Everything I Didn't Say

Ashton's mum passed on December 12, last week. He didn't take it too lightly of course and he called everyone over to comfort him. That was the first time I saw Adeline in over six weeks. She was with her family and they seemed very determined to make him happy again. He soon realized that he had to at least act like he was doing okay for his siblings.

He stayed to himself for a couple of days, which I completely understood. Honestly it only made me feel closer with my mother. I couldn't imagine losing her. I keep thinking back to when I screamed at her and moved out. What if I were to leave and something were to happen and I never saw her again? I could never live with myself.

Anyways, Ashton is over at my home while his siblings are at school trying to get his mind off of things. "So I heard about you and Adeline." He speaks up.

"I'm sure everyone has heard. Have you been keeping on touch with her as well? I know Calum is. Hell is has probably chose her over me by now." I sigh, trying not to sound rude.

"I mean I'm not as close with her like Michael and Calum are, but yeah I talk to her sometimes. She told me what happened an all."

"Did she make me out to be the bad guy?" I raise my eyebrows already knowing the answer, I believe.

"No actually. She owned up for what she did to push you out. I think she just thought that she was cause you to lash out at her and continue to hurt her. Some people are meant to fall in love, but they aren't meant to be together."

"Very poetic of you Ashton." I chuckle sarcastically. "I never meant for her to feel like I was lashing out at her. And I didn't know that she felt that way. I guess we were at a communication loss."

"Probably." Ash nods, looking at his watch. "Better go pick up the kids from school."

"You sound a dad." I laugh.

"Might as well be. Even though my grandfather is there to help, he too old to do much. It all kind of comes down to me now, and I'm going to make sure they have the most normal life they can."

"Your a good brother, Ashton. To me too." I smile. "It will get easier."

"I hope so." He nods again, trying to keep the tears from falling.

"Anyways, I gotta go to work. See you later."

~Xx~

I stand in my spot at work behind the desk, watching the normal rich families take their children bowling for a night out or a birthday party. I sigh wishing I was one of the lucky guys who were taking their significant other on a nice cheesy date. My stomach growls and I make my way towards the back to take out my lunch which my mum had packed me.

Suddenly my stomach churns as I feel a presence behind me and I smell perfume. Although Addy never wore perfume, I half expected it to be her and I turn around. Only to be met by Amanda. I no longer have an appetite as she smirks and taps on my cheek. "Long time no see, aye?"

"Y-yeah Amanda. How is it?"

"Fine now. Say how about we take this to my car. I know you've been there before." She smiles a seductive smile, biting her lip.

I shake my head and close my eyes. "Who let you back here anyways?"

"Nobody wad in the front and it doesn't look like anyone needs you assistance tying their shoes so, what's the problem?"

"Uh.." I swallow as she starts kissing my cheek, and down to my neck.

"You like that?" She breaths.

"No Amanda." I breath harshly. "Get off. I have a-" I stop realizing that I don't have what I was about to say.

"Do you? I don't see her anywhere, do you?"

"Please stop." I beg her, as I involuntarily feel my member rise beneath her.

"But you don't want me to do that, do you?" Without waiting for my response, she attacks my mouth with her lips.

Suddenly my anger boils and I shove her off of me. "I said stop! Adeline may not be here with me anymore, but I still love her! Her-and only her will have my heart forever!" I bark at her.

He face goes white and she carefully backs up. When she disappears, I slide down the wall she had me up against and tug on my hair. I have let the best thing that has ever happened to me walk straight out of my life all because of her. This low life piece of trash that will never amount to anything in life has ruined everything that I will ever care about.

I can't let her go this easily. I just can't. As I let a tear fall from my face, I think about the most perfect idea to solve this once and for all and prove to her how much she really means and how much I'm willing to work to make this right. A smile creeps upon my face as I think of the perfect solution. I know just what to do.

Notes

Thanks for reading! Two chapters to go! Love you all, Happy Holidays :)
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