Forgotten
Chapter 2
Chapter 2
Zayn’s Point Of View
I slowly opened my eyes. At first everything was blurry, but slowly everything started to clear up. I couldn’t recognize anything; I tried to get up, but I couldn’t. I felt week and I was having a massive headache and body aches. There were needles in my arm.
I looked around and realized that I was in the hospital. I couldn’t remember anything. Why was I here? And suddenly it hit me, the car accident. There was a car coming on the wrong side of the road, I got scare and lost the control of the car, and we collided.
How long have I been here for? Saira was with me. What happened to her? If anything happens to her, than I would never be able to forgive myself.
I tried to think of the positive side; maybe she wasn’t injured that badly and is perfectly fine at home. I couldn’t stop the negative thoughts from running into my mind. This was just causing my headache to worsen.
I heard footsteps, one after another. A nurse came and stood in front of me.
“Oh, you’re awake.” She sounded really sweet.
“Yeah.” I tried to get up again, but again failed.
“It would be better if you just lay down for now.”
“Okay…um how’s Saira?” I slid up and forced myself finally to sit. Even sitting was painful, I leaned my head back on the pillow and closed my eyes.
“The girl that was admitted with you?”
My eyes shot open when she said “was”. What did she mean by “was”?
“What do you mean by ‘was’?”
“Oh, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to alarm you.” She was facing the other way “She’s still admitted here, she’s in the room next to yours.”
She turned around, gave me a bright smile and prepared my arm for a blood pressure test.
“So, how is she?” I was little more relaxed.
“Shhh, stay still for a while, so I could take your proper blood pressure.” She gave me another smile.
I closed my eyes and felt the nurse clip something on my index finger. I just heard the machine beep.
“You’re blood pressure is perfectly normal. It looks like you might be able to go home today.”
Finally, I always hated the hospital. But I still couldn’t get Saira out of my mind. How was she?
“Umm. So if you don’t mind me asking, how is Saira?”
“Oh, umm…well…I don’t want to worry you but when she came here she was in pretty critical condition. She lost a lot of blood and is still unconscious. We still can’t say anything until she regains conscious.”
My heart literally dropped. I just can’t believe this happened to her and all because of me. I only wanted to make her happy and show her how felt for her. But look what I’ve done. I will never be able to forgive myself for doing this to her. I should’ve never have took her out, I shouldn’t have made her go, I shouldn’t have gone so fast. Ughh, this is all my fault.
“Oh..My…God…It’s all my fault. It all happened because of me; I will never be able to forgive myself for this.” I was talking to myself and totally forgot the nurse was still there.
“No it’s not your fault. Apparently the driver of the car you guys collided with was drunk, and sadly he didn’t survive. Don’t worry Saira will be fine. You just have to have faith and pray.” She gave me another smile.
I rubbed my temples, leaned back and slowly slid back down. Before I realized I dozed off again.
I felt a hand shake me.
“Wake up sweetie.”
“Just give me few minutes.” I was really sleepy, and I didn’t have the energy to get up.
“Sweetie get up, we have to leave.”
“Ughh. Okay.” I slowly opened my eyes. I saw my mum stand in front of me.
“Mum” I opened my arms and gave her a hug. I’m so glad to see her.
“You know you gave us a heart attack.” I could hear in her voice that she was holding her tears back.
“I’m sorry mum. I love you and I’ll never do anything stupid like that again.” I looked at her, gave her a smile and tried to calm her.
“Yeah that’s right; you won’t be able to do anything stupid like that again ‘cause you’re not allowed to drive now, but we’ll talk about this when we go home. The doctor said that it’s okay to take you home know.” She gave me a slight smile.
“Really? And what about Saira? How is she doing now? Did they say anything about her?”
“Too many questions at once. No they still haven’t said anything; all they said is that she is in a critical condition.” She looked down at her hands when she said that last part.
“Oh” That’s all that came out of my mouth. I couldn’t say anything. I just looked down at the floor.
