No Control

The next morning after breakfast we head back into the town to visit a park we saw yesterday. Liam and I stroll through the park, noticing all the beautiful flowers and scenery. As we stop to admire some particularly pretty red flowers, Liam takes my hand. He brings it to his lips and kisses it before continuing to hold it as we walk. I don’t know what it is, but when Liam holds my hand or puts his arm around me, I feel peaceful. Like that’s how it’s meant to be.
We stop and sit on a bench for a bit. There’s an adorable old couple sitting on the next bench over. They must be in their eighties. They sweetly hold hands and kiss. I smile at the obvious love between them.
“I want to have that.” I tell Liam.
“You will love. I promise.” Liam tells me as he winks.
I look up at him, wondering how he could possibly promise me that. Then he places a kiss on my forehead. I smile, remembering that all that matters is right now.
We head over to the lake next. As we get closer I see a statue and I stop to read the plaque. It takes me a moment to realize Liam is no longer beside me. I turn to see him closer to the lake, helping a little italian girl feed the ducks. Her mom is standing a couple feet away but the little girl has asked Liam to help her. She looks to be maybe three years old. And appears to speak enough english that they can communicate. I watch as he protectively keeps her from getting too close to the lake. She says something that has him laughing. Oh my goodness, he’s so adorable with children. Somewhere inside me I feel a twinge, just thinking of what a great father he will be. Sweet, patient, protective, and loving. I feel that everpresent fullness in my heart. What on earth has happened to me? I was the girl that had been so hurt by love that she didn’t want commitment. Just great sex. I am a mess.
I look back at Liam and the little girl to see that they are now playing catch with a ball. Liam looks over and yells to me. “Come play with us love.”
I smile and make my way over. Liam introduces me to his friend. She is so cute. When she’s done playing catch with us, she takes my hand and leads me over to show me some wildflowers. I know a little italian so we talk about how pretty the flowers are. I look back over at Liam and he has this amazing look on his face as he watches us. I wonder if it’s the same look I had on mine earlier watching him. I smile at him and wink.
The little girl and her mom have to go. We tell them goodbye.
After they leave, Liam puts his arms around me and slides his hands into the back pockets of my jeans. I put mine around his neck.
Liam leans in to kiss me. Sweet amazing kisses. “I didn’t think it could be possible, but I want you more than ever.” Liam tells me in a quiet husky voice.
I look up into his eyes. “Take me home Liam, and show me just how much.”

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