You Are My Eyes (Haven't been edited)
Deja Vu (Chapter 21)
(Ivy’s P.O.V)
“Ivy, how are you feeling?” Zayn asked me as I made my way to the dining table. “I am feeling a lot better now thanks Zayn,” I smiled. I am feeling a lot better thanks to Harry. He was so different yesterday. He acted like the time when he took me away from my aunt when we had a fight. He seems to be so understanding and caring. That side of Harry is something you don’t see every day.
“If you are still not fully well, you can stay home today Ivy,” Margret told me sweetly. “I think I am refreshed enough to survive,” I grinned at her. When I woke up this morning Harry wasn’t sleeping next to me, which was pretty surprising. I didn’t know when I fall a sleep last night, but I am assuming that Harry went back to his bed after I’ve fallen asleep.
“Isn’t Harry having breakfast this morning?” Margret asked. “He left ages ago,” Zayn informed us. “Did he say where he was going?” I questioned with curiosity. Since when did he leave? He is normally not a morning person that’s for sure.
“Yeah as if he will tell me anything,” Zayn chuckled. It’s true, Zayn and Harry don’t get along very well, let’s just say Harry doesn’t get along with a lot of people and especially his own family. “Harry is mean,” Mattie injected which made us all laugh. “Yeah Matthew, he really is mean,” I answered him while still smiling.
“Ready to go?” Zayn asked. “Thanks for breakfast Margret,” I thanked her and followed Zayn to his car. I am happy that Zayn haven’t questioned the relationship between Harry and me. I think he has noticed that something is going on between us, I mean there is something going on between us but I don’t know what it is.
“So what is going on between you and Harry?” Zayn questioned as soon as we were in his car. Just when I thought luck was on my side, I guess luck is never really on my side. “What are you talking about? There is nothing going on between us,” I replied bluntly.
“Well good….just so you know Harry doesn’t do girlfriend and I don’t want him to take advantage of you,” he stated. “I know Zayn…there is nothing going on,” I lied. I know for a fact that something is going on between us and it is not in a friendly way.
But Zayn is right, Harry doesn’t do girlfriends and all he does is take advantage of people. “I didn’t want to offend you Ivy, but as your friend I don’t want to see you hurt because I know what Harry is like,” he told me softly.
“Oh…I am not offended Zayn and I know you are right….thank you for caring,” I thanked him genuinely. Ever since I’ve met Zayn, he has always looked out for me and to be honest he is the closest thing I have to a family at the moment.
“O.k. since we got the Harry problem all cleared out….what is going on with that boy Tom?” he asked seriously. I started to laugh at how Zayn has been acting since we hoped into this car.
“What are you laughing at Ivy? You know I am serious,” he stated sternly but I know for a fact that he is smiling. “You know you sounded like…. my dad,” as the word come out of my mouth, a flood of memory came rushing is my mind.
This is the second time I am having a déjà vu in one since I’ve moved here. My dad and I were having the same conversation, about the same topic and we were driving to school as well.
“Zayn can we not talk about this,” I told him harshly. “Ivy are you alright?” he asked with full concern. “Yeah….” I trailed. I haven’t told anyone about this, well no one really cared about me enough to reach the level where I trust them enough to reveal my secret.
“I am sorry if I offended you before…I didn’t mean to…” he apologized with guilt in his tone. “Zayn…you don’t need to apologized. You haven’t done anything I can assure you,” I forced a smile.
“Where are you going?” Zayn asked as I walked out of his car once we reached the school. “I just need to use the toilet,” I told him without looking back as I made my way to the ladies room. The memory of my parents has enveloped my mind. I couldn’t help but let my emotions overtake me.
Mum and dad, I miss you both so much and I wish you both were still with me. Everything that happened to you was my entire fault and I am sorry. I don’t know if you guys are looking down on me, but if you aren’t it’s understandable because I was the center of all the problem for you both. I guess I deserve the life I am having now. No family, no home and no shoulder to cry on. I am not even worthy enough to receive the caring heart from Zayn, Margret, Kevin, Matthew or even Harry…..
The sound of the bath room door interrupted my internal vent and I could hear the clanking sounds of the high heels. “Do you know what Harry did this morning? He left me hanging,” a girl with a high pitched voice squeal in frustration.
