After that awkward date with Chad, i havent been out since. I've been avoiding Chads calls. I've been avoiding Olivias calls... even Nialls.
I miss him like mad, and i dont know how i can cope. 3weeks and he'll be back. What if he sees the photos and stupid articles theyve been writting about me? **Niall Horans ex girlfriend moved on so soon?** - **Nialls old news to ex girlfriend** with me and chad all over it.

My life is on a stand still right now. I've got none stop hate on twitter from One Direction fans, Niall hasnt updated his twitter since the picture with him and beth. I envy her so much. What if hes dating her now? This cannot be happening.

To: Niall
*We need to talk when you get back x*
It only took a few seconds to recieve a text back from him... I wonder if he's been waiting for me to text him...
From: Niall
*I know we do. Wanna see you so bad xxx*
I smile to myself...
To: Niall
*Is it bad to say ive hated not talking to you?xxx*
From: Niall
*Its been fucking awful!!!! I've been counting the hours down to be back home so i can dive to yours and fix things Aaaliyah. Seriously will xxx*

Why am i so stupid to end him? He has his moments where he doesnt bother, but he's my baby. i adore him. and i want him back so much. I just know when he gets back and reads these storys, things will be different.