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You Are My Eyes (Haven't been edited)

Fool (Chapter 28)

**Monday**

(Ivy’s P.O.V)

“I am sorry for leaving early Tom, without letting you know,” I pouted. I did feel bad, I mean he was the one who asked me to go and I end up leaving with Harry. I feel like a really horrible human being. I did enjoy my time with Harry, a lot, but once realization hit, guilt was swirling around even more.

“Just because you do that pouty face…..even though it is very cute….I still don’t forgive you,” he huffed. “Fine….what can I do to make it up to you?” I asked desperately. Tom has become a good friend of mine as time passes I guess. I mean, not including Zayn…..Tom is the only other I can count as a friend. I don’t even know if Harry is my friend or more than a friend.

Yes! We did make out on Friday night, twice and did I regret it? No, I didn’t regret it, but I don’t want to become friends with benefit thing. I don’t know if it means anything for Harry, but the kiss we’ve shared did mean a lot to me.

I mean he is the first guy I’ve ever kissed, of course it would mean a lot to me. It’s hard to tell when it comes to Harry…..his very unpredictable…..he makes out with a lot of girls and I am sure I am no different to other girls for him.

“Go on a date with me,” Tom stated and I gave him a shock face. “What? You mean like….,” I trailed out. “Yes Ivy….go on a date with me and I will forgive you,” he said it as if it was some sort of a deal. I don’t know how to answer it, I’ve never been on an actual date before and I don’t even know what people do. I don’t even understand the meaning of dating.

“So you are saying if I go on a date with you….you will forgive me?” I asked while making sure that’s exactly what he means. “Well….I am not making you do this so I can forgive you…..I am also asking you because I do really want to take you out on a date….I’ve been meaning to ask you but I was scared you will decline…..I thought I will take this as a perfect opportunity,” he chuckled nervously. I was shocked by his admission. He wanted to take me out on a date all this time? But why?

“Um….do I have time to think about it?” I asked nervously. “Yeah of course….I am not pressuring you to do this….even if you end up saying no…..I will end up forgiving you eventually…..I mean I can never resist that pouty cute face of yours,” he laughed. I breathed out and relax at his words. I am glad Tom is an understanding person. “Thanks Tom…..for being so understanding,” I smiled at him.

“Come on….let’s get you to glass shall we?” he asked cheekily. “We shall,” I laughed. “You know I am a horrible person for leaving you on Friday….you know I am realllllllllllly sorry right?” I questioned once more.

“Yes! O.k…..stop saying sorry o.k…you've been saying this it for a hundredth time now,” he chuckled. “Well I just want you to know how sorry -,” I wasn’t able to finish my sentence because he cut me off. What is it with people cutting of my sentence these days?

“O.k…..I forgive you oaky,” he sighed. “Thank you for forgiving me Tom...you are awesome….um so that date doesn’t count anymore right?” I ginned at him innocently. “Just awesome? I am way more than just awesome….and that date still stands,” he stopped in front of my classroom.

“You are so up yourself,” I laughed. “Hey…..I just know who the type of person I am O.K.….and I know that I am more than awesome,” he stated dramatically and I laughed even more.
We said our goodbyes and Tom left to go to his class.

As always, I am five minute early and there was no one in the room. Well I assume there was no one in the room because it is extremely quiet. “Well….well….well….if it isn’t the blind mutant,” Alex gritted her teeth.

“Let’s see…..you are working with your social class here aye? First….it was Zayn, but it seems he wasn’t good enough? Then Tom? Still playing around with him aye? What a fool…..now you’ve moved on to Harry…..I didn’t know a mutant like you can be such a slut,” she spat.

I have totally forgotten about the Alex problem and I am sure she knows I left the ball with Harry. I mean she did try to call him a couple of times. “I knew you were not innocent as you look from the first time I lay my eyes on you,” she stated in a bored tone.

“Don’t you think I know you left with Harry on Friday? I saw you run after him in the rain…..what a desperate bitch…aren't you embarrassed by your actions?” she asked as if a mother has caught her daughter doing naughty things.

I didn’t know what to say. I mean, I did run after Harry on Friday but it wasn’t because I wanted him….it was because he was angry with me for bringing up Kevin in our conversation. “You think Zayn wants you? You think Tom wants you? You really think Harry wants you?” she snickered. “Girls…..she really thinks these boys really want her,” two other laughter can be heard as they joined Alex.

