You Are My Eyes (Haven't been edited)
Winter's Ball Part 2 (Chapter 25)
(Ivy's P.O.V)
“If you could stop being so dam beautiful then it might makes it easier for me to ignore your presence Ivy,” Harry whispered in my ear which made me shivered.
Why is he here with me right now? I thought Zayn said that he was coming with Alex. “Harry aren’t you supposed to be with Alex?” I whispered harshly back while unfolding his arms from my waist. “Why do you have to ruin the moment?” he whined.Just when I thought I could escape from him, he tightened his arms around my waist and pull me against his chest even closer.
Is he drunk? Why is he being nice at the moment? I mean he has been ignoring me for a week and half already. What’s with the sudden affection?
“There wasn’t any moment….could you please let me go” I sighed. “No! I am not letting you go,” he said bluntly. It almost sounds like his statement has more than one meaning. I could hear the song change and now ‘Thinking out loud’ by Ed Sheeran was playing in the background. “Dance with me,” he ordered and turned my body to face him. Harry grabbed my arms and placed it around his neck while he wrapped his around my waist.
“You know you are the most beautiful girl here tonight?” he asked softly which sounded more like a statement. “Harry are you drunk?” I asked as we swayed to the music. “No….I am not drunk,” he chuckled. I think he is definitely drunk. Ever since I’ve met him…..well he hasn’t complimented me once and from what Zayn has told me, I am not even Harry’s type.
Zayn said that I look beautiful and as well as Margret. But how can I trust people’s word when I can’t see it for myself. I know for a fact that I am wearing a strapless dress that stops just above my knee and Margret curled my hair a little bit, well since my hair is naturally wavy already. I told Margret that I’ve never worn high heels before, so she got a heel that wasn’t high and easier to walk on. She sure reminds me of my mum a lot.
“Why do you think that?” he asked after a while of silent dancing. In all honesty, we aren’t actually dancing because I don’t really know how to. It was more like just swaying side to side to the music. “Why do I think what?” I questioned. I don’t know what he is asking about now. “Why do you think I am drunk?” he chuckled as his own question.
“Well…..let me think…..um…..since you’ve been ignoring me for almost two weeks and haven’t come home at all. Now all of a sudden you are kind to me,” I stated in a monotone. “I was just granting your request,” he stated as a matter of fact way.
“Do you know how worried your families were….they asked me all sorts of question because you weren’t coming home –“I was cut off by Harry before I could finish my sentence. “They aren’t my family,” he said harshly while tightening his grip around my waist.
“Harry they are your family….Kevin is your father,” I breathe out a loud sighed. “Kevin is not my father….I may have his DNA but he will never be my father,” I can tell that he is fuming now. I know there’s got to be a reasonable explanation for why Harry dislike his father so much……but ever since I got here Kevin hasn’t done anything except being the kind man he is.
“Harry why do you dislike Kevin so much?” I finally asked. I had to know why…..I know it is not my business but what ever happened in the past is what’s making Harry the way he is. “Can we freaken drop the subject,” he yelled at my face but only loud enough for me to hear.
“No Harry…..I am not going to drop the subject…..what ever happen in the past, well you both need to sort it out…..I know he loves you dearly – “ once again I was cut off as Harry dropped his arms around my waist and walked off.
I decided to run after him and even though I may not able to see, I know for a fact that we just made a scene and all the eyes were on Harry and I. “Harry….” I tried to catch up…..the only reason I know where he is going is because I could hear his loud footsteps and also I know for a fact that he is heading towards the exist.
As Harry open the exit door a swoop of wind blew into the building. I shivered as the cool breeze touches my exposed skin. I could hear thunder groaning in the distance and the sound of the rain poured down heavily. I could only assume that Harry keeps on walking and decided to walk through the rain to get to his car. “Harry could you stop being so childish,” I yelled running through the rain to catch up with him once more.
I was shivering due to the impact of the cold freezing rain water. I mean of course it would be freezing; it is still winter for goodness sake. Let’s not forget how heavy the rain is either. “Me being childish? I guess you are the one to judge now aye….you don’t know anything about me……you don’t know what I’ve been through,” he yelled back harshly through the pouring rain. I am drenched and I know Harry would be too.
“Well…..I would understand if you tell me what you actually been through,” I screamed back. I know that Harry is not that far away from me but since it was raining heavily…..we both have to yell and scream at each other…..I don’t even know if it was out of anger or just simply because we couldn’t hear each other.
“You would understand? Pfttt yeah right…..what are you now some therapist?” he scoffed. “You know you are selfish right Harry? You are a selfish bastard…..you only think about yourself….you never stopped for once in your life and think about how others would feel due to your actions and words. Whatever happen between you and Kevin I don’t know…..but whatever happen in the past stays in the past……because you may not be the only one who had a tough life,” I roared. He knows that I was kicked out of my house by my aunty. He obviously picked up the fact that I don’t have any parents, whether they are dead or not.
