Doing fine all on my own
Cause I know that this was right for me
Now you're feeling all alone
I heard you're sorry now but that's what you wanted
You took me for granted all the time

Had to save my own self from all your evil games
And now it ain't the same
You will have no such luck to try to come inside
It is to be denied

Tie my heartstrings, I tie my heartstrings off
Tie my heartstrings, I tie my heartstrings off

Now you know I'm doing well
You try to catch me when I'm finally free
You only did this to yourself
I bet you're sorry now but that's what you wanted
You took me for granted all the time

Had to save my own self from all your evil games
And now it ain't the same
You will have no such luck to try to come inside
That is to be denied

Tie my heartstrings, I tie my heartstrings off
Tie my heartstrings, I tie my heartstrings off
Tie my heartstrings, I tie my heartstrings off
Tie my heartstrings, I tie my heartstrings off


I finish the song, and put my head down.
“Yea its not tha”
“Are you kidding, that was amzing, your so good, wait you wrote that”?
“Yea I guess it’s my therapy or something.” I say as I place my guitar on the floor beside my bed.
“You know I feel the same way when I play, you know you just feel like your in your own world and it’s just you and every time I string a cord its like you let your frustration out.” Niall says so confidently.
“Wow Niall it’s like you were you just said what I was thinking.” I smile back at him.
I am so thankful to have someone like Niall in my life, he is honestly by best friend and I can talk to him about anything.
“So how are you really going?” he says to me. You see this is why I love him he knows something is up with me even when I try and hide it.
I sniff and think about how to answer him, just let it all out he won’t judge.
“Honestly. I have no idea I just I don’t know I am sick of everything Ni”. And the tears are coming down,” I want to be able to do things, I want to be living a life that everyone else is, I don’t want my parents always fighting or my brother feeling neglected because the attention is always on me, I don’t want this life anymore I want to be better, I want to go a day without crying or feeling sorry for myself and normal and just live.” I try and say as my tears are just pouring down like rain, I have my head on Niall’s shoulder (again getting his t.shirt soaked) I feel like I have had all those.
Niall doesn’t move a muscle or say anything he is just there with his head over mine now. This is what I love no words, just silence. This is what I need, it’s all I ever needed from him as well.

Notes

hey guys the song is Heartstrings by Leighton Meester :)