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Leah’s POV
The sound of the ambulance’s siren startled me. It sent a cold chilling feeling down the back of my spine. I’m still sitting with Ash in my arms not wanting to accept the fact that Ash won’t be there to hold me when I’m down, I won’t be able to see his smile, I won’t be able to laugh with him and I won’t have anyone that understands me and my moods. I haven’t stopped crying since I got to him, my tears are now falling from my face and softly landing on his.
When the paramedics got to us they tried to pull me away from him, but I screamed, I screamed each time they tried. They asked me if there was anyone they could call but I didn’t answer. They tried again and eventually I said, “You can call Zayn and Liam”. “They thanked me and I took the phone out of Ash’s pocket, thinking that it was his, but I soon realised it was mine. They took the phone from me and called Zayn and Liam. I took the phone out of Ash’s other pocket and I already knew what would come next, I start to cry. Again they tried to take me from Ash but I screamed. Instead of letting me go when I screamed, they kept on, not loosening their grip on me. Eventually I gave up and they took Ash from me.
When Liam and Zayn arrived, Zayn immediately came to me. He helped me to my feet and folded his arms around me, like Ash usually did when I cried. That just made it worse and I kept on crying, surprised that I had that many tears in me. As we stood there I could feel Zayn’s tears landing on me and somehow that made me feel at ease. I wiggled my arms out and folded them around Zayn. The dumb paramedic came to me and told me that I have to go to the ambulance so that they can check my injuries. I sat down in the ambulance with Zayn only a few feet away. The paramedic told me to tell her if it hurts and blah-blah-blah, all those nonsense. She then told me that I would have to go to the hospital, for only god knows what.
When we arrived at the hospital they sent me for all types of scans and tests, total waste of money. “Has anyone told Ash’s mother?” I ask Zayn when I finally get to go home, or so I thought. “Yes, Liam called her when he arrived at the scene” Zayn replied. Just then the nurse came up to me and told me that they are keeping me the night. “UGH” I told Zayn when she was gone. “C’mon don’t react that way” Zayn said as we walked to the room where I would be spending the night. “Why not?” I asked Zayn “Cause I’ll stay with you, but only if you want me to” he said with a sad tone but in the end he added a smile, well tried to.
“Thanks” I replied. We then entered my hospital room, luckily I have my own room. I sat down on my bed and Zayn went to take his place in the chair next to my bed, where he would spend the rest of the night. “You ok?” I asked him “With the chair” I added “Yeah I’m fine, but I’m the actual question is, are you ok?” he replied “Yeah I’m…” I started but he had cut me off. “I mean with Ash” he then said. “It’s funny how I escaped the crash with only a scrape on my forehead and a cut on my arm, but Ash lost his life” I said as I started to cry. “Why, why did it have to be him?” I cried “Why couldn’t it just have been me?” I added as I now no longer tried to fight the tears.
We sat there in silence for a few minutes before the door suddenly opened and in came Luke, Michael, Calum, Niall, Louis, Harry and Liam. I looked away and then suddenly looked back and through my tears, I saw their tears. “Is it true?” Luke asked I nodded and Luke suddenly fell to the ground crying. He pulled his legs up to his chest and sat there rocking back and forth while crying. “I can’t believe it, one moment I was still talking to him and then a few hours later I find out that he died in a crash” Calum said as he cried. “A few minutes before the crash Ash and I spoke over the phone talking about the game on Saturday. So when I found out about the crash, I was devastated” Liam said.
“Niall” I asked “Yeah?” he replied after wiping away his tears, just to make way for the tears that had to come through, but didn’t have space. “You know the text that you had sent to me” I started and Niall nodded “Ash saw the text and when we got into the car we started fighting about it” I went on and I now saw that everyone’s eyes were on me “He told me that he hated me…” I looked up and saw the tears still running down their faces “And I replied by telling him that I love him more than anything and just then we crashed” I added. I didn’t tell them that he said he’s sorry right before he died OR that he told me that he loved me right before he died in my arms OR that he died with a smile on his face cause he told him that I loved him to.
“What did the text say?” Luke asked a few seconds later “I don’t know, cause I didn’t even get to read the text” I replied sadly “Hey babe, what time can I pick you up for tonight?” Niall told us. “What?” Calum replied shocked “It’s not like that” I replied. “Niall and I had arranged a surprise for him, but I didn’t have a lift, so Niall had to take me” I added “Surprise?” Michael said for the first time “Our 1 month anniversary” I softly said. “So he died on your anniversary?” Harry also said for the first time “Yeah” I replied not thinking it was audible through the sound of us crying.