“This is the first time he ever left me hanging, he didn’t pick up my calls last night, he turned me down when I went and see him this morning. I mean what? Am I not good enough for him anymore or something? He used to say that I was his best sex….” the girl groaned.
“Why would he turn you down? You are like the hottest girl in school,” another girl stated. “He told me to finger myself yesterday after our heated make out session all because of that blind girl,” a third girl injected.
“You made out with him? You bitch…don’t you understand girls code Emily,” the high pitched voice yelled. The next sound made me flinched behind the door. I am currently sitting in one of the empty toilet to get control of my emotions.
I can only assume that the high pitched voice girl pushed the Emily girl against the door as I could hear a loud thud and groaned. “You know he is mine….so stay away from him slut,” the high pitched girl screamed and a loud slapping sound echoed through the bathroom.
“You are not listening to me Alex,” Emily spat. “Just because you are a senior…it doesn’t mean you can push me around….didn’t you hear? I said he stopped making out with me and told me to finger myself all because he saw that blind girl,” her words made me stiffened.
“What are you saying bitch? Just because you have an excuse it doesn’t mean I forgive you,” the high pitched girl, now known as Alex said. “Urrrggg….I swear you are dumb sometimes….he left you hanging because of that BLIND GIRL,” Emily practically yelled.
Now….I don’t exactly know how to react. My mind is about to explode. He left Alex and this Emily girl hanging because of me? Why? I mean I am happy that he did. Does he have some sort of feeling towards me? Does he feel that warmth when I am near him like he is to me?
“That blind mutant….if I see her go near him again she will pay,” Alex stated angrily. “She is so ugly and let’s not forget she is blind too….I mean what does harry see in her?” she groaned. “Maybe….he only wants to toy with her since she is new and all. After he has taken what he wanted, he will be over her in no time,” the girl that I don’t know the name said.
Her words hit me like a rock. Is Harry only treating me nicely lately because he wanted to take advantage of me? Zayn also said the same thing and this unknown girl is stating that again. Do I look like an easy person to take to bed or something? I am aware that everything I wear is all covered up.
“Toy or not….he has never left me hanging for anyone…I mean anyone….if I see that freak go near him or even looked in his direction….I will make her life a living hell,” she screeched.
“What is mine will always be mine.”
“Ivy, how are you feeling?” Zayn asked me as I made my way to the dining table. “I am feeling a lot better now thanks Zayn,” I smiled. I am feeling a lot better thanks to Harry. He was so different yesterday. He acted like the time when he took me away from my aunt when we had a fight. He seems to be so understanding and caring. That side of Harry is something you don’t see every day.
“If you are still not fully well, you can stay home today Ivy,” Margret told me sweetly. “I think I am refreshed enough to survive,” I grinned at her. When I woke up this morning Harry wasn’t sleeping next to me, which was pretty surprising. I didn’t know when I fall a sleep last night, but I am assuming that Harry went back to his bed after I’ve fallen asleep.
“Isn’t Harry having breakfast this morning?” Margret asked. “He left ages ago,” Zayn informed us. “Did he say where he was going?” I questioned with curiosity. Since when did he leave? He is normally not a morning person that’s for sure.
“Yeah as if he will tell me anything,” Zayn chuckled. It’s true, Zayn and Harry don’t get along very well, let’s just say Harry doesn’t get along with a lot of people and especially his own family. “Harry is mean,” Mattie injected which made us all laugh. “Yeah Matthew, he really is mean,” I answered him while still smiling.
“Ready to go?” Zayn asked. “Thanks for breakfast Margret,” I thanked her and followed Zayn to his car. I am happy that Zayn haven’t questioned the relationship between Harry and me. I think he has noticed that something is going on between us, I mean there is something going on between us but I don’t know what it is.
“So what is going on between you and Harry?” Zayn questioned as soon as we were in his car. Just when I thought luck was on my side, I guess luck is never really on my side. “What are you talking about? There is nothing going on between us,” I replied bluntly.
“Well good….just so you know Harry doesn’t do girlfriend and I don’t want him to take advantage of you,” he stated. “I know Zayn…there is nothing going on,” I lied. I know for a fact that something is going on between us and it is not in a friendly way.
But Zayn is right, Harry doesn’t do girlfriends and all he does is take advantage of people. “I didn’t want to offend you Ivy, but as your friend I don’t want to see you hurt because I know what Harry is like,” he told me softly.