“Whatever in the past stays in the past? How would you feel if your dad left your mother because she was pregnant with his baby and he didn’t want to take responsibility? How would you feel if you know your dad forces your mum to get an abortion because he simply doesn’t want you in this world? How would you feel growing up knowing that you don’t have a dad when every kid in your school has one? How would you feel seeing your mum cried herself to sleep every night? How would you feel knowing your mother has to work night and day just to provide you a simple food? How would you feel growing up in the poorest part of England and knowing that you are never safe? “Harry is standing in front of me right now and I could a lot of emotions from his voice.
“How would you feel when one day kids at school started bullying you because they know that your mum is a prostitute when you don’t even know it yourself?” I gasped. “How would you feel knowing that your mum has AIDS and will die within a month? How would you feel seeing your mum deteriorating slowly and you can’t do anything about it? How would you feel if your unknown dad that didn’t want you all those years ago wants you back? How would you feel if you come home one day… to find your mother’s body was lifeless and you didn’t…. even have a chance to say…. good bye?” his voice cracked at his last statement.
I engulfed him with a tight hug but he tries to pull himself away. “Harry don’t…” I whispered. Tears wouldn’t stop coming down from my face. Harry has been through a lot just like I did but sort of in a different way.
I can understand now why he acts that was towards Kevin and the rest of the family. It is understandable because his father is living a luxury life with his new family now and it must have been extremely difficult to see. He had a lonely, childhood with traumatizing teenage years and I can see why his dislike for Kevin is very strong.
It’s like we both have forgotten how heavy the rain was and how cold it actually is. “I-I don’t want y-your sympathy alright,” he stated but finally hugged me back. I kept on crying and I am glad it is raining because it is harder to distinguish the rain and my tears. I am sure Harry is crying as well. “I-I sorry Harry f-for all the things I’ve said….you are not selfish bastard,” I whispered and I could hear my own voice cracking.
“No! I am a selfish bastard…..I-I am s-sorry for everything that I’ve said or done to you,” he apologized. I didn’t reply but I just hugged him tighter. For the first time since I’ve met Harry….this is the first time we’ve come to some sort of agreement.
It may be the fact that Harry and I aren’t different as we think we are. We both feel like we have no one left in this world because the people that truly mean the world to us are in a better place now. But at this moment in time it didn’t matter…..I was in Harry’s arm and he was in mine.
We had each other.
“If you could stop being so dam beautiful then it might makes it easier for me to ignore your presence Ivy,” Harry whispered in my ear which made me shivered.
Why is he here with me right now? I thought Zayn said that he was coming with Alex. “Harry aren’t you supposed to be with Alex?” I whispered harshly back while unfolding his arms from my waist. “Why do you have to ruin the moment?” he whined.Just when I thought I could escape from him, he tightened his arms around my waist and pull me against his chest even closer.
Is he drunk? Why is he being nice at the moment? I mean he has been ignoring me for a week and half already. What’s with the sudden affection?
“There wasn’t any moment….could you please let me go” I sighed. “No! I am not letting you go,” he said bluntly. It almost sounds like his statement has more than one meaning. I could hear the song change and now ‘Thinking out loud’ by Ed Sheeran was playing in the background. “Dance with me,” he ordered and turned my body to face him. Harry grabbed my arms and placed it around his neck while he wrapped his around my waist.
“You know you are the most beautiful girl here tonight?” he asked softly which sounded more like a statement. “Harry are you drunk?” I asked as we swayed to the music. “No….I am not drunk,” he chuckled. I think he is definitely drunk. Ever since I’ve met him…..well he hasn’t complimented me once and from what Zayn has told me, I am not even Harry’s type.
Zayn said that I look beautiful and as well as Margret. But how can I trust people’s word when I can’t see it for myself. I know for a fact that I am wearing a strapless dress that stops just above my knee and Margret curled my hair a little bit, well since my hair is naturally wavy already. I told Margret that I’ve never worn high heels before, so she got a heel that wasn’t high and easier to walk on. She sure reminds me of my mum a lot.
“Why do you think that?” he asked after a while of silent dancing. In all honesty, we aren’t actually dancing because I don’t really know how to. It was more like just swaying side to side to the music. “Why do I think what?” I questioned. I don’t know what he is asking about now. “Why do you think I am drunk?” he chuckled as his own question.
“Well…..let me think…..um…..since you’ve been ignoring me for almost two weeks and haven’t come home at all. Now all of a sudden you are kind to me,” I stated in a monotone. “I was just granting your request,” he stated as a matter of fact way.
“Do you know how worried your families were….they asked me all sorts of question because you weren’t coming home –“I was cut off by Harry before I could finish my sentence. “They aren’t my family,” he said harshly while tightening his grip around my waist.
