You Are My Eyes (Haven't been edited)
Secured (Chapter 23)
(Ivy’s P.O.V)
For the rest of the week Harry never came home and he didn’t even bother to try to speak to me at school. Even when I bumped into him in the hallway or something, he just made nasty comment like he used to when I first got here and go on with his life. I just I don’t know whether to be relieved or disappointed. I know that’s what I wanted but it doesn’t feel right. The Harry I am starting to know now has vanished in thin air.
I don’t know if it was all an act. I don’t know whether the Harry I got to know was the real Harry or the fake Harry. I can’t even distinguish what was real and what was not during all the times I’ve spent with him. Was he putting on an act all this time? What can he gain from pretending to be something his not?
“I will be picking you up at six thirty alright Ivy,” Tom stated excitedly while patting me on the back and walked off. I was now brought back to reality because my mind was wondering around a certain arrogant, rude, yet can be sweet and caring male named Harry.
I totally have forgotten about the winter’s ball. It’s haven’t even popped into my mind at all. This is probably the reason why Zayn is late. I am currently waiting for Zayn at the front of the school so that he could drive us home. I don’t know how long I have been standing but my legs were getting tired, so I decided to sit on the ground with my back against the brick wall.
“Ivy wake up,” Zayn muttered. I didn’t realize that I have fallen asleep. I guess it sort of made sense because I haven’t been sleeping properly. The nightmare keeps on returning and sometimes I would deliberately try to avoid sleeping just so I don’t have to relive the memory.
“Ivy I am so sorry for making you wait….we had the student council meeting due to the winter’s ball tonight.” Zayn apologized with guilt clearly evidence in his tone. “No need to apologize Zayn,” I gave him a lazy smile.
“You look like a zombie you know? Have you been getting enough sleep lately?” he chuckled at his first question but his tone harden at the second question. “What a way to make a lady feel better about themselves,” I chuckled trying to ignore his second question.
“Ivy I am being serious….have you been getting enough sleep lately? You are starting to form some dark circles,” Zayn replied worriedly. “I am sleeping fine Zayn…..come on lets go…” I lied while grabbing his arm and pulling him to his car. “What time is it?” I asked once we started to drive off. “It’s four thirty…..why?” he asked curiously.
“Oh great….I only have two hours to decide on what I want to wear for this silly ball tonight,” I muttered to myself. I don’t even know why I agreed to go to this silly event in the first place. Oh right……I just did it so I can annoy Harry.
“Wait you are going to the ball tonight?” Zayn asked in surprised. Oh another thing I forgot…..I told Zayn that I wasn’t going. “Yeah….I guess so,” I answered timidly. I felt bad that I haven’t told Zayn that Tom asked me to go with him.
“I thought you said you are not going. Who are you going with? Who is the guy? It’s can’t be Harry because he is actually going with Alexander so it can’t be him. So who is the guy?” Zayn asked impatiently. I just tried to absorb every word that Zayn just said.
Harry is going with that Alex girl? Oh who am I kidding….of course he is going with her. I mean she is his girlfriend after all. I mean what do I aspect, Harry to ask me to go to the ball with him?
“Ivy….who is the guy?” he asked sternly, like a protective older brother. It’s kind of funny in a way because Zayn is actually younger than I am and we are not even close to related. “Tom….Tom Parson, do you know him?” I asked.
“You are going with that bastard?” he questioned furiously and I gave him a confused look. “Ivy he is one of the biggest jerk at our school and he hangs out with the same group of people Harry hang out with,” Zayn sighed in frustration.
“That’s got to do with me because….”I trailed of. I am not quite sure where Zayn is going with this. I mean yes! I know what Tom is one of Harry’s friends. Wait! Scratch that, I don’ think he is Harry’s friend but they do hang out together which makes me confused. “He is only using you Ivy,” Zayn groaned.
“You know….I don’t actually want to go….I’ve already told you that,” I stated truthfully. “Then why are you going?” he asked while emphasizing the word ‘why.’ I know the real reason why but of course I am not going to tell Zayn.
“I don’t want to be mean….he sounded so nervous when he asked me,” that was partially true. “Are you sure that’s the only reason Ivy?” he questioned once more, but I deiced not to answer it. I turned my head towards the window so that Zayn can’t see my face.
“I guess I have to go as well then,” Zayn said softly which was barely audible but I could hear it clearly. “What? You are going?” I literally screamed with happiness. I was smiling ear to ear. I am not keen to go but if Zayn is going to be there, I am willing to go a bit more. Zayn is just like me in a way but a male version of course and he obviously is not blind either. I am surprise that he is going.
