Undercover

The BBQ was in full blast, people swimming, kids running around and inside the bounce house, people eating, laughing, goofing around.
I was currently talking with a few guys that Zayn knows as cousins. They were around our age so it was cool and I was enjoying myself.
But I couldn’t help but have a weird feeling in my stomach. Zayn has been acting weird since this morning. I don’t know what happened! It was perfect last night...Maybe he regretted it? Dread fills my chest. I really hope he didn’t...But that would explain why he is acting like nothing is wrong but he is being distant.
“Kat?” Brad calls from behind me so i turn around pausing the conversation I’m having.
I see Brad dripping wet figure and I laugh.
“I was pushed in.” He frowns “Can you go upstairs and grab a towel, I don’t want to drip in the house.” He asks and I nod smiling
“Sure thing.” I nod
“Bring a few extra down for the kids too!” Mom Malik shouts running by and I chuckle heading inside.
I climb up the stairs and open up the small closet beside the bathroom. I grab a stack of towels and head back down.
I turn away and cover my eyes dropping the towels onto the floor in front of me.
“BRAD WHY ARE YOU NAKED!?” I squead
“Sorry.” He mumbled closer to me “You can open.” He says and I peak seeing he took a towel
“Why?” I ask wide eyed
“I got uncomfy.” he pouts and I slap his arm grabbing the towels walking back outside.
I just saw his...THINGY.
“Katie. Please call the kids out to dry off. We are eating soon.” Dad Malik tells me and I chuckle heading to the pool.
“Hey kiddos it’s time to get out!” I say earning groans “Common! It’s time for the FOOD!” I say in a happy tone making them agree finally getting out. I hand out towels and the feast starts after another 15 minutes.
And still no sign of Zayn. I frown and head up to his room.
I knock lightly on his door and nobody answers so I open it slowly and a small smile crosses my face.
I see Zayn knocked out on the bed.
I walk over and crawl into the bed beside him. He pulls me into him but doesn’t even wake up.
I wipe the hair away from his face lightly, and then I remember how he was acting. Distant. All fucking day.
Do you think he regrets last night?...he couldn’t...could he? maybe i was bad?
I am pulls out of my thoughts when I look back at Zayn to see his eye open and looking at me with softness.
“I don’t remember falling asleep with you.” He chuckles in a morning voice
“I came up to find you. You disappeared.” I say softly and he nods slowly
“I was just sleepy.” He shrugs
“Sorry. I didn’t mean to keep you up.” i mumble and he kisses my forehead
“You needed those nuggets.” He chuckles and I return it
“I didn’t need to bring you.” I offer and he shrugs
“In 30 years we can look back and laugh about it with our kids.” He says still half asleep
My eyes widen and my heart swells. He freezes after he says it and looks at me wide eyed
“Sorry, I didn’t mean to freak you out.” he says
“You didn’t…” I smile “I like that you can see a future for us.” I say
“Do you?” he asks so softly I could barely hear him
“I haven’t gone that far. but I know I want to be with you.” I say and he sits up leaning against his headboard suddenly. I sit up and face him criss crossing my legs.
“I don’t want you to leave.” he says and I look at him confused “During breakfast you said that you’re leaving soon. You didn’t even seem to CARE Katie.” He says frustrated and I look at him shocked “DO you not WANT us to be together? Is that why you don’t care if you leave?” He asks standing up angrily
“Zayn what are you talking about!? Of Course I fucking CARE!” I say defensively. Why is he being so weird!? Is this what has been bugging him??
“Fuck Katie. I know you do.” He mumbles running his fingers through his hair “I just..I don’t want you to go. It pains me to know that you can talk about it so freely without a hint of fear, or bitterness, or any fucking emotion. BUT ME? I have only talked about you leaving with you and my parents when I needed advice.” He frowns “And I can’t even get through the discussion without feeling angry that you have to go. I can’t without feeling sad because you’ll be far away from me.” he says his voice cracking.
My eyes widen at his declaration and my heart clenches.
“I didn’t even know you felt so upset Zayn.” I say standing up and walking over to him “Why didn’t you just talk to me about it? Of Course I’m sad about leaving here. Leaving you here. but I don’t show it because I thought you would feel smothered.” I chuckle cupping his cheek.
“I didn’t want you to consider staying back.” He says “I didn’t want you to think you were choosing. Because I WANT you to be with your family. I want you to have a family.” He says “but I also want you here to cuddle with me and go with me of midnight junk runs.” he says pulling me into a hug
“I’m so sorry.” I say softly
“I’m sorry too.” he says “Promise that we will make the best out of our time together until next time.”
“I promise.” i kiss him softly
A knock comes at the door making us jump apart.
“Guys everyone is eating. Hurry down.” Brad calls through the door
We get up and open the door nodding.“Okay.” i smile and we head down. Zayn and I have intertwined hand and smiles on our faces as we enter the dining area where everyone our age is gathered.
“Hey! Were you guys doing the dirty?” One of Zayn’s cousins calls earning whistles and I shake my head
“We were talking perv.” I slap his arm lightly laughing and he shrugs
We get food and eat while chatting away. Zayn and I were being really ‘cute’ according to the girls at the table who teased us.
“I mean you guys are relationship GOALS!” they say and I just chuckle why Zayn rolls his eyes.
“They are going to get married. I see it.” Mom Malik walks by and a blush spreads across my face
“I see it too mom.” Zayn says and I look at him lovingly

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