You Are My Eyes (Haven't been edited)
Truth (Chapter 34 )
“Ivy? Ivy?” Harry called out frantically and I froze in my place.
I didn’t know what to do. I wasn’t ready to face him yet. I just stand there without moving at all.
“Ivy? I am sorry….Ivy I am really sorry….please don’t leave me….don’t leave me,” he begged and his voice cracked as he do so. Is he O.K.? I am not going anywhere….
“Ivy please don’t live me…..I am sorry….I am sorry,” he cried out even more. “Harry I am not going anywhere….I am right here Harry,” I quickly rushed to his side still confused by why his outburst.
“Ivy….please don’t leave me,” he whispered and now I know that he is crying. “I am sorry…..I am soo sorry,” he continued.
Even though I talked to him….it’s like he couldn’t hear me at all. It took me a while to realize that he was dreaming….in fact he was having a nightmare about me leaving him. I heart sunk at the realization. If I end up leaving one day….would it have a huge impact on Harry’s life?
“Harry wake up….wake up….it’s just a dream,” I tried to wake him up but he wasn’t having it.
“Ivy….I am soo sorry,” he hiccupped. And I put my face on his cheeks. Without a doubt he was crying, “Harry please wake up….it’s just a dream….,” I shook his head to wake him up without hurting him too much.
I didn’t want to shake his body to wake him up, but I know I am going to hurt his fractured ribs if I do that. I am not going smack his face because he is already in so much pain already. This nightmare of his must be really bad.
I’ve never seen or heard Harry act so frantic before and he was always there to wake me up when I have mine. It’s my turn to wake him up from his.
I cupped his face gently and place a kiss on his lips. I am still not really used to this kissing thing but Harry has to wake up. He has to know that I am still here by his side. Everything he saw or heard about me leaving was all just a dream….a nightmare.
I don’t know how long we’ve stayed like that for but I could feel Harry’s arms cupped my own face and I know that he has finally woken up. I tried to pull myself away and step back, but his hand was fast enough to hold me in place.
“I-I am umm s-sorry….you were having a nightmare,” I said nervously not looking at his direction. “I am sorry Ivy,” he whispered hoarsely. He grabbed my hand and pulled at towards his lips. I could feel tingles from his sweet gesture.
”P-please d-don’t leave me,” he shattered. “I thought I lost...I thought I lost you,” he continued and was about to let go of my hand, but I hold onto his grip and squeezed at for comfort.
“Harry it was all a dream….I am still here alright...,” I cooed. I know he was still shaken up by the dream….the nightmare that he had about me leaving.
“It felt so real…..it felt so real….I thought I lost you forever,” he croaked. I placed my hand on his cheeks and rubbed it gently to soothe him.
“But you didn’t…I am still here,” I tried to give him a warm smile. Whatever I felt before entering this room was long gone. Hearing how Harry reacted from his dream about me leaving……makes me forget all the doubt I have about his confession. He really does want me here doesn’t he?
“Ivy…I know I’ve told you this before and I don’t expect anything in return. I just want you to know the truth and how I truly feel about you…..normally I am not sentimental guy…..but I want you to know the truth,” he breath in and I could feel him tighten his hand grip as he do so. I know that having fractured ribs makes it really difficult to breathe in and out….because it hurts….a lot.
Was I ready to hear Harry’s reasoning for whatever he did? Was I ready to hear him confess without him being drunk or close to dying? I am ready to hear it…..but for some unknown reason I am also nervous to hear what he has to say.
“Ivy…I know I am a douche and a fuck head who doesn’t think twice about my actions,” he started. “Yea…no offence or anything but you are right,” I added with a smile.
“O.k….yeah I know….let me finish please?” he asked and I can tell by his tone that he was fighting a smile.
“I am going tell you from the beginning…..after I finish you can leave me or stay with me…..it’s your choice because I believe you should know the truth,” he sighed.
Am I ready to hear this? From the way he is dragging it out…..I am getting really anxious to hear what he has to say.
“When I figured out that you can’t see…….long story short…..Tom and I had a bet to see who can get you first. Since Tom has a wealthy background…and people in our group add money into our disgusting little game….it end up being five thousand in total. I thought it would be easy and there was a lot of money involved….so I was determined to win against Tom,” he stopped talking when I pulled my hand out of his grasp. I don’t know how much more I want to hear…..but I need to know the whole story.