“Don’t worry sweetie, she’ll be fine. Everything will be better.” She rubbed my back trying to comfort me, but it wasn’t working. Nothing could comfort me. “Okay let’s go now.”
“Yeah, I really don’t like this place.” We left my room and started walking. I saw the room that was next to mines, I remember the nurse told me that Saira was in this room.
“Mum do you mind if I go and see Saira, the nurse told me she was in the room next to mines.”
She gave me a simple nod. I hesitantly entered the room, guilt gushed through me. I didn’t know if I could bear to see her.
I walked in slowly and saw Saira’s mum sitting next to her, silently crying. I couldn’t face her; I caused her daughter to be in such a condition. I tried to be as quiet as possible, but she heard my footsteps and looked up. There was pain in her eyes, I couldn’t look straight into them; I just looked down.
“So, Zayn how are you feeling now?”
“Better.” I was still looking at the floor.
“That’s good. Why are you standing there. Come here.”
I walked and stood across her and right next to Saira. She had her eyes glued on Saira.
“I’m sorry.”
“No, you don’t need to be sorry.”
“But it was all my fault. I shouldn’t have taken Saira out.”
“Yeah, you shouldn’t have, but then who could stop what had to happen. I wish I was there to stop her from going.”
“I’m really, really sorry. I will never be able to forgive myself.”
“There’s no point in getting mad at you. It’s not going to undo everything, all we can do it pray.”
“Yeah.” I was looking at Saira, she looked horrible. She had bandages on her forehead, and arms. She looked in a pretty bad condition, I couldn’t look at her anymore but I couldn’t look away either. I wanted to cry and breakdown, but I had to stay strong.
“Well I think you should go home and have some rest now. You can come back and meet her anytime you want, first get better yourself.” Saira’s mum forced a smile on her face, even in her smile there was pain and it was all because of me.
“I can meet her whenever I want?”
“Yes, now go and get some rest, you look pretty bad yourself.”
“Okay” I left and we went home.
I went upstairs and went straight to bed. I was exhausted and the medication made me really sleepy. The second I laid down, I fell asleep.
The next morning I woke up. I felt much better. I went downstairs and saw my mum in the kitchen making breakfast.
“You’re awake. Go get ready and eat breakfast.”
“Umm mum, can I go see Saira today.”
“Yeah, sure.” Mum gave me a smile.
“So I can use the car?”
“Oh. No, absolutely not.” She gave me a glare.
“Please, I promise I’ll be careful. Please, please, please.” I put my hands together and begged to her.
“No, I don’t want you to get hurt again.”
“I won’t, I promise.”
“NO, ask one of your friends to take you.”
“Ughh, okay.” I went back upstairs got my phone from the bed.
I didn’t know who to call. I dialed the first person that came to my mind.
“Hey, what’s up mate? How are you feeling?”
“I’m much better. Hey I was wondering if you could drive me to the hospital. I wanted to see how Saira is doing.”
“Sure mate. I’ll be there in 20 minutes.”
“Thank you so much Liam.”
“No problem mate.”
I hung up and went straight to the bathroom. 20 minutes was enough for me to get ready. I brushed my teeth, took a shower and changed. I wore a plain white tee and jeans.
I glanced at the time, I still had five minutes. I went downstairs and quickly ate breakfast.
I heard a car horn. I looked out the window and saw Liam was there.
“Mum, Liam’s going to take me. He’s here.”
“Okay, take care and drive carefully.” I gave her a quick kiss on the cheek.
“I will.”
I got out of the house and sat in the car.
“Thanks for taking me there.”
“No problem. What are friends for?” Liam gave me a smile and we drove off.
In less than 30 minutes we were there.
“We’re here.”
“Great” I got out of the car and headed in the hospital.
Liam sat outside of Saira’s room. I went inside and saw she was all alone there. I sat next to her. I didn’t know what to do, all I did was hold her hand and look at her. A few seconds later I heard footsteps come in. I turned around and saw Saira’s mum.