“Oh…I am not offended Zayn and I know you are right….thank you for caring,” I thanked him genuinely. Ever since I’ve met Zayn, he has always looked out for me and to be honest he is the closest thing I have to a family at the moment.
“O.k. since we got the Harry problem all cleared out….what is going on with that boy Tom?” he asked seriously. I started to laugh at how Zayn has been acting since we hoped into this car.
“What are you laughing at Ivy? You know I am serious,” he stated sternly but I know for a fact that he is smiling. “You know you sounded like…. my dad,” as the word come out of my mouth, a flood of memory came rushing is my mind.
This is the second time I am having a déjà vu in one since I’ve moved here. My dad and I were having the same conversation, about the same topic and we were driving to school as well.
“Zayn can we not talk about this,” I told him harshly. “Ivy are you alright?” he asked with full concern. “Yeah….” I trailed. I haven’t told anyone about this, well no one really cared about me enough to reach the level where I trust them enough to reveal my secret.
“I am sorry if I offended you before…I didn’t mean to…” he apologized with guilt in his tone. “Zayn…you don’t need to apologized. You haven’t done anything I can assure you,” I forced a smile.
“Where are you going?” Zayn asked as I walked out of his car once we reached the school. “I just need to use the toilet,” I told him without looking back as I made my way to the ladies room. The memory of my parents has enveloped my mind. I couldn’t help but let my emotions overtake me.
Mum and dad, I miss you both so much and I wish you both were still with me. Everything that happened to you was my entire fault and I am sorry. I don’t know if you guys are looking down on me, but if you aren’t it’s understandable because I was the center of all the problem for you both. I guess I deserve the life I am having now. No family, no home and no shoulder to cry on. I am not even worthy enough to receive the caring heart from Zayn, Margret, Kevin, Matthew or even Harry…..
The sound of the bath room door interrupted my internal vent and I could hear the clanking sounds of the high heels. “Do you know what Harry did this morning? He left me hanging,” a girl with a high pitched voice squeal in frustration.
“This is the first time he ever left me hanging, he didn’t pick up my calls last night, he turned me down when I went and see him this morning. I mean what? Am I not good enough for him anymore or something? He used to say that I was his best sex….” the girl groaned.
“Why would he turn you down? You are like the hottest girl in school,” another girl stated. “He told me to finger myself yesterday after our heated make out session all because of that blind girl,” a third girl injected.
“You made out with him? You bitch…don’t you understand girls code Emily,” the high pitched voice yelled. The next sound made me flinched behind the door. I am currently sitting in one of the empty toilet to get control of my emotions.
I can only assume that the high pitched voice girl pushed the Emily girl against the door as I could hear a loud thud and groaned. “You know he is mine….so stay away from him slut,” the high pitched girl screamed and a loud slapping sound echoed through the bathroom.
“You are not listening to me Alex,” Emily spat. “Just because you are a senior…it doesn’t mean you can push me around….didn’t you hear? I said he stopped making out with me and told me to finger myself all because he saw that blind girl,” her words made me stiffened.
“What are you saying bitch? Just because you have an excuse it doesn’t mean I forgive you,” the high pitched girl, now known as Alex said. “Urrrggg….I swear you are dumb sometimes….he left you hanging because of that BLIND GIRL,” Emily practically yelled.
Now….I don’t exactly know how to react. My mind is about to explode. He left Alex and this Emily girl hanging because of me? Why? I mean I am happy that he did. Does he have some sort of feeling towards me? Does he feel that warmth when I am near him like he is to me?
“That blind mutant….if I see her go near him again she will pay,” Alex stated angrily. “She is so ugly and let’s not forget she is blind too….I mean what does harry see in her?” she groaned. “Maybe….he only wants to toy with her since she is new and all. After he has taken what he wanted, he will be over her in no time,” the girl that I don’t know the name said.
Her words hit me like a rock. Is Harry only treating me nicely lately because he wanted to take advantage of me? Zayn also said the same thing and this unknown girl is stating that again. Do I look like an easy person to take to bed or something? I am aware that everything I wear is all covered up.
“Toy or not….he has never left me hanging for anyone…I mean anyone….if I see that freak go near him or even looked in his direction….I will make her life a living hell,” she screeched.
“What is mine will always be mine.”
Notes
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6/20/16