“That day I saw you walking home alone….I thought it was a good opportunity to get you to trust me. But let me assure you that I didn’t expect how it turned out. That day when I took you to my secret place…..I forgot about everything…..the bet….the money….me wanting to take away your innocence. I forgot it all…..it was just you and me. Before that day….I wanted to win the bet so that once I turned eighteen, I can go home….back to England,” he paused and I hold my breath.
“But after that day…..after talking to you…..I realize how hard it must have been for you to not able to see. I never really had a dream of my own….the only thing I think about is to get away from Kevin…..but you…you had a dream…..a beautiful dream….to able to see and I want to make it come true for you. From that day and on wards……I wanted to get to know you better….I want to be near you….help you and make you see how beautiful this world can be,” he sighed once more. I didn’t know what to say from his confession…..he continued to play that filthy game of his so that he could help me see again?
“But I end up doing the opposite…..I started to feel something towards you that I’ve never felt before and I hated it. I tried to hook up with different girls to make me stop thinking about you all the time but it didn’t work…..all I saw was you….you were in my head all the time whether you believe it or not,” he chuckled at his un-funny statement.
“That’s why I bullied you….you don’t know how much regrated it….I am soo sorry. I thought it would work….I forced myself not to believe that I have a feeling towards you…..that’s why I ignore you at school or don’t say anything when people insulted you……you don’t know how much I want to beat myself up for that. That night that I saw you walking alone at night with your suit case……I was about to go to a party that night…..so I can officially get you out of my head…..but when I saw you walking alone that night…..your safety was the only thing that comes to my mind and nothing else.” He grabbed my hand once more and rubbed it gently.
“You don’t know how angry I was to hear your aunty has kicked you out…..I was beyond pissed. I offered you to stay with Kevin because I know he won’t deny my decisions. But I didn’t like the fact that Zayn was going to be in the house as well because you are very close to him,” he stated.
“But Zayn is my best friend…..my only friend and you know that,” I injected.
“I know….I know now that Zayn means no harm…..but I hated seeing you guys so close. I hated seeing you talking to anyone that is a guy……especially Tom. Not because he was my competition because I know he was going to take advantage of you-,” I cut him off.
“And you are not?” I asked angrily.
“That was my plan originally, but the more I spent my time with you….the more guilt build up inside me. I wasn’t going to force you or push you into doing anything…..I thought if you end up feeling the same way I did then…..then it would be something that we feel mutual towards each other and the money I got would be for your eye operation,” he exhaled.
I don’t know how much of his words I can trust. I am having a mix feeling…….my heart is telling me that he is being honest but my head is telling me that…..this is just more of his excuse to make him look better.
“How can I believe you? How can I believe that you decided to continue to play that disgusting game of yours to help me?” I scoffed.
“Because I care about you Ivy…..because I-I l-love you,” he exhaled again.
“Because I-I love you Ivy…..once I decided to accept my feelings…..I realized that I love you….more than anything in this world. You may not believe me because of the reputation I have and all the horrible things I’ve done to you…..but every day, every hour, every second that I’ve spent with you…..they were all real. More real than all the things in my current life. You may not buy my words but I will prove it to you….I will show you how much you mean to me.”
“why? Why do you love me Harry? I am just a blind girl without reputation….without family….just a simple blind girl and you said so yourself,” I stated weakly and I could feel those silly tears starting to form.
“Don’t ever say that…..don’t ever say that. Everything I’ve said to you…..all the insults that I’ve given you….they were all a lie….I was lying to myself. You want to know why I love you? I Love everything about you…..as cliché as it may sound….I love you from head to toe. From your personality to your voice. I’ve never met anyone like you before, someone who is so beautiful, kind hearted, genuine and so strong. Never in my life have I met such an amazing girl like you before,” he said in a confident voice and without a doubt I was touched by his words.
“But….I am just a simple blind girl….who can’t even see what’s in front of me,” I stated truthfully.
“People in this world may think you are blind…..but for me…..you are the only one who can see me….the real me that I never thought exist anymore……Ivy you are my eyes…..you are the one who is guiding me the way…..not the other way around.”