“Oh you came.”
“Yeah I wanted to see how she was doing, and if the doctors said anything.”
“Well at the moment they haven’t.” Just then the doctor came in, saying that he had to talk to Saira’s mum.
“Umm can I come with you? I want to know what the doctor has to say.”
“You are?” The doctor questioned.
“He’s her boyfriend.” When Saira’s mum said that I got really happy, she really did forgive me.
“Sure you can come.”
We headed to the doctor’s office, when we reached we sat down across the doctor.
“Okay, as a doctor it’s my responsibility to tell you everything. It’s not easy to tell you this but…”
“Is everything okay? Is Saira going to be okay?” Saira’s mum interrupted the doctor. I, myself, was getting worried.
“Yeah, is everything okay with Saira?”
“Well, the thing is that she’s in coma.”
Saira’s mum was shocked. It looked like she was going to faint. She just sat there, without moving or saying a word.
“How long is she going to be in coma for?”
“Well, it could be for a few days, months or even years. It’s hard to tell.”
I helped Saira’s mum up and took her back to Saira’s room. She started to cry. I’ve never seen anyone cry like that before. I couldn’t even stand properly. I sat down next to her, trying to calm her down. Honestly, I don’t think me calming her down would help.
I convinced her to go home and rest for a while, it was hard but she eventually listened.
I told Liam what the doctor said. He tried to comfort me, but nothing could comfort. My guilt was back. All this happened because of me. I couldn’t see Saira right now. I just sat next to Liam, silently looking at the ground. Slowly tears started to roll down my cheeks. I couldn’t hold them back anymore. I just couldn’t.
After sitting outside of Saira’s room, looking at her through the door lying down there, for at least an hour Liam convinced me to go home.
I went home, without saying anything I went straight to my room. I closed the door and sat down on the bed. I took my iPod, put the headphones in my ears, put my head on the pillow and closed my eyes, letting the tears flow down my cheek one after another.
Zayn’s Point Of View
I slowly opened my eyes. At first everything was blurry, but slowly everything started to clear up. I couldn’t recognize anything; I tried to get up, but I couldn’t. I felt week and I was having a massive headache and body aches. There were needles in my arm.
I looked around and realized that I was in the hospital. I couldn’t remember anything. Why was I here? And suddenly it hit me, the car accident. There was a car coming on the wrong side of the road, I got scare and lost the control of the car, and we collided.
How long have I been here for? Saira was with me. What happened to her? If anything happens to her, than I would never be able to forgive myself.
I tried to think of the positive side; maybe she wasn’t injured that badly and is perfectly fine at home. I couldn’t stop the negative thoughts from running into my mind. This was just causing my headache to worsen.
I heard footsteps, one after another. A nurse came and stood in front of me.
“Oh, you’re awake.” She sounded really sweet.
“Yeah.” I tried to get up again, but again failed.
“It would be better if you just lay down for now.”
“Okay…um how’s Saira?” I slid up and forced myself finally to sit. Even sitting was painful, I leaned my head back on the pillow and closed my eyes.
“The girl that was admitted with you?”
My eyes shot open when she said “was”. What did she mean by “was”?
“What do you mean by ‘was’?”
“Oh, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to alarm you.” She was facing the other way “She’s still admitted here, she’s in the room next to yours.”
She turned around, gave me a bright smile and prepared my arm for a blood pressure test.
“So, how is she?” I was little more relaxed.
“Shhh, stay still for a while, so I could take your proper blood pressure.” She gave me another smile.
I closed my eyes and felt the nurse clip something on my index finger. I just heard the machine beep.
“You’re blood pressure is perfectly normal. It looks like you might be able to go home today.”
Finally, I always hated the hospital. But I still couldn’t get Saira out of my mind. How was she?
“Umm. So if you don’t mind me asking, how is Saira?”
