I looked at myself one more time in the mirror. My pink hair hiding my identity once again. I can't help but wounded, is this how it's gonna be forever? Will I always have two lifestyles? my thoughts were interrupted by my brother Nick, knocking on my opened door.

"Can I come in?" He smiled at me shyly.

"Yeah. Come one." I returned the smile and opened my arms out to him. He jogged straighten into my arms and hugged me tightly.

"I can't believe my little sister is gonna be out of my life for over three months." He looked my in the eyes tearing up slightly. Before you could say Harry Styles, his bottom lip was quivering and tears were falling carelessly.

"Hey, hey. It's only for a while. And I should be the upset one. I'm stuck on tour with four teenage hearthrobs with millions of girls screaming for them to sing a stupid boyband song!" I laughed trying to lighten the mood. He laughed at my joke a little before pulling me into his arms once again.

"I'm gonna miss you so much. The way you smell, The way you sing when your bored, The way you dance horribly around the living room when you think no one else home..."

"What! Okay you ruined the moment. Mushy time is over. I have to get to the airport to meet managment and the boys. Your still dropping me off right?"

"Yeah. Let's go before mom makes you stay." He told me wiping the rest of his tears before grabbing my hand and pulling me out the door. I knew there would be a lot of tears at the airport, but definitely Way more than what I expected.

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We slowly pulled up to the airport and my brother decided to walk me in. Of course with me and Onde Direction being at the same airport, there were hundred upon hundreds of fans lined up outside the entrance. I groaned and got out of the car grabbing my brothers hand before making my way towards the crowd. Oh look and here come the screams.

"Lacy! are you really touring with one direction?" One girl shouted at me.

"If I were one of the boys of One Direction, I would throw myself under the tour bus just to get away from your ugly ass face!" Another one shouted I tried to brushed of the bad comments and listen to the good, but it turned out to be the opposite.

"Lacy your a whore! First you sleep with Niall, and now your going for his bandmates? Your so fucked up!"

"Your so fat! Would it kill you to eat a salad once a month!" I tighten my grip on my brothers hand walking faster torwards the doors. But one last scream cuaght my attention.

"I bet she's only on tour to be their sex slave! She's a tramp anyway, so she needs to keep up on her reputation. You shouldn't have a problem with Harry but Liam might be a challenge. Good luck slut!" Wow. Just wow. Their comments are crule. I gulp feeling my eyes well up with tears but I wouldn't let them fall I couldn't. Once through the doors, I let out a huge sigh.

"I didn't know they were that rude. I swear I almost choked every guy that was looking at your butt with my mind." He laughed. I shot him a fake smile.

"Come on, I don't want to be late. Managment will kill me." He nodded okay. We walked silently hand in hand to the separate section of the airport for private jets only. I noticed four boys and my manager faced away from me. I guess the boys are already here. We walked over to them and I said hello.

"Well well well, Lacy. It's nice of you to join us. And I didn't know you would be bringing a boy to the airport. I told you family only." My manager Angie snapped.

"I know what you said Angie. Nick this is my manager Angie, Angie this is my brother Nick!" I pointed out, her mouth slowly forming to an 'o' shape. My brother being the gentalman he is, reached his hand out and shook her hang politely. He also shook Harry, Liam, Niall, and Louis's. He was literally three times the size of Liam. Much stronger build, broad shoulders, tall, the list goes on.

"Oh well it was nice to meet you Nick but, we really need to board the jet." Liam fake smiles at me and then back at him.

"Okay then, let me have a word with my sister real quick." He didn't wait for a reply before he pulled my arm away from the group. We were still in sight, but far enough away that they all cluldnt hear.

"Your traveling with those dicks! Did you see how rude those two were to me?" He seethed.

"Trust me, if I had the choice, I'd change to the Justin Beiber tour in a heartbeat. Only Liam and Harry are rude to me. And I don't know what I did." I pouted.

"Well call me every ought and make sure you tell me everything you figure out. And Shayla... Please be careful. I don't need a even more broken sister after what the first man in your life did." He said and sounded concerned. Oh here come my tears. The first one fell hesitantly and then the rest of them wouldn't stop. He stayed strong in the others view, showing his tough side, pulling me into a hug.