“They hang out with me because they are my friend,” I stated more to myself and tears are fighting to spill. I don’t know who I was trying to convince, Alex or myself. My statement made them laugh even louder.

I know I should not listen to them and ignore her words but for some reason I can’t. “Oh Evy…don’t tell me you can’t see the truth…..wait of course you can’t because you can’t actually see,” she snorted as if it was the funniest thing ever.

“Zayn….hangout with you because he pities you….oh I bet you didn’t know that did you? I mean who doesn’t pity a blind girl right?” that statement hit me like a rock and now my tears are no longer in my control.

That’s the exact words that Harry said to me when I first came here. Did Zayn really pity me all this time? I thought he was being generous because he was my friend. “Tom? Well…..he hangout with you just simply to use you and I am sure you didn’t see that coming did ya? He wouldn’t hangout with you if he didn’t think he will have a chance in bed with you,” she chuckled.

“As for Harry…..do you know why his been hanging out with you? Or treated you nice or whatever you think he is doing when you are with him? Oh should I tell her girls?” she asked sarcastically to her friends.

I know I should not let her words get to me and I know she is just trying to get revenge on me because Harry left with me on Friday, but I can’t help it. “Tell me….why has Harry been treating me nice….tell me,” I demand.

The way she is asking me these questions makes me feel like I am missing something I don’t know. Something big that has something to do with Harry. “Oh I don’t want to hurt your little feelings but at least I have a heart to tell you the truth -,” before she could finished her sentence the door burst open. “Alex….shut the hell up,” Harry stated angrily.

“No….tell me Alex…tell me why Harry has been treating me nice lately,” I shouted my tears has become endless. I don’t know why I am crying so hard, but I feel like everything that has happen even since I’ve moved here was all a lie.

Harry taking me to the creek, him offering me to stay at his dad’s house, him treating me like I am a fragile object that is about to break when I am with him and not to mention what happen last Friday. Everything he has done for me…..was it all a lie? A big fat lie? What can he gain from lying to me?

“Ivy….can I talk to you outside,” Harry asked. “No! Alex….tell me now,” I shouted getting angry because whatever she was about to say…..Harry surely doesn’t want me to know. “Oh…..Harry I don’t think you are playing fair…..I think little Ivy deserves to know,” Alex chuckled. “Ivy….I will tell you myself come out side” Harry tried to negotiate.

“No Harry…..Alex spill the bean now,” I said harshly. I don’t want Harry to sugarcoat anything. “Oh….this is fun…..well you little Harry here has been playing with you ever since your first encountered….let’s say some sort of bet I suppose,” she laughed.

I swear I’ve never cried this hard before as I let Alex’s information digest. “Oh let me add….lot's of money are involved too,” I can tell she is enjoying my pain. “Money bet on me…. over what?” I may be crying but anger definitely has taken over.

“Just so you know….Harry was the one who came up with the idea -,” she was cut out by Harry. “Alex….,” he warned. “I’ve already gotten this far,” amusement in her tone clearly evidence. “Since we figured you are a virgin….it started with three thousand…..and it was settled with five thousand…..if Harry can take your virginity away the first week…it was a win-win for situation for him.”

Shock was an understatement. Harry’s been doing all this just so he could get into my pants? Is that why he started to talk to me in the first place? Is that why he offered me the car ride that day? Is that his aim every time we share bed together? Was that his aim as well last week Friday? I can’t help but feel disgusted by the new information. He wants to take away someone’s virginity for some game and let’s not forget a bet that involves money.

“As you know it didn’t happen….he asked to extend the time to a month and now it’s been a month and he still haven’t succeeded as you can see,” she laughed and the other two girls joined her. I was sad, angry, and disgusted. I can assure you that all of these emotions were there. I can’t tell which one over power the other.

I walked out of the room but Harry grabbed my wrist. “Ivy let me explain,” he begged. “Let you explain? There is nothing left to explain Harry,” I tried to pull away but his grip was way too strong. He falls on his knee and hugged me around my waist. “Ivy….it started of like that…..but as time pass it changed….” He tried to explained, but I am not letting him come up with an excuse. He rest his head on my waist while begging me to forgive him.

