Let Me Kiss You
History
(3 years later)
“Regan! What are you even doing? You said you were ready 20 minutes ago!” Ashling yelled up the stairs.
“Give me one more minute okay? I… smudged my eye liner.” I lied. In reality, I was making sure I looked absolutely perfect. Ash had just informed me that tonight we were meeting up with not only Niall, but the other guys as well. Including Harry. I hadn’t seen him in about a year.
Harry and I kept talking after the video shoot. I totally fell for him and he said he fell for me too. I even visited him on tour a few times and had a cameo in more of their music videos. We were literally perfect together. That was until he decided his career was more important and left me for Taylor. Yup. The Taylor Swift. The break up was pretty messy and had left us as strangers. Whenever the boys asked to hang out, I would go but Harry never went because he was with Taylor. Since then, he was single. I was single. And I was going to make him see what he was missing.
“God dammit Regan. You're doing this because he's going to be there aren’t you?” Ash leaned in the doorway. Her and Niall had finally started dating, leaving Harry and I as the only single people in the group.
“No…” I tried lying again.
“Bollocks. I know you still love him, Reegs. You’ve been skipping around here since you found out they broke up. I'm not stupid or blind.”
“I obviously still love him, Ash. I just won’t do anything about it. I doubt he still feels anything for me. Whatever it is that we had is in the past now. Like he said, we’re history.” I sighed a little remembering Harry saying those two words to me. They still stung.
“We’ll see.” Ash mumbled and walked me out to her car. We drove to the club we were meeting at. We got to the door and the bouncer let us in. I took a deep breath to calm my sudden nerves. I didn’t realize it would be so nerve wracking to see him after all this time. I followed Ashling to the VIP booth the guys were in and felt a pang of disappointment. I said hello to Niall, Zayn, Perrie, Liam, his new girlfriend Sophia, Louis, and Eleanor. I looked around a little but didn’t see Harry. I leaned over to Ash.
“Thought you said he was gonna be here?” I tried to say somewhat quietly but over the music I guess you could hear me pretty well.
“He did.” He answered. I closed my eyes and turned to face the man that shattered me and took a giant piece of my heart. I could see his nerves behind his half smile. His eyes glistened just like I remembered and his perfectly messy curls were flawless. “Hi, Regan.” He said with that voice of his.
“Hi, Harry.” I took a deep breath.
“You alright? You look amazing.” His smile was growing on his face.
“Thank you. You look good too.”
“Thanks I guess. Its been a while huh?” his hands made their way into his pockets and he rocked on his feet a little.
“It has. Just over a year.” I said with some bitterness. I crossed my arms over my chest. He leaned his face closer to mine and I immediately felt uncomfortable, but didn’t push him away.
“It’s been a year and three months, Reegs. Can I get you a drink and we talk on the terrace?” he whispered in my ear.
“Do you actually want to talk or are we gonna scream at each other again?”
“Talk. I have a lot of apologizing to do.” He pulled his face from mine and I could tell he was serious. I nodded a little. “I’ll get you a drink. Stay here.” He turned and walked to the bar.
“Uhm, what was that?!” Ashling ran to my side.
“He said he wants to apologize. We’re going out to the terrace.” I was sort of in a daze.
“You okay?” she rubbed my arm a little.
“Ash, he knows exactly how long its been since we talked.” I took a deep breath to stop myself from tearing up.
“You’re okay. Just stay calm and remember you can’t let him back in so easily.” She comforted me and I saw him walking back. I hugged Ash and made eye contact with Harry. He put his arm out for me to take but I just walked outside. There weren’t many people out here so we just sat at a random table. I took a sip of the drink Harry got me and almost choked at the all too familiar taste. He remembered my favorite drink.
“You alright, love?” he asked, rushing to my side.
“Yeah,” I coughed. “Just… I guess it went down the wrong way.” I tried lying. I saw a knowing smirk crawl onto his face. “So start apologizing.” I said changing the subject.
“First of all, I'm sorry it’s been a year. I shouldn’t have waited this long to make things better. I’ve wanted to talk to you since I broke up with Taylor. I figured you’d think it’s just a rebound. But in all honesty, Reegs, I have loved you since that day on the beach. I never stopped loving you. I can’t believe I ever let you get away from me. I was stupid and it was so beyond wrong of me to choose my image over you. Please forgive me, Regan.” He held my hands. I looked down at my hands in his and felt the same tingles and sparks I always felt.
“Harry, I was quite literally shattered when you broke up with me. You have absolutely no idea how hard it was to watch your relationship all over the TV, internet, radio, everywhere. All I wanted to do was hide in a cave. But I still love you with every single part of me. And for some reason I don’t understand, I can’t take you back this easily. I promised myself and Ashling that I wouldn’t.” I had teared up a little. I laughed half-heartedly and saw Harry looking as confused as ever.
“Why are you laughing, love?”
“Here I am standing in front of the man I love more than I ever though possible and I'm telling him I cant be with him. I'm so stupid.” I sat down and the laughter turned to sadness in a nanosecond. Harry bent down to be level with me.
“Why don’t we just start over, Reegs? I know it’s a lot to ask, but I need you in my life. I promise you I won’t hurt you or let anything happen to you. Please, Regan. Just give me this chance.” He kissed my hand and I nodded. We hugged then walked back inside holding hands. We sat together in the booth and I felt my phone vibrate and I looked at it to see a text from Ash.
Ashling Darlingxo: I guess history repeats itself, huh?