"I love you Shay, don't forget it. Call me whenever. Any time of day. I'll be here. Call me at least ten times a week at the least. I love you so much." He gushed holding me tighter. I looked ove fm you shoulder to see everyone but Niall and Louis, waiting impatiently for me to be done with my emotional problems. Nick seems to notice to because he lets out a long breath.

"Go. They need to leave. I love you."

"I love you too. Ill call you when we land. Wish me luck. I hugged Hume one last time. Getting a 'Good luck' from him, as we walk away in opposite directions.

"Wow that took you long enough. Now we're five minuites behind Sqedual, good job Lacy. Not a good first impression." Liam glared which made me look down I'm shame. All Harry and him do is say rude things. The ohther two don't even talk to me. At least there not mean. I walk behind all of them onto the plane and sat in one of the chairs. I take out my phone and turn it on airplane mode before plugging in my headphones and listening to music for inspiration on my new song. I want to write a song for some reason. I wonder why.

I pulled out my notebook and started jotting down words that come to my head. So far I had 'Human' 'Bite my tounge' 'Fake smile' 'Force a laugh' 'Bleed when I fall down' (Most of you know this song. But in this fanfic its Lacy's song.) I was on a roll. I needed to have a full song by tomorrow. I know what I'm gonna do. I smile to myself but then my notebook was pulled out from under my hands. I look up and see Harry holding my book.

"Harry give That back!" I yell standing up trying to grab it from his hold.

"Ah-ha ! What do we have here? Is this a song? Well if it is it's horrible. No wonder no one likes your music." He laughed. That hurt a lot.

"Hey Liam mate, come look at her suposivly 'song'." He teased me while I still tried to get it out of his grip. I don't care if they read it. I just want to get it done. Unless it really is horrible. It wasn't even close to done, I was only jotting down ideas and they thing it's bad. I stop trying and look to the ground. I decide I don't need the giggles and grins of the botpys and walk through a hallway towards the back of the plane. I found a door labeled 'Lacy' assuming it was my room, I opened it up and let myself in. I was right, it was my room. I walked over to my bed and payed under the covers. I was sure I locked my door so I could let out my feelings into my pillow.

I started thinking about everything I've heard today. All the insults from my supposed to be fans, the things Harry and Liam said to me, what my brother was saying. It was all overwhelming. Suddenly I had a great idea. I ran over to my suitcase and grabbed my extra Notebook/Diary and wrote down the outburst of lyrics in my head and onto the thin paper in front of me. I was happy with what I had. I sang it in my head a few times, deciding on the tempo and the beat. I can tell this song was going to be a home run. I hid my notebook this time so no one could read anything I wrote. I exited the room with a smile on my face and walked to the kitchen to get some food.

When I walked out, all the boys gave me stares but I just walked past them not even caring. I saw the notebook laying on the counter so I ripped the page with my words on it out, crumbled the paper and threw it away. I looked over at them and smiled.

"Thanks for the inspiration!" I spoke perkily. They gaped at me shocked that I had wrote a song already in less than an hour.

"Don't worry lads we don't have any competition. It probably sucks!" Liam smiled evilly at me. I kept my happy face on not even fazed one bit. If only he knew how good it was. I guess he'll know soon when it's number one in the country. I turn to the fridge and search the contents. I look in the cabinets also and decide to be nice and make everyone some pasta for dinner. I grabbed everything I needed to make my secret Alfredo dish. It took about an hour and a half but it was finally done. And let's just say, it smells Amazing!

"Dinners ready!" I say loudly to the lazy men sprawled out everywhere around the room. Their heads shot up and I'm for sure Niall's shot up at the speed of lightning. They jump up and raced to the table taking every single chair in the four seater table.

"Sorry love, but I don't thing you need to eat anything more for the week." He said with disgust looking my body up and down. I frown deeply.

"Harry!" Louis yelled with wide eyes.

"Oh no Louis, it's alright. I wasn't even hungry anyway. I'll just go back to my room." I fake smiled.

"That sounds perfect. But I would prefer you going back to LA instead. Doesn't that sound better Liam?" He asked cockily.

"That sounds grand. Oh and by the way, this food is Devine." He smirked. I roll my eyes and scoffed before turning on my heel and walking back to my room. I shut the door and locked it, slowly sliding down the door. I started crying. And not just crying, sobbing. What did I do? I'm only being human...

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