Real love tested.

I’m lying down on the couch in the flat that the boys would normally be. I go in there sometimes to sleep on the couch in there and something ignites in my body and I just get a flood of funny memories of all the good and funny times we have all had in there. I’m scrolling down my Facebook feed and just mucking around on my phone and all of a sudden I just burst into tears. I have only been having treatment for two weeks but it honestly feels like two hundred years. I am just so annoyed with this whole thing I should be at school with all my friends finishing our final year of high school together. All of my friends know what is happening with me, but I feel I need to vent to someone else because my friends they are all empathetic and all but they have their own stuff going on with school stuff and university choices. I don’t want to vent to my mum because she is trying to deal with all of this as much as she can but I know she is hurting as well seeing her child going through something traumatic and not living a normal life. I grab my phone from the table that I placed it on and I go through my phonebook and scroll down to Liam I have decided I want to speak to him about it, he has some understanding of what I’m going through having one kidney and all even though he never had experienced what I am he could still live of some what a normal life he never got to the stage where he needed dialysis like me thank god for him otherwise his life would be so completely different.
“Hey Liam” I said as he answered the phone.
“Oh hey love long time what’s happening?” he replied back.
“Do you have time for a chat?” I asked him.
“Yea sure babe, did you want to talk to Harry as well his just popped out but I
“No its ok I just wanted to talk to you if that’s ok” I said as tears were falling from my eyes to my cheek.
“Is everything ok love?” Liam said in a worried tone.
“Umm no not really.” I said

So I have told Liam about everything and to be honest it is like a massive weight has been lifted from my shoulders it felt good to talk to him and just let everything out I was feeling. He was more than helpful and just sat there listening to me ramble on but he promised me I wasn’t rambling and if I needed anything from him I was just to ask no matter where he was if I just needed another chat to call him and he would drop everything and speak to me. I am so grateful to just have someone to talk to but he was over sympathetic about the whole thing and I am so grateful and blessed to have someone like Liam in my life.
That night I finished my homework and tomorrow was Thursday which means I get to go to school. I actually look forward to going to school now it’s a distraction for me and when I go there I feel normal like I’m living a normal life. I tuck myself in under my covers check my phone before I place it on my bedside table. As I close my eyes my phone starts vibrating and it’s an incoming call from ‘Little Leprechaun’ so I decide to answer it.
“Hey love am I interrupting anything?” he said.
“No I’m just lying in bed”
“Oh sorry, are you ok? Niall said
“Yea I’m fine just long day.”
“Hey I don’t know how to say this, but I heard yours and Liam’s conversation he had it on speaker phone in his room and I was a bit rude and eaves dropped I’m sorry if you want me to pretend I don’t know anything then that’s what I will do.” Niall said.
I wasn’t upset at all that Niall knows but now that probably increases the chance of Harry finding out from them and not me. I mean Liam swore he wouldn’t say anything and I guess I had to believe him. But now that Niall knows I guess that’s extra comfort and support that I’m going to need. I still feel horrible I mean Liam and Niall both know now, but Harry doesn’t and I’m going to have to tell him soon.

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