I've Got This Friend

I think being at school is the hardest part about all of this. Everyone asking questions and then spreading rumors about it once they don't get what they want, and then the people who want to sympathize with you, but they really have no idea, last but not least the people who were never your friends in the first place, but still act like they care just to get information from you.

Of course the boys are here to comfort me, but its just not the same. They still follow their normal routine of staying with me until lunch time and then leaving to go off and do whatever they do when Ashton is here. I never acknowledged it before, but without them I'm actually pretty lonely. Ashton was right though; we have a connection that Luke, Mike, and Cal will never have.

More importantly, Jack has been all over me here lately too. At first he'll act like he cares about how I'm feeling, then all the sudden he'll make jokes about it, like its funny. But there's nothing funny about this situation.

"Hello dear." Travis greets me while I'm walking through the front door after school.

"Hi." I murmur, already getting ready to go upstairs.

Travis puts his coffee mug on the folded up news paper on the table, standing up. "How are you feeling today?"

"The same as yesterday, the same as last week." I sigh. "I should probably go get ready for the hospital tonight. I think I might pull an all nighter."

"Anne Marie is already down there. How about you stay here and do your homework, and then go down there for a few minutes. You have school tomorrow, Jess, I don't want you failing."

"You have no idea what I'm going through right now. How about you let me do my own thing and you worry about your own problems, yeah?" I roll my eyes and disappear upstairs to get ready for this long night.

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Anne Marie stands at Ashton's bedside holding his hand and whispering to him. I almost decide on not going in yet and letting her finish with him, but she sees me and her eyes light up. "Jessica. I'm glad you came."

"I'm going to be here until he wakes up." I promise her.

"That means a lot coming from you. You know he think highly of you. You can do no wrong in his eyes." She nods while speaking.

"Yeah." I lightly laugh. "Sometimes I wish he wouldn't think that. I'm not perfect, but he seems to think I am."

"He only thinks that because he feels something for you. Every time your around, his eyes light up like the sun. It's like you put him on cloud nine when your around. Then once your gone, he gets all gloomy and on edge until you come back, and the cycle repeats itself."

"Really?" I ask in disbelief.

Anne Marie nods. "Which is why I think that what you've got going on in here-" She points to my head. "Needs to be sorted out in here." She points to my heart. "Please don't break him any further."

"Anne-"

"I reckon I need to be going. Call me if you need anything." She interrupts me, taking my cheeks in between her hands, and kissing my forehead.

"Bye." I say as she gathers her things and leaves.

With a sigh, I drop to the bench that seems to be my bed here recently, and take out my school books and do my homework before I become too tired to even pick up a pencil. Nearly forty-five minutes pass, and my homework is finished. I didn't get any studying done, but I got the main points in there. I decide to walk over to Ashton and try talking again. "Hey Ashy." I start. "I know you can't hear me, but it'd be nice if you'd wake up in there. Stop be so damn stubborn and wake the hell up. I-we need you to come back. Its beginning to get really tough without you. Anyways, I'm staying the night with you again tonight. I know what you would say if you could: For me to not worry about you, because your not worth worrying about. That's false though, Ashton. Your worth more than anything in the world, and you deserve so much. So much that I'm afraid I can't give it to you. When you wake up we're going to get everyone together and have a huge sleepover that lasts a whole week. That week can consist of whatever you want to do. The week will be yours." I smile, thinking about how excited he would be to hear this type of news.

Suddenly, I start to feel myself drifting and my yawns continuing. "I'm going to get some sleep Ash. Let's see who can wake up first, yeah? Goodnight. I-I lov-i miss you."

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The alarm on my phone was purposefully set at the highest ringtone in the hopes that maybe it would wake him up. Sadly I woke up before him and won yet another bet. I sigh and gather my things to get ready for school today. I seriously considered skipping, but I knew that somehow Travis would find out and kill me for it.

Getting ready in a hospital is not as bad as you might think. Actually its a whole lot less stressful. The lighting is great, and the showers are always hot. I can see why Ash chooses to sleep here.

I kiss Ashton on the head and head out the door to go to school. On the way there, I see Luke up the street. I catch up with him and say, "Hello there."

"Shit, Jessie you scared me. How come your down this way this morning?" Luke jumps, placing his hand over his heart.

"I was at the hospital all night last night." I explain.

Luke makes an 'o' shape with his mouth but doesn't respond for a while. When he finally speaks up, he says, "Is he doing any better?"

I sigh. "Not really. But it's only the first week. He's still got over a month. He'll be fine."

"You sound like your trying to convince yourself too." Luke says bluntly.

"That's because I am, Luke. But we cant give up so early. I think you and the guys should come with me to the hospital after school and try talking to him. The more people are there the most likely chance he has to wake up. Even the doctor said so."

"O-okay. I'll tell the boys that." Luke states and begins walking in a different direction.

"Where are you off to?" I call to him.

"The guys are this way. I'll see you later, yeah?"

I nod but he can't see me because he ran off without hearing my response. Here's to another day alone with the faces.

Notes

Guys I'm so sorry it's been so long. For some reason, I was having trouble updating. Like it wouldn't post chapters. I hope you like this though, and if your new feel free to vote/Sub/comment. Much love,
UnknownRocker