I've Got This Friend

After the kiss Ashton and I shared, we both got really overwhelmed and parted our separate ways. I tried to invite him to come to the pizza parlor with me and the rest of the guys, but he declined. He kept saying how he had to go take care of his siblings.

So now I'm here and the boys may or may not know about the kiss...

"Holy God! No he didn't! Ashton would never kiss you!" Michael exclaims.

"Gee thanks." I sarcastically respond.

"No it's not in a bad way, it's just when Ash talks about you it's simple things like, 'oh I wonder what Jessie is doing today?' or, 'Do you think Jessie would want to hang- Oh my No!" Calum chimes in, making me giggle.

"It all makes since now." Luke calmly responds, clearly more mature out of the three of them. "He always wanted to talk about you. He always wanted you there with him, and even when he was mad at you for that period of time, he wouldn't do any of the things we normally do with you."

I sigh, thinking about all the times we've spent together, and all the times I've been completely oblivious to all of this. My mind wonders to when we went night swimming that night and he told me that when we're together, there is no tomorrow. Oh gosh I'm so awful. I told him that I felt the same way when there was no way I could actually feel the same way... or do I?

"Jessie?" Calum asks me, breaking me from my thoughts.

"Huh?"

"I asked if you liked the kiss..?"

"Oh.. uhh.. I don't-"

"You liked it! Don't lie, Jessie, your turning as red as my pizza sauce!" Michael laughs, talking really loudly.

I groan and put my head in my hands. "Maybe okay? I mean it wasn't that bad. To be honest, it was actually nice."

"So Ash is a good kisser? Did he use tongue?" Luke wonders, raising his eyebrows.

"No." I shake my head. "It was sweet."

"Was it like kissing your brother?" Cal says.

I sigh. "No actually. I mean it was awkward at first, but then it was nice, like it felt right."

"Jessie and Ashton sitting in a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G! First comes love then-"

"Stop!" I whine, shushing Michael from his awful singing/yelling, making everyone turn to look at us.

***

After the pizza parlor, we were all going over to Ashton's house, but he said that he was too busy to have anyone over, so everyone just went home. "Hey Jessica." Says Travis as I enter the door.

"Hi." I smile, heading upstairs.

"Wait, aren't you going to tell me how your day went?"

I give him a funny look. "Since when do you care how my day went?"

"Oh I think I have an idea." He smirks, patting the spot next to him.

I sigh, getting the message, and accept the offer. "So?" He asks me.

"So?" I retort.

"Come on Jess, spill the bean."

I can't help but let the smile creep upon my face. "He you know, just told me what was wrong with him, and we worked everything out." I shrug, trying to act like it wasn't such a big deal that my best friend in the entire world pretty much told me that he loved me.

"And?" Travis pushes forward.

"It doesn't matter okay?" I rush out my words, feeling myself blushing.

"I was right wasn't I?"

"Right about-"

"I knew it! He likes you doesn't he?"

"It doesn't matter. The point is, is that we're working everything out now. So whatever type of advice you gave me the other night helped, so thanks." I smile again, and stand up from the couch.

Once I'm in my room, I sling my backpack to the other side of the room, not caring that I still had homework I needed to do. I lay my body across the bed, and let myself make sense of all this.

I don't really think I've had time to process what has happened today, seeing as everyone keeps asking me questions about it. But now that I think about it, I really don't know if we've worked anything out, or made the situation worse.

What if I can't like him the way he likes me? I couldn't bare to lose him again, but at the same time, I can't pretend that I love him. The kiss though. I liked it. A lot. It just felt so right. So right I almost wanted to do it again.

I don't get anymore time to think about things, as my door swings open revealing Ashton. "Ash?" I question, confused. "What are you doing here? I thought you had to babysit?"

"Yeah mum and dad came home early.." He pauses for a moment and I can sense a bit of sadness in his voice. "Uh, but uh, I just kind of wanted to get out of the house and you were the only one I wanted to see."

I nod, and look down in his hands, just noticing he had his backpack, and another pack full of clothes. "Oh your staying the night." I state more than question.

"If-If you don't want me to, I understand. I'll go see if the guys are available."

"No, Ashy. I would love for you to stay over." I shoot him a reassuring smile, which he tries to return.

Ashton sits his bag down in his normal corner of the room, and sits down on the mountain of pillows I have. We just kind of sit there in an awkward silence, neither of us knowing what to say; something that was very different about us.

After a couple minutes, Ashton speaks up, asking the question that I've been most avoiding. "Did I just screw everything up?"

I have to clear my throat before speaking, "No, Ash. I mean we can't deny that there's a little bit of tension, but you didn't screw up anything. We'll always be best friends." I mentally face palm myself at the last part, but Ashton seems to ignore it.

"A little tension, my ass." He scoffs. "I shouldn't have ever told you..." He says more quietly.

I shake my head and stand up to sit next to him. "It's good that you told me, because I was obviously blind to the fact that you felt that way about me. I never thought you looked at me in that way. It opens my mind to new possibilities."

"Your saying I could have a chance with you?" He asks hopefully.

I let out a small laugh, "Don't get ahead of yourself there. I still have a lot I need to think about. For now lets act like normal friends act. No more tension, no more jealous, just the two peas In a pod that we were before all of this."

"Okay." He nods and looks away sheepishly, quietly saying, "I know that no matter what happens our friendship is strong enough to last through this."

I don't reply, I happily sigh, and lay my head on his chest, letting my breathing become in sync with his heartbeats. Truth is I know that our friendship could last through this also. If not before, I definitely know now. No matter what we are we'll always be best friends.

Notes

So sorry for not updating for 5 days! I've always got so much homework now, and barely any time to write, but I hope you like this :)
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