The nurse then suddenly came in and startled us. The guys then turned their backs to her cause they didn’t want her to see them crying, but Harry on the other hand didn’t worry. He just stood there staring at me with the one question that I didn’t want to answer ‘What happened after you crashed’ …
The sound of the ambulance’s siren startled me. It sent a cold chilling feeling down the back of my spine. I’m still sitting with Ash in my arms not wanting to accept the fact that Ash won’t be there to hold me when I’m down, I won’t be able to see his smile, I won’t be able to laugh with him and I won’t have anyone that understands me and my moods. I haven’t stopped crying since I got to him, my tears are now falling from my face and softly landing on his.
When the paramedics got to us they tried to pull me away from him, but I screamed, I screamed each time they tried. They asked me if there was anyone they could call but I didn’t answer. They tried again and eventually I said, “You can call Zayn and Liam”. “They thanked me and I took the phone out of Ash’s pocket, thinking that it was his, but I soon realised it was mine. They took the phone from me and called Zayn and Liam. I took the phone out of Ash’s other pocket and I already knew what would come next, I start to cry. Again they tried to take me from Ash but I screamed. Instead of letting me go when I screamed, they kept on, not loosening their grip on me. Eventually I gave up and they took Ash from me.
When Liam and Zayn arrived, Zayn immediately came to me. He helped me to my feet and folded his arms around me, like Ash usually did when I cried. That just made it worse and I kept on crying, surprised that I had that many tears in me. As we stood there I could feel Zayn’s tears landing on me and somehow that made me feel at ease. I wiggled my arms out and folded them around Zayn. The dumb paramedic came to me and told me that I have to go to the ambulance so that they can check my injuries. I sat down in the ambulance with Zayn only a few feet away. The paramedic told me to tell her if it hurts and blah-blah-blah, all those nonsense. She then told me that I would have to go to the hospital, for only god knows what.
When we arrived at the hospital they sent me for all types of scans and tests, total waste of money. “Has anyone told Ash’s mother?” I ask Zayn when I finally get to go home, or so I thought. “Yes, Liam called her when he arrived at the scene” Zayn replied. Just then the nurse came up to me and told me that they are keeping me the night. “UGH” I told Zayn when she was gone. “C’mon don’t react that way” Zayn said as we walked to the room where I would be spending the night. “Why not?” I asked Zayn “Cause I’ll stay with you, but only if you want me to” he said with a sad tone but in the end he added a smile, well tried to.
“Thanks” I replied. We then entered my hospital room, luckily I have my own room. I sat down on my bed and Zayn went to take his place in the chair next to my bed, where he would spend the rest of the night. “You ok?” I asked him “With the chair” I added “Yeah I’m fine, but I’m the actual question is, are you ok?” he replied “Yeah I’m…” I started but he had cut me off. “I mean with Ash” he then said. “It’s funny how I escaped the crash with only a scrape on my forehead and a cut on my arm, but Ash lost his life” I said as I started to cry. “Why, why did it have to be him?” I cried “Why couldn’t it just have been me?” I added as I now no longer tried to fight the tears.
We sat there in silence for a few minutes before the door suddenly opened and in came Luke, Michael, Calum, Niall, Louis, Harry and Liam. I looked away and then suddenly looked back and through my tears, I saw their tears. “Is it true?” Luke asked I nodded and Luke suddenly fell to the ground crying. He pulled his legs up to his chest and sat there rocking back and forth while crying. “I can’t believe it, one moment I was still talking to him and then a few hours later I find out that he died in a crash” Calum said as he cried. “A few minutes before the crash Ash and I spoke over the phone talking about the game on Saturday. So when I found out about the crash, I was devastated” Liam said.
“Niall” I asked “Yeah?” he replied after wiping away his tears, just to make way for the tears that had to come through, but didn’t have space. “You know the text that you had sent to me” I started and Niall nodded “Ash saw the text and when we got into the car we started fighting about it” I went on and I now saw that everyone’s eyes were on me “He told me that he hated me…” I looked up and saw the tears still running down their faces “And I replied by telling him that I love him more than anything and just then we crashed” I added. I didn’t tell them that he said he’s sorry right before he died OR that he told me that he loved me right before he died in my arms OR that he died with a smile on his face cause he told him that I loved him to.
“What did the text say?” Luke asked a few seconds later “I don’t know, cause I didn’t even get to read the text” I replied sadly “Hey babe, what time can I pick you up for tonight?” Niall told us. “What?” Calum replied shocked “It’s not like that” I replied. “Niall and I had arranged a surprise for him, but I didn’t have a lift, so Niall had to take me” I added “Surprise?” Michael said for the first time “Our 1 month anniversary” I softly said. “So he died on your anniversary?” Harry also said for the first time “Yeah” I replied not thinking it was audible through the sound of us crying.
The nurse then suddenly came in and startled us. The guys then turned their backs to her cause they didn’t want her to see them crying, but Harry on the other hand didn’t worry. He just stood there staring at me with the one question that I didn’t want to answer ‘What happened after you crashed’ …
Notes
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Dancing in the dark
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7/8/15