Real love tested.
chapter 35
Afterwards we headed back into the flat. It was about 3AM and Harry informed me he will be catching the next flight at 8AM. He needs to go straight back to London put the fining touches on their second album then plan for their tour which will begin shortly after promo. Unfortunately he doesn’t have time to come back to see me, with such busy schedule. But I appreciate it so much the one chance he gets time off he comes and makes me feel very special like a princess.
We are both lying down on the couch and he grabs my left hand and looks at the ring I have on that he gave me.
“One day this will be not only our promise ring but your engagement ring that I have given you when we were and will be so completely in love forever.”
“Love you Harry”
I get myself up off the couch and make my way to the bathroom in the flat.
“Where you going?” Harry asks me.
“To get changed”.
“You can get changed here, nothing I haven’t seen before.”
I hesitate for a moment. For a minute there I was in my own perfect bubble where I wasn’t sick and Harry and I were so in love.
“Yes I know that, I have to pee as well, so.” I randomly came up with.
“Oh ok.”
I head into the bathroom quickly get changed I have some clothes here, for when Harry and I used to stay in his room. I then quickly realise what am I supposed to do Harry and I are going to be on the couch together sleeping and his going to put his hands around me what if he notices my tube I have on my right side. I have to think of something fast.
I come out of the bathroom, find Harry still sitting on the couch.
“Hey why don’t we watch a movie, until it is time for you to leave?” I suggest to Harry.
He looks up at me and responds with a yes.
So I put on 21 Jump Street and we start watching it cuddling on the couch and me being very self conscious of where Harry places his hands. After the movie ends Harry has fallen asleep, I get up put a blanket on him and head over to the other side of the couch as I start to fall asleep I hear a ringing noise and it’s Harry alarm for him to wake up and head off to the airport. I go over to him sleeping so peacefully not wanting to wake him up, but I have to.
“Harry” I whisper to him
His gorgeous green eyes flutter open and he turns his head to see me and he smiles, oh god that smile is so amazing.
“Time to get up and leave again” I said as he gets up and stretches.
He then goes to get changed he doesn’t have anything with him except a little bag that has his suite in it from the night before. I hug him goodbye and thank him for everything he had done last night and give him a massive hug and kiss goodbye.
It’s been about three weeks now since Harry had come and surprised me. It’s been a little strange we don’t talk as often I know he is very busy and so am I with my treatment and catching up on homework and assignments. But to be honest ever since I seen him last I have been a bit distant with him especially on treatment days and coming home and being so exhausted and just sleeping for three hours. He will try and call him while I’m napping and I won’t get back to him until the next day but he won’t answer because his either busy or I am totally unaware and don’t even think about the time difference.
Everything at this time as taken its toll everything is getting to me. My dialysis is taking over my life I don’t go out anymore, I am always tried, I’m missing out on my final year of school and I feel totally completely alone I just someone to talk to who knows what I am feeling. But I have shut myself out from the world.