the hospital.

I was numb. I could hear and see everything that was going on, but i was oblivous to it all. Faint whispers of my name flows around the room, but i stand there emotionless. Almost afriad that if i move, everything would shatter. It was all in my hands; I determined his fate. If it meant i couldn't move for him to stay alive then so be it.

"Jessie." Michael's tone voice rings through my ears, pulling me out of the trance. Immedeitely, i feel as though i jinxed everything and start to cry. "No it's fine. It's okay. He's alive. You were right. He's not dead."

I look up to meet Michael's gaze and realize that he really was alive. And to prove that point, his beautiful hazel eyes we're already fixated on me. I look to everyone in the room and they practically push me to his bed. "Jess." Ashton rasps.

"Ash?" I take his hand in mine, trying to let any tears fall on his hand.

"I tried to kill myself, didn't I?" He tries to recall, but i can tell he's having a tough time.

"Your better now. We're all here for you and we all love you. I love you Ashton. I love you so much."

Ashton clenches his jaw and looks away for a moment. "I know why i did it now. I remember."

"Ashton." I warn him from taking too muchat such an early time of being awake.

"You don't-can't love me. I was alone, and empty because you weren't there."

I shake my head, feeling smaller and smaller by the minute. "No. Ashton i'm here now. I do love you. I love you like you've been wanting me to love you, and it's sad that it took me this long to realize."

"Your only saying that because i almost died, Jessica."

"Yeah kind of." I dryly laugh. "You weren't my everything until we were nothing, and that's taking me a lot to say. You don't have to belive me or love me back anymore, but i love you Ashton Irwin. Never do this to me again."

A smile grows on his lips as he licks them and says, "Will you kiss me?"

I lean down and ignore the gasps and groans from the people in the room. The electricty sparks again and we catch fire like the sun. "I love you." I say once again.

"I love you too, Jessica Montgomery."

+++

A couple days later and Ashton was allowed back at home. He was to take it easy for the next three weeks and stay at home. So that's why i'm here now. I lay in Ashton's arms on his bed watching Mean Girls. "Jess?"

"Yes?" I raise up to look at him.

"Thank you."

"For what?" I smile.

"For talking to me whilst i was in outer space. I heard every word you spoke. And to answer your question about what it was s l like to be there, i'd say." He stops and ponders for a moment. "There's nothing like the rain when your in outer space."

I laugh. "There's the Ashton i know and love."

"I've been here. Just in your dreams."

What he says startles me. "Really? Was it really you?"

He nods. "I found a way to give you my subconience thoughts while i was under. I gave you what i was feeling and what i dreamed. The dreams i dreamed were the sad ones, and what i was feeling when you came to talk to me were the happy ones. I don't know its hard to explain."

"You don't have to. I understand." I gently place a kiss on his lips again, needing the feeling of Ashton on my tongue.

"Be mine."

"I am yours. I love you."

"More than yesterday?"

"More than yesterday."

Notes

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