Sitting in a posh resturant. Its been a month since Niall and i broke up, i havent returned any of his calls, or replied to any of his texts. Its for the best. He has posted a few sad tweets as i told the world we were over, its filled the magazines with gossip. Get it over and done with ay?

I have cried all i can, and hiden for weeks. Im out, dolled up now.. With Chad. Yeah i feel guilty on Niall but im pretty sure he didnt think twice about me when he was around that bitch, beth.
Chad makes endless conversation through out the night, cheering me up.

Chad: 'i am sorry about Niall. Ina way im glad...'
Me: 'Whys that?'
Chad: 'You deserve better Aaliyah. You deserve all the attention in the world, yet when you were with him, it was the other way around'
Me: 'Oh uhm.. Well im not with him anymore am i.'
Chad: 'Nope... Moving on arent you babes'
Me: 'Yeah pal.'

Chad moves in and puts his hand on mine.. maybe Niall was right? Maybe he wants more than friendship? I let out an awkward giggle and pull my hand from under his.

Me: 'Jeeeez its getting late. Maybe we should call it a night?'
Chad: 'Oh sure yeah! I'll just go pay the bill.'

As we got our coats, chad grabbed my hand and led me out the resturant... Just as we walk outside a few paparazzi up to no good snap us a few times... Oh shit. Chads holiding my hand! What if????.... Niall sees?!?! I drag my hand from chads... walking ahead of him quickly.
Getting to my door step, chad gives me a gorgoeus smile of his.

Chad: 'Thanks for tonight aaliyah.'
Me: 'No probblem. Thank you!'
Chad: 'Just like old times. When you were mine before.'
Me: 'Oh yeah.... Goodnight then.'

Just as i turn to walk into my door, Chad pulls me close and gives me a full on kiss. I wait a few seconds to realise this wasnt right. It was different. it wasnt Niall. I pull away. Shutting my door i hear Chad yell 'We will do this again next weekend yeah?!' Not agreeing i shu tthe door tight. I feel awful. a text?

From Niall: *I miss you x*

I delete it. What am i supposed to do? This hurts so bad. i dont like different, and i dont know how im going to cope when NNialls back in London. I mean.. what about if he sees those photos of me and chad? Oh shit.