Meant to be.
Time heals?
Days go by and im suffering without Niall. I've been missing uni, i dont care. I dont want to care. I feel empty, i didnt go out with chad, i couldnt bring myself too. Olivia has been trying to get me out the house, but i dont want too. One direction seem to be having a blast in america. I wish i could of gone with him...
6.00pm here, im sitting on my sofa with a pot noodle. I wodner what Nialls up to... I look on twitter to see if any of the lads have updated recently to see something my heart just couldnt take...
Louis tweeted a picture of Niall and an ex girlfriend, all snuggled up by the pool.. What? Why the hell is she there if she lives in Loondon? Abit of a coincidence??? Or did he plan it? Am i missing something? I get put off my food. Favouriting it sarcastically. My blood is boiling. He wont let me near chad but he can dive for cuddles with his vile ex's.
To: Niall - *So why is beth with you?*
From: Niall - *She happened to have booked into the same Hotel!! How weird, you ok?xxxxx*
To: Niall - *So you insist on a picture with her yeah? Why is it one rule for me, and another for you Niall? This isnt fair.*
From: Niall - *Babe chill out. Dont be paranoid. Shes a cool girl xxxx*
As i look on twitter once more to see she had tweeted Niall... saying *Having such a laugh. You make me smile xxx* WHY WONT SHE BACK THE FUCK OFF?!!!??!!?!? Even worse. He replied... *Feelings mutual :) xx* How can he do this to me? This isnt working. I cant do this.
To Niall - *Youre right. I should chill.... I dont think this is working Niall. You're single, enjoy yourself. x*
From Niall - *What?? Are you being serious?*
To Niall - *Yeah, Being serious. We argue so much, you just dont understand what youre doing to me. I love you so much but if im in a relationship, i want privacy, and i want my boyfriend to be all mine.. Not share him with the whole world. Im sorry.*
From Niall - *I'll change babe. I'll do anything! You name it, I will fix us i promise*
To Niall - *Not when youre a thousand miles away you wont. We need time and space. Enjoy america x*
From Niall - * Dont break my heart. Please.*
I decide its best not to reply. I cant.... i lay on my sofa crying, my life is going to fall apart without him, but its for the best. Im not cut out for this....
6.00pm here, im sitting on my sofa with a pot noodle. I wodner what Nialls up to... I look on twitter to see if any of the lads have updated recently to see something my heart just couldnt take...
Louis tweeted a picture of Niall and an ex girlfriend, all snuggled up by the pool.. What? Why the hell is she there if she lives in Loondon? Abit of a coincidence??? Or did he plan it? Am i missing something? I get put off my food. Favouriting it sarcastically. My blood is boiling. He wont let me near chad but he can dive for cuddles with his vile ex's.
To: Niall - *So why is beth with you?*
From: Niall - *She happened to have booked into the same Hotel!! How weird, you ok?xxxxx*
To: Niall - *So you insist on a picture with her yeah? Why is it one rule for me, and another for you Niall? This isnt fair.*
From: Niall - *Babe chill out. Dont be paranoid. Shes a cool girl xxxx*
As i look on twitter once more to see she had tweeted Niall... saying *Having such a laugh. You make me smile xxx* WHY WONT SHE BACK THE FUCK OFF?!!!??!!?!? Even worse. He replied... *Feelings mutual :) xx* How can he do this to me? This isnt working. I cant do this.
To Niall - *Youre right. I should chill.... I dont think this is working Niall. You're single, enjoy yourself. x*
From Niall - *What?? Are you being serious?*
To Niall - *Yeah, Being serious. We argue so much, you just dont understand what youre doing to me. I love you so much but if im in a relationship, i want privacy, and i want my boyfriend to be all mine.. Not share him with the whole world. Im sorry.*
From Niall - *I'll change babe. I'll do anything! You name it, I will fix us i promise*
To Niall - *Not when youre a thousand miles away you wont. We need time and space. Enjoy america x*
From Niall - * Dont break my heart. Please.*
I decide its best not to reply. I cant.... i lay on my sofa crying, my life is going to fall apart without him, but its for the best. Im not cut out for this....
EEEP! So excited! Thank you! *glitter kisses*
6/6/13