https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=LEV1QCeVgW4

I found myself dreaming
In silver and gold
Like a scene from a movie
That every broken heart knows we were walking on moonlight
And you pulled me close
Split second and you disappeared and then I was all alone

I woke up in tears
With you by my side
A breath of relief
And I realized
No, we're not promised tomorrow

So I'm gonna love you
Like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna hold you
Like I'm saying goodbye wherever we're standing
I won't take you for granted 'cause we'll never know when
When we'll run out of time so I'm gonna love you
Like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you


In the blink of an eye
Just a whisper of smoke
You could lose everything
The truth is you never know

So I'll kiss you longer baby
Any chance that I get
I'll make the most of the minutes and love with no regrets

Let's take our time
To say what we want
Use what we got
Before it's all gone
'Cause no, we're not promised tomorrow

So I'm gonna love you
Like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna hold you
Like I'm saying goodbye wherever we're standing
I won't take you for granted 'cause we'll never know when
When we'll run out of time so I'm gonna love you
Like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you

I'm gonna love you
Like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna hold you
Like I'm saying goodbye wherever we're standing
I won't take you for granted 'cause we'll never know when
When we'll run out of time so I'm gonna love you
Like I'm gonna lose you
I'm gonna love you like I'm gonna lose you

The small cafe audience applauded as I finished the song. People then walked up and started putting money in my tip jar on the edge of the stage. I thanked them all then gathered the tips and my other personal belongings before heading out of the tiny coffee shop. It was quite chilly out but I didn't care, My heart was already cold but I'm not talking about from my walk. Let me explain.

My name is Nicole Oakley. I'm 22 years old and I've already failed at life. I graduated high school at age 17. I was smarter than all the other kids at my age so I got skipped ahead a year. I'm originally from New York but I moved to Doncaster when I was 7. When I got started at school in Doncaster all of the kids teased me because of my accent. But one day someone named Louis stood up for me when a few fourth grade girls cornered me on the school playground. We where best friends from that point on. We were attached at the hip through middle school and high school. He introduced me to his group of friends and they all accepted me for who I was. They made me feel happy all the time. It was all going good until he started seeing this new girl that moved to school. Her name was Eleanor. Eleanor Calder. She was a bitch. She always outdid me at the simplest things. While I was co-captain of the cheer squad, she was captain. When I was second place at the 11th grade spelling bee, she was 1st. And while I was Louis best friend, she was Louis's girlfriend. They dated all of Junior and then all of Senior year. Louis started ditching our hangout dates and sleepovers to go hangout or suck faces with that preppy bitch. You may think I was just acting jealous, but I wasn't. Everyone in our group hated her just as much as I did. But we didn't dare to tell Louis how we all felt. Except me.

One month before graduation I confessed my feelings about Eleanor to Louis. He was upset that his best friend didn't like his girlfriend so he said he would talk to Eleanor about spending more time with me and the group. The next day he came to school and ignored me the whole day. Eventually one day turned into one week. Then one week turned into three, and before I knew it it was graduation day.

~flashback~

I found him in the hallway after the Ceremony but he was still ignoring me as if I wasn't even there. I decided I had had enough of whatever he was doing and yanked him back towards me. I asked him why he was ignoring me and he told me it was nothing. I knew he was lying just by looking at his eyes. I was just about to break down, But then the devil herself walked up and asked what was going on. He told he nothing was going on just like he told me and gave her a kiss on the lips. I cringed and looked away with tears in my eyes.

"Come'on babe, we don't wanna miss our flight." She pulled at him.

I asked Louis what she was talking about. And what he told me broke my heart.

"Me and Eleanor are flying to the United States to see her sister and then we are moving in to an appartment in London."

I looked at him with tears running down my cheeks. "So your leaving me?" My voice cracked.
He didn't say anything but just stared at me with tears in his eyes as well. Then I just broke.

