Real love tested.
chapter 29
I then find myself waking up on the couch I’ve had another sleep; it’s been a real hectic chaotic day today. Harry leaving then getting the worst news of my life saying I’m going to have to go back on dialysis again because my kidney has rejected. I remember being on dialysis when I was younger but this time it will be different, it will be done inside the hospital I will have tube surgically placed in my neck and then I will be having aggressive treatment three to four times a week for four hours.
I keep looking back at the ring that Harry has given me; I decided to put it back in the box just in case I was to lose it. I just want to call him and discuss this whole situation with him but I have to wait a whole other day by the time he arrives back in London, goes to his house, unpacks and does all that crap then I can call him. I cannot lie and I have been thinking about all of this is my head I would love to get married to Harry but where and when I mean people in the world didn’t even know we are dating. I mean there could always be a secret wedding maybe in my backyard that would be so cool and intimate just family and of course the boys all of them as one best man.
The next night I open up my computer and click the Skype icon and set up the call with Harry, he has already messaged few hours ago saying he got home safely. Incoming call so I answer it at first I don’t see him clearly the screen is blurry but after a minute or two the screen is clear as glass. I am chatting with Harry asking him about his flight, how the rest of the boys are and their schedule and when he will come and see me again. The topic comes up about the ring he left me and we discuss and he tells me it can be whatever I want it to be. An engagement ring or a promise ring but one day he and I will definitely be getting married and that is a reminder of no matter where we are in the world even if were apart we will find our way back to each other.
The next morning approaches and it is the day I am most dreading it’s the first day back at school and the last year ever – year 12 for everyone and my final year is supposed to begin but instead today is my day of dialysis treatment at the hospital. The dialysis machine is something that keeps your kidney functioning when your kidney can’t do it by itself, I am officially on the transplant waiting list for a new kidney but who knows how long that might take it is going to be a long waiting game. I go to the hospital place myself on the big red chair and wait for the nurses to get all the appropriate equipment out so they can connect me to the machine. I place my top lower so the nurses have access to my catheter which was surgically implanted to my near collarbone which is the access point to connect me through the dialysis machine. This tube is very sensitive and has to be taken care of for instance I am not allowed to get it wet so therefore no showers, swimming nothing like that. So now I only have baths and can’t go to the beach which really sucks because it is one of my favourite places to go.
I get home from my first ever dialysis session and I am absolutely exhausted I go straight into my room and just place myself inside my bed, my head is spinning so I just close my eyes and withing two seconds I was fast asleep.