More Than Words

I couldn’t not burst in tears since I saw these fantastic people all caring about me and asking nonstop; if I wasn’t with Zayn that doesn’t mean I have to stop being friends with the rest! They are all my close friends, so I picked up the phone and Called Dani directly:

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Dani: “Thank you god! Vie hello!! Are you ok just tell me I beg you!!?” She screamed from care and love.

Me: “I’m ok Dani relax and don’t worry, I’m sorry I wasn’t able to reply earlier; and I’m so sorry I didn’t say good bye either ...I Just...” my voice broke to pieces as noticed myself in shivery tears.

Niall: “Vie!!! Is that her on the phone! My heart we miss you!!!!” Niall yelled in his Irish accent as he overheard Dani talking mentioning my name.

Dani: “Niall quite down mate I can’t hear her! Vie don’t cry and don’t apologise I beg you at least I finally am relieved that you are safe and sound!” Dani yelled at Niall and proceeded talking to me.

Me: “Tell everyone that I miss them so much and kiss El for me I beg you Dani; I truly am sorry, and I just called to make you all stop worrying.” I replied calmly as I heard tears of a young woman beside Dani start to get louder and louder; I knew it was El.

Zayn: “Is that Violet?!” He yelled at Dani as he took the phone from her hand and proceeded:”Why haven’t you answered any of the calls or texts!! Just because we aren’t together it doesn’t mean you just delete me from your life!” he yelled as I felt he was going to start tearing soon; I couldn’t take it so I just closed the phone directly, preventing myself of going to an emotional bust in the office.

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I returned to my work as I sat down to get an instant message notification my phone; I sighed as I opened it:

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From: Zayn
Sent at: 11:20am
“Nice move.”
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I started crying quietly as I noticed Ginger peaking from her office at me, doing the questioning action in her hands towards me in a nervous look. I shook my head at her and turned to open the file and worked all the day till it turned 6:00pm and it was time to leave back home. “Jake is coming over tonight; he is worried about you.” Ginger told me as we were in the car driving; I nodded voiceless and looked at the road ahead. We reached to find Jake waiting for us outside at the door step. He hugged me lightly and I hugged back as he dropped it and kissed Ginger passionately. I walked inside leaving them to their business as I went upstairs to shower and change.


“Dinner is ready muffin!” Ginger yelled from downstairs as I was brushing my hair after dressing up. I went down and had a good meal with the Jake and Ginger and we spoke lightly as they both kept looking at me to prevent me from crying. I finished and cleaned my dish as I said a calm goodnight and slept. I couldn’t stop thinking of Zayn’s yells on the phone; it was like I really assured myself that he was concerned about me, but he placed it in the shape of anger instead. Why would he care? He was the one that didn’t trust me and was blaming me about this stupid picture that was not defined correctly! I stopped lightening my heart and I slept.


3 weeks after:

(I started going back to my normal phase again and I was already able to think of Zayn only 2wice in a day now; it’s not my problem that I still love him after everything. The One Direction Fellows never stopped texting me and I started to reply back instantly, as did my two best friends Dani and El. Zayn also texted daily and I answered really professionally and brief, I simply didn’t want to show him that I don’t have the strength to reply. If for example he messaged me to ask me how have I been, I would directly just say “thank you for asking I’m ok.” as simple as that. Jake and Ginger have became busier than they used to be now, and I could notice how close they both they became.)


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I sat on the couch in the late afternoon of a weekend day, Saturday, waiting for Ginger to come back with Jake from their date. I suddenly hear screams of happiness unlock the door and rush in trying to find me. Ginger ran to me as she flashed her fingers to my sight, as to pick me up from the sofa. “What’s going on? He-he?” I asked her as I took her hand and stood up. “Who’s birthday is it tomorrow?! LOL” She said as Jake laughed and winked me. “Oh God come on Gee no surprises I beg you.” I sighed as I looked at her wicked smile; I knew she would do it even though I wasn’t in the mood. “Shut up! You are getting a party tomorrow! And we are going to dance, and have fun even if it was only us three!” she yelled in thrill and excitement as Jake raised his hands to and did a funny dance. “He-he fine ...” I said as I laughed in a tiny expression and hugged them both. She spent the night with Jake and I went upstairs to leave them alone to get some rest. I couldn’t believe this year how exciting and filled with life changing situations. I kept thinking of my family that ditched me, how my Boy Sensation Ex - boyfriend lost his trust in me, till I slept calmly eventually.

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