Dear Niall,
I went to my first therapy session with Calum. It was hard to talk about you without crying. Calum was still upset with me that I wanted to go live with mom. The therapist said that it was a good idea because I could clear my mind and forget about you. That's when I broke down. I didn't want to forget about you. I want you to be okay and I want you to come home. I miss you so much. Today Zayn is taking me to the carnival. Remember you took me on the carnival for our first date and you were "brave" enough to go on the Ferris Wheel and when you got to the stop you got so scared and then you kissed me and you were okay. I miss these moments. I want to make more memories with you. Well I have to go.

Byeeeeeeeee
I love you so much!
Eva
_____________________________________________________________________________


(Eva's outfit above!!!!)

I closed my book and put it under my pillow. I heard a soft knock on my door. "Come in." I said sitting at the edge of my bed. Zayn peeked his head in and looked at me and smiled. "You ready?" He asked coming into my room.

I smiled and got up and grabbed my phone off of my night table. "Yeah."

He smiled and we walked to his car. We were driving to the carnival with the radio where it was low enough that we could both hear it. As we were driving all I could think about was Niall.

What if he's dead? What if he's cheating on me? What if he's committed suicide? I thought.

"You ok?" Zayn asked.

I snapped out of my thoughts and looked at him. "Huh?"

"You ok?" He repeated.

"Yeah." I said looking out the window. "I'm ok."

"Ok you just were quiet that's all." Zayn said.

I nodded and kept looking out the window. About ten more minutes of driving we finally reached the carnival. That made me think about Niall even more. But I couldn't let Zayn know he would just take me back home.

Throughout the night, me and Zayn were having lots of fun. We played the mini games, we shared cotton candy, we talked, he even won me a bear. We were heading out to the car to go home when I stopped and looked at the Ferris Wheel. Zayn stopped and looked at me.

"Do you want to go on it?" He asked looking at me.

I smiled and nodded and started to walk to the ride. I looked back and saw Zayn just standing there.

"You coming?"

He was still looking up at the ride and he looked at me and smiled and nodded. We got onto the seat and it start to go up.

"I had a lot of fun." I said swinging my feet back and forth.

I looked over at Zayn and he was looking down.

"Zayn?" I asked.

"Hmm?" he said looking over at me.

"Are you ok?" I asked.

"Yeah just afraid of heights that's all." He said.

We were at the top and I held his hand. "It's ok the ride is almost over." I smiled. He smiled and nodded.

We were at the top for about five minutes. I opened my mouth to talk to Zayn but I was cut off by his lips on mine. He was kissing me. All my thoughts about Niall were gone. I couldn't even think of Niall all my mind was on the kiss. I was shocked.

But I kissed back.

Notes

HERES AN UPDATE!!!!!! WHOO!

I hoped you guys enjoyed the chapter. I was going to update yesterday but I was too lazy. HAHAHA so anyway my in home tutoring starts tomorrow and I'm really excited. Plus more updating and I've been thinking a squeal for this story and I really think you guys are going to like it. Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Don't forget to follow me on my social medias!!!!

snapchat- stayawkwardxoxo
instagram- stayawkwardxoxo
we heart it- stayawkwardxoxo
Pinterest- princesskatiebugbug
tumblr- stayawkwardxoxo
kik- stayawkwardxoxo
Spotify- stayawkwardxoxo
musical.ly- stayawkwardxo