"What happened to university. We were going to uni together Louis, do you remember that! We were gonna go to my grandmas funeral two months ago because you convinced me to go but you never showed up. You weren't at the surprise party Harry, Liam, and Niall threw for me, because you were with her. She's changed you Louis. And it's not for the better!
I thought I was important to you. What happened to all the promises we made?" I continued yelling.

"Huh? Or did you totally brainwash him you stupid bitch!" I said walking over to Eleanor getting in her personal space. By now Liam, Niall and Harry were watching me but they weren't going to stop me, cause I know they wanted to say all of these things just didn't have the balls to speak up.

"What the fuck is wrong with you. You sound like a lost puppy! God your so clingy. He's not, yours!" She yelled back at me

"He was mine! My best friend! The only person to hold me when I was upset. The only person that could make me smile after my grandpa died. The only person that would stand up for me in third grade when I almost got beat up by a group of bitches just like you! He told me he would never fall for a popular preppy girl just like you, but like I said you probably brainwashed him, Because that's obviously the only method you could use to get a boy as kind as Louis wrapped around your boney ass finger!" I screamed shoving her back by her shoulders.

"Don't touch me bitch! I don't want your loser germs!" She said shoving me back Harder causing me to stumble slightly. I regained my balance quickly and continued talking.

"You know what? There's only one way to settle this problem." I spoke as I walked over to Louis that was now over by the wall due to Eleanor and I's ongoing fight. I look him straight in the eyes.

"What do you want?" I whispered. He looked at me and then at Eleanor. He stared at her longer then he stared at me and I knew that this wasn't going to end well. I looked at Eleanor and she had this face on that was saying 'if you don't leave with me now we are over I'm never speaking to you again.' I looked back at Louis just in time to make eye contact with him before he spoke.

"Come on El, we don't want to be late." He said softly. I felt my heart shatter right then and there as if it was glass. I looked up at him panicked as I realized what was happening. He was actually leaving me. For Eleanor. I couldn't take it. He betrayed me I had to give him a piece of my mind before he left. He deserves to know what I'm feeling. I started walking towards him as I started speaking once against trying to be calm but I didn't succeed at all.

"How could you!" I screamed, and he dropped El's hand and turned around to look at me "I trusted you with my Life and you do this! What the fuck are you doing? Are you stupid? You're leaving all of your childhood friends while you run off with that whore! Ignoring me and the lads for two months is not the solution to this problem. If you actually talked to me I could of gotton you to start thinking straight again. But no! Instead you keep sucking faces and doing God knows what else wherever your at with her. This is not you Louis! Your a fucking dick. Are you doing drugs because you've completely lost your mind! Get your head out of your ass Louis! IT'S NOT A FUCKING HAT! I screamed at Louis poking his chest with my pointer finger.

All of a sudden I felt a sharp sting and heard a loud pop coming from my left cheek. I cupped my hand around it gently looking up with fear in my eyes. I heard gasps from everyone including Louis. He looked at me with panic in his eyes soaking in what he just did to me. He slapped me. My best friend slapped me. Hard. I was done. With him. With everything. I sent him one last nasty death glare and then turned around walking down the hallway pushing past Harry, Niall and Liam as they all stood there staring at me like I had three heads. But Eleanor had an evil smirk plastered onto her face as if saying I deserved what I got. I kept walking Down the hallway ignoring Louis' yelling for me to come back. I didn't look back at anyone or anything in that school. I walked to my car in the parking lot, Unlocked it and drove towards the exit. I drove past the double doors I stormed out of I saw the lads including Louis bursting through the doors as I sped past not heasitating to brake the speed limit. I stopped at my house to pack my stuff quickly. And then left it all behind.

I still remember speeding out of Doncaster wiping away the tears running wildly down my cheeks. I also wipe the fresh blood from the newly formed gash as I kept driving and driving far far away. Not knowing where I was or where I was going. My new life begins now.

Notes

Hey guys so first chapter!! How was it? I hope it was good. The ending got me a little tears eyed. But I hope you all like it. I will be updating my story regularly if I can so be sure to subscribe my lovelys please leave a comment if you would like to tell me what you thing or if you have any questions. Thanks you beauties. <3


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