“Regan! What are you even doing? You said you were ready 20 minutes ago!” Ashling yelled up the stairs.
“Give me one more minute okay? I… smudged my eye liner.” I lied. In reality, I was making sure I looked absolutely perfect. Ash had just informed me that tonight we were meeting up with not only Niall, but the other guys as well. Including Harry. I hadn’t seen him in about a year.
Harry and I kept talking after the video shoot. I totally fell for him and he said he fell for me too. I even visited him on tour a few times and had a cameo in more of their music videos. We were literally perfect together. That was until he decided his career was more important and left me for Taylor. Yup. The Taylor Swift. The break up was pretty messy and had left us as strangers. Whenever the boys asked to hang out, I would go but Harry never went because he was with Taylor. Since then, he was single. I was single. And I was going to make him see what he was missing.
“God dammit Regan. You're doing this because he's going to be there aren’t you?” Ash leaned in the doorway. Her and Niall had finally started dating, leaving Harry and I as the only single people in the group.
“No…” I tried lying again.
“Bollocks. I know you still love him, Reegs. You’ve been skipping around here since you found out they broke up. I'm not stupid or blind.”
“I obviously still love him, Ash. I just won’t do anything about it. I doubt he still feels anything for me. Whatever it is that we had is in the past now. Like he said, we’re history.” I sighed a little remembering Harry saying those two words to me. They still stung.
“We’ll see.” Ash mumbled and walked me out to her car. We drove to the club we were meeting at. We got to the door and the bouncer let us in. I took a deep breath to calm my sudden nerves. I didn’t realize it would be so nerve wracking to see him after all this time. I followed Ashling to the VIP booth the guys were in and felt a pang of disappointment. I said hello to Niall, Zayn, Perrie, Liam, his new girlfriend Sophia, Louis, and Eleanor. I looked around a little but didn’t see Harry. I leaned over to Ash.
“Thought you said he was gonna be here?” I tried to say somewhat quietly but over the music I guess you could hear me pretty well.
“He did.” He answered. I closed my eyes and turned to face the man that shattered me and took a giant piece of my heart. I could see his nerves behind his half smile. His eyes glistened just like I remembered and his perfectly messy curls were flawless. “Hi, Regan.” He said with that voice of his.
“Hi, Harry.” I took a deep breath.
“You alright? You look amazing.” His smile was growing on his face.
“Thank you. You look good too.”
“Thanks I guess. Its been a while huh?” his hands made their way into his pockets and he rocked on his feet a little.
“It has. Just over a year.” I said with some bitterness. I crossed my arms over my chest. He leaned his face closer to mine and I immediately felt uncomfortable, but didn’t push him away.
“It’s been a year and three months, Reegs. Can I get you a drink and we talk on the terrace?” he whispered in my ear.
“Do you actually want to talk or are we gonna scream at each other again?”
“Talk. I have a lot of apologizing to do.” He pulled his face from mine and I could tell he was serious. I nodded a little. “I’ll get you a drink. Stay here.” He turned and walked to the bar.
“Uhm, what was that?!” Ashling ran to my side.
“He said he wants to apologize. We’re going out to the terrace.” I was sort of in a daze.
“You okay?” she rubbed my arm a little.
“Ash, he knows exactly how long its been since we talked.” I took a deep breath to stop myself from tearing up.
“You’re okay. Just stay calm and remember you can’t let him back in so easily.” She comforted me and I saw him walking back. I hugged Ash and made eye contact with Harry. He put his arm out for me to take but I just walked outside. There weren’t many people out here so we just sat at a random table. I took a sip of the drink Harry got me and almost choked at the all too familiar taste. He remembered my favorite drink.
“You alright, love?” he asked, rushing to my side.
“Yeah,” I coughed. “Just… I guess it went down the wrong way.” I tried lying. I saw a knowing smirk crawl onto his face. “So start apologizing.” I said changing the subject.
“First of all, I'm sorry it’s been a year. I shouldn’t have waited this long to make things better. I’ve wanted to talk to you since I broke up with Taylor. I figured you’d think it’s just a rebound. But in all honesty, Reegs, I have loved you since that day on the beach. I never stopped loving you. I can’t believe I ever let you get away from me. I was stupid and it was so beyond wrong of me to choose my image over you. Please forgive me, Regan.” He held my hands. I looked down at my hands in his and felt the same tingles and sparks I always felt.
“Harry, I was quite literally shattered when you broke up with me. You have absolutely no idea how hard it was to watch your relationship all over the TV, internet, radio, everywhere. All I wanted to do was hide in a cave. But I still love you with every single part of me. And for some reason I don’t understand, I can’t take you back this easily. I promised myself and Ashling that I wouldn’t.” I had teared up a little. I laughed half-heartedly and saw Harry looking as confused as ever.
“Why are you laughing, love?”
“Here I am standing in front of the man I love more than I ever though possible and I'm telling him I cant be with him. I'm so stupid.” I sat down and the laughter turned to sadness in a nanosecond. Harry bent down to be level with me.
“Why don’t we just start over, Reegs? I know it’s a lot to ask, but I need you in my life. I promise you I won’t hurt you or let anything happen to you. Please, Regan. Just give me this chance.” He kissed my hand and I nodded. We hugged then walked back inside holding hands. We sat together in the booth and I felt my phone vibrate and I looked at it to see a text from Ash.
Ashling Darlingxo: I guess history repeats itself, huh?
Its actually really good!! Keep writing.
3/23/14