“Oh, umm…well…I don’t want to worry you but when she came here she was in pretty critical condition. She lost a lot of blood and is still unconscious. We still can’t say anything until she regains conscious.”
My heart literally dropped. I just can’t believe this happened to her and all because of me. I only wanted to make her happy and show her how felt for her. But look what I’ve done. I will never be able to forgive myself for doing this to her. I should’ve never have took her out, I shouldn’t have made her go, I shouldn’t have gone so fast. Ughh, this is all my fault.
“Oh..My…God…It’s all my fault. It all happened because of me; I will never be able to forgive myself for this.” I was talking to myself and totally forgot the nurse was still there.
“No it’s not your fault. Apparently the driver of the car you guys collided with was drunk, and sadly he didn’t survive. Don’t worry Saira will be fine. You just have to have faith and pray.” She gave me another smile.
I rubbed my temples, leaned back and slowly slid back down. Before I realized I dozed off again.
I felt a hand shake me.
“Wake up sweetie.”
“Just give me few minutes.” I was really sleepy, and I didn’t have the energy to get up.
“Sweetie get up, we have to leave.”
“Ughh. Okay.” I slowly opened my eyes. I saw my mum stand in front of me.
“Mum” I opened my arms and gave her a hug. I’m so glad to see her.
“You know you gave us a heart attack.” I could hear in her voice that she was holding her tears back.
“I’m sorry mum. I love you and I’ll never do anything stupid like that again.” I looked at her, gave her a smile and tried to calm her.
“Yeah that’s right; you won’t be able to do anything stupid like that again ‘cause you’re not allowed to drive now, but we’ll talk about this when we go home. The doctor said that it’s okay to take you home know.” She gave me a slight smile.
“Really? And what about Saira? How is she doing now? Did they say anything about her?”
“Too many questions at once. No they still haven’t said anything; all they said is that she is in a critical condition.” She looked down at her hands when she said that last part.
“Oh” That’s all that came out of my mouth. I couldn’t say anything. I just looked down at the floor.
“Don’t worry sweetie, she’ll be fine. Everything will be better.” She rubbed my back trying to comfort me, but it wasn’t working. Nothing could comfort me. “Okay let’s go now.”
“Yeah, I really don’t like this place.” We left my room and started walking. I saw the room that was next to mines, I remember the nurse told me that Saira was in this room.
“Mum do you mind if I go and see Saira, the nurse told me she was in the room next to mines.”
She gave me a simple nod. I hesitantly entered the room, guilt gushed through me. I didn’t know if I could bear to see her.
I walked in slowly and saw Saira’s mum sitting next to her, silently crying. I couldn’t face her; I caused her daughter to be in such a condition. I tried to be as quiet as possible, but she heard my footsteps and looked up. There was pain in her eyes, I couldn’t look straight into them; I just looked down.
“So, Zayn how are you feeling now?”
“Better.” I was still looking at the floor.
“That’s good. Why are you standing there. Come here.”
I walked and stood across her and right next to Saira. She had her eyes glued on Saira.
“I’m sorry.”
“No, you don’t need to be sorry.”
“But it was all my fault. I shouldn’t have taken Saira out.”
“Yeah, you shouldn’t have, but then who could stop what had to happen. I wish I was there to stop her from going.”
“I’m really, really sorry. I will never be able to forgive myself.”
“There’s no point in getting mad at you. It’s not going to undo everything, all we can do it pray.”
“Yeah.” I was looking at Saira, she looked horrible. She had bandages on her forehead, and arms. She looked in a pretty bad condition, I couldn’t look at her anymore but I couldn’t look away either. I wanted to cry and breakdown, but I had to stay strong.
“Well I think you should go home and have some rest now. You can come back and meet her anytime you want, first get better yourself.” Saira’s mum forced a smile on her face, even in her smile there was pain and it was all because of me.
“I can meet her whenever I want?”
“Yes, now go and get some rest, you look pretty bad yourself.”
“Okay” I left and we went home.