“Harry they are your family….Kevin is your father,” I breathe out a loud sighed. “Kevin is not my father….I may have his DNA but he will never be my father,” I can tell that he is fuming now. I know there’s got to be a reasonable explanation for why Harry dislike his father so much……but ever since I got here Kevin hasn’t done anything except being the kind man he is.
“Harry why do you dislike Kevin so much?” I finally asked. I had to know why…..I know it is not my business but what ever happened in the past is what’s making Harry the way he is. “Can we freaken drop the subject,” he yelled at my face but only loud enough for me to hear.
“No Harry…..I am not going to drop the subject…..what ever happen in the past, well you both need to sort it out…..I know he loves you dearly – “ once again I was cut off as Harry dropped his arms around my waist and walked off.
I decided to run after him and even though I may not able to see, I know for a fact that we just made a scene and all the eyes were on Harry and I. “Harry….” I tried to catch up…..the only reason I know where he is going is because I could hear his loud footsteps and also I know for a fact that he is heading towards the exist.
As Harry open the exit door a swoop of wind blew into the building. I shivered as the cool breeze touches my exposed skin. I could hear thunder groaning in the distance and the sound of the rain poured down heavily. I could only assume that Harry keeps on walking and decided to walk through the rain to get to his car. “Harry could you stop being so childish,” I yelled running through the rain to catch up with him once more.
I was shivering due to the impact of the cold freezing rain water. I mean of course it would be freezing; it is still winter for goodness sake. Let’s not forget how heavy the rain is either. “Me being childish? I guess you are the one to judge now aye….you don’t know anything about me……you don’t know what I’ve been through,” he yelled back harshly through the pouring rain. I am drenched and I know Harry would be too.
“Well…..I would understand if you tell me what you actually been through,” I screamed back. I know that Harry is not that far away from me but since it was raining heavily…..we both have to yell and scream at each other…..I don’t even know if it was out of anger or just simply because we couldn’t hear each other.
“You would understand? Pfttt yeah right…..what are you now some therapist?” he scoffed. “You know you are selfish right Harry? You are a selfish bastard…..you only think about yourself….you never stopped for once in your life and think about how others would feel due to your actions and words. Whatever happen between you and Kevin I don’t know…..but whatever happen in the past stays in the past……because you may not be the only one who had a tough life,” I roared. He knows that I was kicked out of my house by my aunty. He obviously picked up the fact that I don’t have any parents, whether they are dead or not.
“Whatever in the past stays in the past? How would you feel if your dad left your mother because she was pregnant with his baby and he didn’t want to take responsibility? How would you feel if you know your dad forces your mum to get an abortion because he simply doesn’t want you in this world? How would you feel growing up knowing that you don’t have a dad when every kid in your school has one? How would you feel seeing your mum cried herself to sleep every night? How would you feel knowing your mother has to work night and day just to provide you a simple food? How would you feel growing up in the poorest part of England and knowing that you are never safe? “Harry is standing in front of me right now and I could a lot of emotions from his voice.
“How would you feel when one day kids at school started bullying you because they know that your mum is a prostitute when you don’t even know it yourself?” I gasped. “How would you feel knowing that your mum has AIDS and will die within a month? How would you feel seeing your mum deteriorating slowly and you can’t do anything about it? How would you feel if your unknown dad that didn’t want you all those years ago wants you back? How would you feel if you come home one day… to find your mother’s body was lifeless and you didn’t…. even have a chance to say…. good bye?” his voice cracked at his last statement.
I engulfed him with a tight hug but he tries to pull himself away. “Harry don’t…” I whispered. Tears wouldn’t stop coming down from my face. Harry has been through a lot just like I did but sort of in a different way.
I can understand now why he acts that was towards Kevin and the rest of the family. It is understandable because his father is living a luxury life with his new family now and it must have been extremely difficult to see. He had a lonely, childhood with traumatizing teenage years and I can see why his dislike for Kevin is very strong.
It’s like we both have forgotten how heavy the rain was and how cold it actually is. “I-I don’t want y-your sympathy alright,” he stated but finally hugged me back. I kept on crying and I am glad it is raining because it is harder to distinguish the rain and my tears. I am sure Harry is crying as well. “I-I sorry Harry f-for all the things I’ve said….you are not selfish bastard,” I whispered and I could hear my own voice cracking.
“No! I am a selfish bastard…..I-I am s-sorry for everything that I’ve said or done to you,” he apologized. I didn’t reply but I just hugged him tighter. For the first time since I’ve met Harry….this is the first time we’ve come to some sort of agreement.
It may be the fact that Harry and I aren’t different as we think we are. We both feel like we have no one left in this world because the people that truly mean the world to us are in a better place now. But at this moment in time it didn’t matter…..I was in Harry’s arm and he was in mine.
We had each other.
Notes
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