Lullaby

Its strange how a person, a stranger has so much of an impact. One moment changes everything, just one moment makes you question everything you once believed in. You find love you grow old and die, end of story, certainly no ripples just a smooth course.
You almost feel ashamed, its like your screaming at the top of your lungs and nobody even looks up.
Yet you feel a connection that no human word could ever come close to describing it. With out them you feel numb and alone, the sad thing is its not any different from when im with him. No one, not your mum, your sister or brother even the smartest psychologist in the world could ever understand. Maybe its because they're breathing while im drowning in self destruction. You consantly feel a kind of dependance on him, when your bored, you go to him, when your happy, you go to him, when he hits you and you hit back, you always go back.

One moment has such a impact. You don't realize it because you're blinded by the fact some good looking boy is taking notice in your boring self. You could go from holding hands in the street and watching Netflix all day every day to violent outbursts and yelling the harsh truth in each others face. But no matter how much you try to survie without him, you cant, because hes a drug and im more than addicted.
but when its over and its gone you almost wish for the bad stuff back just so you could have the good

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