I went upstairs and went straight to bed. I was exhausted and the medication made me really sleepy. The second I laid down, I fell asleep.
The next morning I woke up. I felt much better. I went downstairs and saw my mum in the kitchen making breakfast.
“You’re awake. Go get ready and eat breakfast.”
“Umm mum, can I go see Saira today.”
“Yeah, sure.” Mum gave me a smile.
“So I can use the car?”
“Oh. No, absolutely not.” She gave me a glare.
“Please, I promise I’ll be careful. Please, please, please.” I put my hands together and begged to her.
“No, I don’t want you to get hurt again.”
“I won’t, I promise.”
“NO, ask one of your friends to take you.”
“Ughh, okay.” I went back upstairs got my phone from the bed.
I didn’t know who to call. I dialed the first person that came to my mind.
“Hey, what’s up mate? How are you feeling?”
“I’m much better. Hey I was wondering if you could drive me to the hospital. I wanted to see how Saira is doing.”
“Sure mate. I’ll be there in 20 minutes.”
“Thank you so much Liam.”
“No problem mate.”
I hung up and went straight to the bathroom. 20 minutes was enough for me to get ready. I brushed my teeth, took a shower and changed. I wore a plain white tee and jeans.
I glanced at the time, I still had five minutes. I went downstairs and quickly ate breakfast.
I heard a car horn. I looked out the window and saw Liam was there.
“Mum, Liam’s going to take me. He’s here.”
“Okay, take care and drive carefully.” I gave her a quick kiss on the cheek.
“I will.”
I got out of the house and sat in the car.
“Thanks for taking me there.”
“No problem. What are friends for?” Liam gave me a smile and we drove off.
In less than 30 minutes we were there.
“We’re here.”
“Great” I got out of the car and headed in the hospital.
Liam sat outside of Saira’s room. I went inside and saw she was all alone there. I sat next to her. I didn’t know what to do, all I did was hold her hand and look at her. A few seconds later I heard footsteps come in. I turned around and saw Saira’s mum.
“Oh you came.”
“Yeah I wanted to see how she was doing, and if the doctors said anything.”
“Well at the moment they haven’t.” Just then the doctor came in, saying that he had to talk to Saira’s mum.
“Umm can I come with you? I want to know what the doctor has to say.”
“You are?” The doctor questioned.
“He’s her boyfriend.” When Saira’s mum said that I got really happy, she really did forgive me.
“Sure you can come.”
We headed to the doctor’s office, when we reached we sat down across the doctor.
“Okay, as a doctor it’s my responsibility to tell you everything. It’s not easy to tell you this but…”
“Is everything okay? Is Saira going to be okay?” Saira’s mum interrupted the doctor. I, myself, was getting worried.
“Yeah, is everything okay with Saira?”
“Well, the thing is that she’s in coma.”
Saira’s mum was shocked. It looked like she was going to faint. She just sat there, without moving or saying a word.
“How long is she going to be in coma for?”
“Well, it could be for a few days, months or even years. It’s hard to tell.”
I helped Saira’s mum up and took her back to Saira’s room. She started to cry. I’ve never seen anyone cry like that before. I couldn’t even stand properly. I sat down next to her, trying to calm her down. Honestly, I don’t think me calming her down would help.
I convinced her to go home and rest for a while, it was hard but she eventually listened.
I told Liam what the doctor said. He tried to comfort me, but nothing could comfort. My guilt was back. All this happened because of me. I couldn’t see Saira right now. I just sat next to Liam, silently looking at the ground. Slowly tears started to roll down my cheeks. I couldn’t hold them back anymore. I just couldn’t.
After sitting outside of Saira’s room, looking at her through the door lying down there, for at least an hour Liam convinced me to go home.
I went home, without saying anything I went straight to my room. I closed the door and sat down on the bed. I took my iPod, put the headphones in my ears, put my head on the pillow and closed my eyes, letting the tears flow down my cheek one after another.
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6/10/13