I didn’t know what to do. I wasn’t ready to face him yet. I just stand there without moving at all.
“Ivy? I am sorry….Ivy I am really sorry….please don’t leave me….don’t leave me,” he begged and his voice cracked as he do so. Is he O.K.? I am not going anywhere….
“Ivy please don’t live me…..I am sorry….I am sorry,” he cried out even more. “Harry I am not going anywhere….I am right here Harry,” I quickly rushed to his side still confused by why his outburst.
“Ivy….please don’t leave me,” he whispered and now I know that he is crying. “I am sorry…..I am soo sorry,” he continued.
Even though I talked to him….it’s like he couldn’t hear me at all. It took me a while to realize that he was dreaming….in fact he was having a nightmare about me leaving him. I heart sunk at the realization. If I end up leaving one day….would it have a huge impact on Harry’s life?
“Harry wake up….wake up….it’s just a dream,” I tried to wake him up but he wasn’t having it.
“Ivy….I am soo sorry,” he hiccupped. And I put my face on his cheeks. Without a doubt he was crying, “Harry please wake up….it’s just a dream….,” I shook his head to wake him up without hurting him too much.
I didn’t want to shake his body to wake him up, but I know I am going to hurt his fractured ribs if I do that. I am not going smack his face because he is already in so much pain already. This nightmare of his must be really bad.
I’ve never seen or heard Harry act so frantic before and he was always there to wake me up when I have mine. It’s my turn to wake him up from his.
I cupped his face gently and place a kiss on his lips. I am still not really used to this kissing thing but Harry has to wake up. He has to know that I am still here by his side. Everything he saw or heard about me leaving was all just a dream….a nightmare.
I don’t know how long we’ve stayed like that for but I could feel Harry’s arms cupped my own face and I know that he has finally woken up. I tried to pull myself away and step back, but his hand was fast enough to hold me in place.
“I-I am umm s-sorry….you were having a nightmare,” I said nervously not looking at his direction. “I am sorry Ivy,” he whispered hoarsely. He grabbed my hand and pulled at towards his lips. I could feel tingles from his sweet gesture.
”P-please d-don’t leave me,” he shattered. “I thought I lost...I thought I lost you,” he continued and was about to let go of my hand, but I hold onto his grip and squeezed at for comfort.
“Harry it was all a dream….I am still here alright...,” I cooed. I know he was still shaken up by the dream….the nightmare that he had about me leaving.
“It felt so real…..it felt so real….I thought I lost you forever,” he croaked. I placed my hand on his cheeks and rubbed it gently to soothe him.
“But you didn’t…I am still here,” I tried to give him a warm smile. Whatever I felt before entering this room was long gone. Hearing how Harry reacted from his dream about me leaving……makes me forget all the doubt I have about his confession. He really does want me here doesn’t he?
“Ivy…I know I’ve told you this before and I don’t expect anything in return. I just want you to know the truth and how I truly feel about you…..normally I am not sentimental guy…..but I want you to know the truth,” he breath in and I could feel him tighten his hand grip as he do so. I know that having fractured ribs makes it really difficult to breathe in and out….because it hurts….a lot.
Was I ready to hear Harry’s reasoning for whatever he did? Was I ready to hear him confess without him being drunk or close to dying? I am ready to hear it…..but for some unknown reason I am also nervous to hear what he has to say.
“Ivy…I know I am a douche and a fuck head who doesn’t think twice about my actions,” he started. “Yea…no offence or anything but you are right,” I added with a smile.
“O.k….yeah I know….let me finish please?” he asked and I can tell by his tone that he was fighting a smile.
“I am going tell you from the beginning…..after I finish you can leave me or stay with me…..it’s your choice because I believe you should know the truth,” he sighed.
Am I ready to hear this? From the way he is dragging it out…..I am getting really anxious to hear what he has to say.
“When I figured out that you can’t see…….long story short…..Tom and I had a bet to see who can get you first. Since Tom has a wealthy background…and people in our group add money into our disgusting little game….it end up being five thousand in total. I thought it would be easy and there was a lot of money involved….so I was determined to win against Tom,” he stopped talking when I pulled my hand out of his grasp. I don’t know how much more I want to hear…..but I need to know the whole story.
