Everything I Didn't Say

Caleb paces the floor as we wait for the arrival of his father. My hands are still shaking as I'm still trying to come to terms with the fact that I'm pregnant with Luke's child. After everything we've been through, and after me leaving him thinking that I could be free of everything all together, it seems we are going to be joined for life. I don't know if that scares me, or comforts me.

Nonetheless, now isn't the best time to be thinking about this. Today is about Caleb and his father. "What will I say when he comes? What if he tries to take me back home with him? What if he fights-"

"He's not going to take you back home, Caleb. Yes he's been given the chance to visit you since he's out, but he doesn't have custody of you. And he can't fight for it back either." My father tells him.

"But eventually he can, right?" He asks. "You know after he's convinced the court that he's changed or whatever?"

"Your 17 years old. In about three months from now, your going to be 18. You have the right to choose now, not him. If you don't want to go back with him you don't have to."

"Oh.." Caleb says, defeated and sits on the couch to take a breather.

"You know speaking of birthdays," Shelby speaks up. "...Isn't Adeline's birthday tomorrow?"
Normally I would have gotten mad that everyone forgot, but the truth is, I forgot as well. "It is, Shelby." My mum speaks up. "I didn't forget, don't worry dear."

"It's okay, ma. Honestly I forgot too." I smile.

"Well I didn't. I'm your mother what'd you expect? My baby is turning 21."

'21 and pregnant by the boy you most despise.' I think to myself, but only smile back to her in response. The doorbell rings before anymore conversation can be carried out.

Caleb jolts up, but his feet won't let him walk to the door. Dad greets him however, seeing as this was his brother. "Dan. How've you been?"

"I'm doing better. I've missed you guys! Oh how much you've all grown!" My uncle Dan exclaims moving in the house and hugging me first. I look over his shoulder and spot at least three police officers. This makes me uneasy, so I push him back.

"Nice seeing you too, Uncle Dan." I put on a grin, trying to be as nice as I can.

Shelby on the other hand, not so much. "I don't do hugs, sorry." She makes a disgusted face and shakes her head.

"I get it. Me either." He jokes, but doesn't make her laugh either. Ma gives her a small nudge as he makes his way over to her. "Rose. How are ya?"

"I've been okay. Caleb is just such a blessing." She gushes. Uncle Dan's face lights up and he turns around to admire his grown son.

"Caleb. Oh how I've missed you." He steps up to exchange hugs, but Caleb steps back much like Shelby.

"How was prison?" He asks.

Uncle Dan looks hurt for a moment, but he seems to understand Caleb's reaction so he acts like he's pondering his response. "It wasn't great, son. Don't ever do the wrongs that I've done."

"Don't worry, I don't have the heart to murder." He retorts, making us all gasp
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"Caleb!" I whisper/shout.

He shrugs, "He killed my mother, Addy." And he follows the rest of the family into the lounge.
"So what are your plans now that your out?" My father wonders, sipping wine.

"I hope to get a job somewhere, and get a place somewhere around here, so maybe I can see Caleb some more."

"You can only see me if I want to see you." Caleb mumbles, but everyone heard.

"Anyways," Uncle Dan continues, "I'm not trying to prove myself to anyone here. I'm not changing because I want people to give me their applause. I'm changing because I know that's what's best. "

"Well good job, brother. I'm proud of you." Dad clasps his leg.

"We all are." I speak up.

"Look at how pretty you are." Uncle Dan, grins. "Who's the lucky man you've got in your life?"

My smile falters as I think of Luke and our position we're in now. He doesn't even know about it. "No one." I say hardly above a whisper.

"You just haven't found the right one then. When the one comes you'll know it." He tells me.

"How would you know?" Caleb speaks up. "Mum obviously wasn't the one for you. If she was then you had a pretty fucked up way to show it."

"Caleb!" Mum shouts. "Now that's enough. We all understand that you have the right to be upset with him, but that is still your father! He took time out of his day, and his probation to come visit with you. Respect that."

"Why should I ever respect him after what he did?! He killed my mother, Rose! That shouldn't go unforgiving!"

"Caleb-"

"No! I'll be back when he leaves." Caleb storms out.

"I'll go check on him." I nod, and follow him onto the porch. "Hey."

"He expects me to forgive him, Adeline. How? How do I forgive someone who has done something so awful to me?"


"Maybe he thought he was doing something to help you. Maybe he thought it would benefit you in the end." I say. He must be forgetting about what Luke had put me through.

"How was killing my mother supposed to benefit me?" Caleb scoffs.
"I don't know. That's for you to find out. Look if he's come here to show that he cares, then there is obviously something more to it. Only Uncle Dan knows why he did what he did, and if he really cares he'll tell you."

"How do you know so much about this?" Caleb asks.

"Luke." We both say in sync. Then we laugh. "Anyways, what are you going to do about being.. you know pregnant?" He asks awkwardly.

"I don't know." I shrug. "I mean either way he has to know, I'm just look for the right time. I'm just wondering how mum will take it, you know?"
"Yeah, I bet she'll flip. Sooner or later she'll have to come around to it."

"Yeah." I nod. "But this isn't about me. I'll figure everything else out as I go. Right now, you should go talk to your dad. I'm not saying you have to forgive him, but at least give him a chance."

"When did you become so wise?" Caleb rhetorically questions, then strolls back into the house. I stay outside and smile to myself, feeling accomplished that I might have just helped but a relationship back together.

Then my smile disappears for the second time today as I start battling with my emotions. How come I could help another person put their relationship back together, but I can't even save myself? And know I have a very grown up situation to deal with and I don't even know where to start.

Do I miss Luke? Yes. Do I want him back in my life? I don't know. Do I want a relationship with him again? I would love to make it work. But am I too late? He's probably already moved on from me and caught some other girl in his trap by now. I'm probably just another face in his pity parade.

~Xx~

I knock on my door startles me from my awakened slumber. I roll over and rub my eyes, soon opening the door to be met by Uncle Dan. "Hey sleepy head, didn't mean to wake you." He laughs. "I just wanted to say that whatever you said to Caleb worked. How did you know what to say?"

"I've had someone do an awful thing to me before, and talking about it brought us closer." I grin thinking of Luke.

"Does this have anything to do with the boys wondering outside the house?"

"What?" I ask utterly confused.

"There's been four boys walking up and down the street all night. You'd better go talk to them if their searching for answers." I nod as he gives me a light hug and walks down the hallway.
As I step outside, I spot Michael and Calum being dumb like per usual. "Guys? What are you doing out here?"

"Nothing!" They both yell.

"What are you doing out here?" Michael questions me back.

"Well this is my porch." I smirk. "What's going on?"

"Well uh.. you know.."

"Just taking a stroll." Ashton chimes in walking behind them.

"In my neighborhood?"

"It's nice." Calum shrugs.

"Well go home. You're scaring my family." I say and begin to turn around. That is until I hear him clear his throat. Slowly I turn around to be met by his undeniably, pale, flawless, blue-eyed face.

"We'll leave you to it." Ashton says and grabs the boys by their necks.

"What are you doing?" I ask him, hardly above a whisper.

"Just.." He drags out looking around.

I sigh and turn back into the house. "Adeline?" He calls.

"What?" I question, but I don't turn around to face him. It's too hard.

"I still love you." He speaks those painful words I never thought I hear again. "Tell me you still love me." By now I can hear him crying. I would give anything if I could've turned around, wrapped him in a hug and told him about our child, and let everything fall away. But I couldn't. I draw in a shaky breath and step behind my front door.
I am greeted by a pitch black sleepless lounge. I slide down the door and sob into my knees.

Notes

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