“I am just as surprised as you are,” he chuckled. “I mean I have to keep an eye on my best friend…..I mean she her date is a jerk after all,” he continued. “Hey! I don’t need babysitting,” he punched him playfully. “Oh also….I just don’t want you to be sitting in the corner all by yourself of course,” he laughed but I didn’t. “Ivy….I was only joking you know,” he quickly straighten himself up once he realized that I didn’t event attempt to give a fake smile.
“Zayn….I guess you are right,” I stated sadly with tears starting to form in my eyes. “Hey….I was only joking O.K.….please don’t cry,” he pleaded. I started to laugh like an idiot. Well I guess I look no different from a lunatic at the moment because one minute I was sad and now I am laughing my head off. “Oh goodness…..if only I could see your face at that moment in time,” I said while trying to catch my breath.
“O.k. you got me…” he gave up while chuckling. “I am a good actress aye?” I smiled at him cheekily and he just laughed at me. “I guess you are…..because I would fall for that every day,” he stopped the car.
“So you don’t have anything to wear?” Zayn asked once we reached the front door. “I guess I don’t….my mum….” I choked on my words as I said the word ‘mum’ out loud for the first time in front of Zayn.
“It’s O.K.….I think my mum has something for you to wear,” he guided me inside. “Don’t worry…..my mum is obsessed with having a daughter…..so whenever she sees nice dresses she would always buy it......but I guess since you live with us now…those will probably become yours because no one is wearing it,” he assured me, but it didn’t help.
“Zayn….I don’t think that’s a good idea…..I mean she might have bought it for your girlfriend or her future daughter in-law…..and I am not any of that,” I stated nervously. I mean this family has already done enough for me…..I don’t need any more of their kindness.
“Oh trust me…..my mum literally thinks you are her daughter…..she decorated the guest especially room for you after she know that you were moving in with us,” he chuckled. Wait what? Margret decorated the guest room for me?
“Your mum decorated the guest room for me? I didn’t know and I never even thanked her,” I said guiltily. “She didn’t aspect you to……she just did it just to make you feel a part of this family,” he assured me once more but the guilt is still evidence in my stomach.
“Thank you Zayn…..for everything, your hospitality, for accepting me and most important of all…..your kindness….I could never thanked you enough,” I hugged him as a sign of gratitude.
“Ivy…..you are part of this family now O.K.…. you don’t need to thank me,” he held me tightly and kissed my forehead.
Being in Zayn’s arms made me feel safe and secure in a way like a mother holding her baby. I’ve never felt like this in a while. Reminding me of the same feeling when I was in both of my parents arms when they protected me from the danger of the outside world.
For the rest of the week Harry never came home and he didn’t even bother to try to speak to me at school. Even when I bumped into him in the hallway or something, he just made nasty comment like he used to when I first got here and go on with his life. I just I don’t know whether to be relieved or disappointed. I know that’s what I wanted but it doesn’t feel right. The Harry I am starting to know now has vanished in thin air.
I don’t know if it was all an act. I don’t know whether the Harry I got to know was the real Harry or the fake Harry. I can’t even distinguish what was real and what was not during all the times I’ve spent with him. Was he putting on an act all this time? What can he gain from pretending to be something his not?
“I will be picking you up at six thirty alright Ivy,” Tom stated excitedly while patting me on the back and walked off. I was now brought back to reality because my mind was wondering around a certain arrogant, rude, yet can be sweet and caring male named Harry.
I totally have forgotten about the winter’s ball. It’s haven’t even popped into my mind at all. This is probably the reason why Zayn is late. I am currently waiting for Zayn at the front of the school so that he could drive us home. I don’t know how long I have been standing but my legs were getting tired, so I decided to sit on the ground with my back against the brick wall.
“Ivy wake up,” Zayn muttered. I didn’t realize that I have fallen asleep. I guess it sort of made sense because I haven’t been sleeping properly. The nightmare keeps on returning and sometimes I would deliberately try to avoid sleeping just so I don’t have to relive the memory.
“Ivy I am so sorry for making you wait….we had the student council meeting due to the winter’s ball tonight.” Zayn apologized with guilt clearly evidence in his tone. “No need to apologize Zayn,” I gave him a lazy smile.
“You look like a zombie you know? Have you been getting enough sleep lately?” he chuckled at his first question but his tone harden at the second question. “What a way to make a lady feel better about themselves,” I chuckled trying to ignore his second question.
“Ivy I am being serious….have you been getting enough sleep lately? You are starting to form some dark circles,” Zayn replied worriedly. “I am sleeping fine Zayn…..come on lets go…” I lied while grabbing his arm and pulling him to his car. “What time is it?” I asked once we started to drive off. “It’s four thirty…..why?” he asked curiously.
“Oh great….I only have two hours to decide on what I want to wear for this silly ball tonight,” I muttered to myself. I don’t even know why I agreed to go to this silly event in the first place. Oh right……I just did it so I can annoy Harry.