“That day I saw you walking home alone….I thought it was a good opportunity to get you to trust me. But let me assure you that I didn’t expect how it turned out. That day when I took you to my secret place…..I forgot about everything…..the bet….the money….me wanting to take away your innocence. I forgot it all…..it was just you and me. Before that day….I wanted to win the bet so that once I turned eighteen, I can go home….back to England,” he paused and I hold my breath.
“But after that day…..after talking to you…..I realize how hard it must have been for you to not able to see. I never really had a dream of my own….the only thing I think about is to get away from Kevin…..but you…you had a dream…..a beautiful dream….to able to see and I want to make it come true for you. From that day and on wards……I wanted to get to know you better….I want to be near you….help you and make you see how beautiful this world can be,” he sighed once more. I didn’t know what to say from his confession…..he continued to play that filthy game of his so that he could help me see again?
“But I end up doing the opposite…..I started to feel something towards you that I’ve never felt before and I hated it. I tried to hook up with different girls to make me stop thinking about you all the time but it didn’t work…..all I saw was you….you were in my head all the time whether you believe it or not,” he chuckled at his un-funny statement.
“That’s why I bullied you….you don’t know how much regrated it….I am soo sorry. I thought it would work….I forced myself not to believe that I have a feeling towards you…..that’s why I ignore you at school or don’t say anything when people insulted you……you don’t know how much I want to beat myself up for that. That night that I saw you walking alone at night with your suit case……I was about to go to a party that night…..so I can officially get you out of my head…..but when I saw you walking alone that night…..your safety was the only thing that comes to my mind and nothing else.” He grabbed my hand once more and rubbed it gently.
“You don’t know how angry I was to hear your aunty has kicked you out…..I was beyond pissed. I offered you to stay with Kevin because I know he won’t deny my decisions. But I didn’t like the fact that Zayn was going to be in the house as well because you are very close to him,” he stated.
“But Zayn is my best friend…..my only friend and you know that,” I injected.
“I know….I know now that Zayn means no harm…..but I hated seeing you guys so close. I hated seeing you talking to anyone that is a guy……especially Tom. Not because he was my competition because I know he was going to take advantage of you-,” I cut him off.
“And you are not?” I asked angrily.
“That was my plan originally, but the more I spent my time with you….the more guilt build up inside me. I wasn’t going to force you or push you into doing anything…..I thought if you end up feeling the same way I did then…..then it would be something that we feel mutual towards each other and the money I got would be for your eye operation,” he exhaled.
I don’t know how much of his words I can trust. I am having a mix feeling…….my heart is telling me that he is being honest but my head is telling me that…..this is just more of his excuse to make him look better.
“How can I believe you? How can I believe that you decided to continue to play that disgusting game of yours to help me?” I scoffed.
“Because I care about you Ivy…..because I-I l-love you,” he exhaled again.
“Because I-I love you Ivy…..once I decided to accept my feelings…..I realized that I love you….more than anything in this world. You may not believe me because of the reputation I have and all the horrible things I’ve done to you…..but every day, every hour, every second that I’ve spent with you…..they were all real. More real than all the things in my current life. You may not buy my words but I will prove it to you….I will show you how much you mean to me.”
“why? Why do you love me Harry? I am just a blind girl without reputation….without family….just a simple blind girl and you said so yourself,” I stated weakly and I could feel those silly tears starting to form.
“Don’t ever say that…..don’t ever say that. Everything I’ve said to you…..all the insults that I’ve given you….they were all a lie….I was lying to myself. You want to know why I love you? I Love everything about you…..as cliché as it may sound….I love you from head to toe. From your personality to your voice. I’ve never met anyone like you before, someone who is so beautiful, kind hearted, genuine and so strong. Never in my life have I met such an amazing girl like you before,” he said in a confident voice and without a doubt I was touched by his words.
“But….I am just a simple blind girl….who can’t even see what’s in front of me,” I stated truthfully.
“People in this world may think you are blind…..but for me…..you are the only one who can see me….the real me that I never thought exist anymore……Ivy you are my eyes…..you are the one who is guiding me the way…..not the other way around.”
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6/20/16