Who is this person? I don't know who he is anymore. I don't even know if I've known him at all. I don't know who this Harry is anymore.....he is a stranger....a complete stranger who would toy with someone's feeling just to earn money.

I lift my hand and smack his face. Hard. “Don’t ever talk to me, come near me ever again Harry…..you disgust me,” I spat. I pull my hand and walked away. Even though Monday morning has just started, I can’t stay at school. It is way too emotional for me, I had to get away.



“Ivy….Ivy,” I could hear him yelled after me as I started to run towards the exit door. “Ivy…..you don’t mean that…..” I could hear him run after me but it only makes me speed up my pace.I can't stand being near him. I can't stand his voice.I can't stand his presence. I know I was a fool for gaining feelings towards him.

Have you ever felt so betrayed before? The person that you've spend most of your times with. You trusted then enough to tell them about your past. You let your guarded wall fall piece to piece every time you were with them. You thought they have changed, changed and accepted you on who you are. Care for you and makes you feel better about yourself. But in the end.....it was all a lie.....a game.

I was a fool....a complete fool. If I didn't accept his offer to drive me home that day, I would still be living with my aunty and none of this would have happened. As much as I hate her, at least I don't have to rely on other peoples family to provide me a roof to live under and meals to eat.

Even though I want to accuse Harry for all this trouble.....deep down I know it wasn't. It was my fault....my fault from the beginning. It's always been my fault and blaming it on other people will only make me guiltier. I've ignored the warnings, I guess my aunty was right. I am blind not only physically but also emotionally as well.

I know I was blind within my eyes, but I was not blind by the things that surrounded me.

Now.

Now......I am blind. Literally, not only on the outside but officially blind on the inside as well.

Notes

SHOCK??? (Apparently good times doesn't last) I don't know if you guys can remember this but in the second chapter.....Harry said that Ivy wouldn't go near Tom......and Tom asked Harry if it was a challenged - do you all remember it? (Hopefully you guys can put....two and two together now.....hopefully)

Anyway I hope you all like the chapter....I feel bad for Ivy :( What do you guys REALLY think of Harry now? ----what will happen now? There relationship barely started and it crumbles to pieces already :'(

I want to take this time to thank my new subscriber <3 I LOVE YOU DARLING and Thank you ^_^ (For the rest of you.......I can't wish for any better readers like you lot - your supports will forever stay in my heart)

- Tomorrow school is starting.....I can't promise when my next update will be my lovelies :(

Lots of love P.S xxx - Stay safe and beautiful like always <3<3 ^_^




Comments

Please update :)

Teresa Horan Teresa Horan
6/20/16

@JustBloo.

See......we need more people like you in this world <3 <3 Yes!!!! you were very helpful and I messaged you with the biggest spoiler everrrrrr ^_^

@PS2Live the dream


Was I helpful? I have a problem conveying my thoughts into understandable sentences lol But what can I say? I'm just a fanfic reading girl willing to do anything to see her otp continue their story ;)

JustBloo. JustBloo.
12/11/15

@JustBloo

DO you know how much LOVE I have for you?? If you don't......well.....I LOVE YOU dear <3 <3

Hey!

I had this same thing happen to me too! Weirdness! But anyways...

I honestly think that this story has so far been written wonderfully. If there wasn't a plot or designated outcome, I sure as hell couldn't tell. But I know sometimes lack of "structure" puts a strain on the author just because of writer's block and other things like that.

I think from here, you can look at what you've written so far and ask yourself possible ways you can go next and sketch out and organize the rest of the story from this part (sometimes brainstorming concepts with someone else really makes the process easier and in some cases cleaner), and then go back to previous chapters and tweak certain things just so it' ll all wrap up nicely.

OR....

You can rewrite it (as you previously stated) and do things differently. The only problem that may arise with that, is since you are so far along in this story (40 chapters) the people that have previously subscribed to your story and have followed it this far may have trouble getting used to a new storyline and character adjustments.

But that's assuming there was a story line before (which it has seemed like), which you said there wasn't. So it's definitely a hard choice.

I think you should trust your gut and do what seems best to you. Everyone else will get over it :)

I'm here if you need a brainstorm session or a convo just to sketch out storylines by the way.

Ivarry shipper for life lolol


JustBloo. JustBloo.
12/10/15