“Wait you are going to the ball tonight?” Zayn asked in surprised. Oh another thing I forgot…..I told Zayn that I wasn’t going. “Yeah….I guess so,” I answered timidly. I felt bad that I haven’t told Zayn that Tom asked me to go with him.
“I thought you said you are not going. Who are you going with? Who is the guy? It’s can’t be Harry because he is actually going with Alexander so it can’t be him. So who is the guy?” Zayn asked impatiently. I just tried to absorb every word that Zayn just said.
Harry is going with that Alex girl? Oh who am I kidding….of course he is going with her. I mean she is his girlfriend after all. I mean what do I aspect, Harry to ask me to go to the ball with him?
“Ivy….who is the guy?” he asked sternly, like a protective older brother. It’s kind of funny in a way because Zayn is actually younger than I am and we are not even close to related. “Tom….Tom Parson, do you know him?” I asked.
“You are going with that bastard?” he questioned furiously and I gave him a confused look. “Ivy he is one of the biggest jerk at our school and he hangs out with the same group of people Harry hang out with,” Zayn sighed in frustration.
“That’s got to do with me because….”I trailed of. I am not quite sure where Zayn is going with this. I mean yes! I know what Tom is one of Harry’s friends. Wait! Scratch that, I don’ think he is Harry’s friend but they do hang out together which makes me confused. “He is only using you Ivy,” Zayn groaned.
“You know….I don’t actually want to go….I’ve already told you that,” I stated truthfully. “Then why are you going?” he asked while emphasizing the word ‘why.’ I know the real reason why but of course I am not going to tell Zayn.
“I don’t want to be mean….he sounded so nervous when he asked me,” that was partially true. “Are you sure that’s the only reason Ivy?” he questioned once more, but I deiced not to answer it. I turned my head towards the window so that Zayn can’t see my face.
“I guess I have to go as well then,” Zayn said softly which was barely audible but I could hear it clearly. “What? You are going?” I literally screamed with happiness. I was smiling ear to ear. I am not keen to go but if Zayn is going to be there, I am willing to go a bit more. Zayn is just like me in a way but a male version of course and he obviously is not blind either. I am surprise that he is going.
“I am just as surprised as you are,” he chuckled. “I mean I have to keep an eye on my best friend…..I mean she her date is a jerk after all,” he continued. “Hey! I don’t need babysitting,” he punched him playfully. “Oh also….I just don’t want you to be sitting in the corner all by yourself of course,” he laughed but I didn’t. “Ivy….I was only joking you know,” he quickly straighten himself up once he realized that I didn’t event attempt to give a fake smile.
“Zayn….I guess you are right,” I stated sadly with tears starting to form in my eyes. “Hey….I was only joking O.K.….please don’t cry,” he pleaded. I started to laugh like an idiot. Well I guess I look no different from a lunatic at the moment because one minute I was sad and now I am laughing my head off. “Oh goodness…..if only I could see your face at that moment in time,” I said while trying to catch my breath.
“O.k. you got me…” he gave up while chuckling. “I am a good actress aye?” I smiled at him cheekily and he just laughed at me. “I guess you are…..because I would fall for that every day,” he stopped the car.
“So you don’t have anything to wear?” Zayn asked once we reached the front door. “I guess I don’t….my mum….” I choked on my words as I said the word ‘mum’ out loud for the first time in front of Zayn.
“It’s O.K.….I think my mum has something for you to wear,” he guided me inside. “Don’t worry…..my mum is obsessed with having a daughter…..so whenever she sees nice dresses she would always buy it......but I guess since you live with us now…those will probably become yours because no one is wearing it,” he assured me, but it didn’t help.
“Zayn….I don’t think that’s a good idea…..I mean she might have bought it for your girlfriend or her future daughter in-law…..and I am not any of that,” I stated nervously. I mean this family has already done enough for me…..I don’t need any more of their kindness.
“Oh trust me…..my mum literally thinks you are her daughter…..she decorated the guest especially room for you after she know that you were moving in with us,” he chuckled. Wait what? Margret decorated the guest room for me?
“Your mum decorated the guest room for me? I didn’t know and I never even thanked her,” I said guiltily. “She didn’t aspect you to……she just did it just to make you feel a part of this family,” he assured me once more but the guilt is still evidence in my stomach.
“Thank you Zayn…..for everything, your hospitality, for accepting me and most important of all…..your kindness….I could never thanked you enough,” I hugged him as a sign of gratitude.
“Ivy…..you are part of this family now O.K.…. you don’t need to thank me,” he held me tightly and kissed my forehead.
Being in Zayn’s arms made me feel safe and secure in a way like a mother holding her baby. I’ve never felt like this in a while. Reminding me of the same feeling when I was in both of my parents arms when they protected me from the danger of the outside world.
Notes
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