No Control

We are all at a party for some friends who recently had a baby. The baby is sleeping so were all visiting, waiting for the little sweetheart to wake up. The new mom is telling me all about her experience and I have to admit I feel a little twinge. Was that my maternal instincts knocking?
Liam comes up behind me and wraps his arm around my waist. “Hello, beautiful.” He says as he kisses my forehead. “Hello, handsome.” I reply.
“You two are so adorable.” The new mom tells us. We just smile as she heads off to check on the baby.
Liam rubs my nose with his and says. “You are so adorable.”
I laugh and tell him. “Well you are more adorable.”
He grins. “No you are.” We both laugh and he wraps me in his arms, leaving a sweet kiss on the top of my head.
The baby is awake and makes his first appearance. He is so sweet. His mom waves me over and hands him to me. There is nothing quite like holding a baby in your arms. I look back at Liam. He smiles, but something seems off. I return my attention to the baby. I’m talking to him and he’s holding my finger in his tiny hand. So sweet. I look up but I can’t find Liam.
Caroline watches Liam head out to the backyard. He looks upset so she follows him.
“Are you alright Liam?” Caroline asks him. Liam turns to face her. “I’m fine.” He says. Caroline frowns at him. “Liam?”
Liam sighs. “I don’t know Caroline. Just seeing Liz holding that baby.”
“What is it Liam?” Caroline pushes.
“When I saw Liz holding the baby, I just felt so many emotions, it threw me.” Liam tells her.
“What kind of emotions?” She asks.
Liam sighs. “All of them. A little fear. A lot of happiness and love. Some yearning. I could imagine that being our baby she was holding.”
Caroline smiles and puts her hand on Liam’s shoulder. “Well my friend, that is just God giving you a shove to let you know, that’s who you should be with.”
Liam relaxes and smiles. “Thank you, Caroline.”
I look up and see Liam and Caroline coming in from outside. The baby and I make our way over to them. Caroline talks to the baby, then heads off. I look up at Liam. “Is everything ok? I didn’t know where you went?” I ask him concerned.
He smiles and gives the baby his finger to hold. “Everything is perfect now. I just needed some fresh air.” Liam pauses to kiss me. “I love you, Liz.”
I smile. “I love you too, Liam.”
I look into his loving eyes and then down at this sweet baby. I can’t help but imagine having a family with Liam.

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