No Control

Liam and I lie in bed for awhile before we get ready to go on our walk. It’s so amazing outside. Everywhere you turn is a flawless view. Liam takes my hand and we head out to explore at least some of the many acres of property. The property even has it’s own 19th century English park with a Palladian temple. We make our way there and take our time strolling through the park. Liam takes so many pictures. Of the beautiful landscape, of me, and of us together. We walk in silence for a bit in this peaceful setting. I look over at Liam, he looks deep in thought, every so often he squeezes my hand. I’m not even sure if he’s aware he’s doing it. I wrestle with my own thoughts and feelings. Ever since we’ve arrived here my feelings have had the audacity to keep popping up, when I’ve done so well at keeping them buried. Each time I look at Liam I feel like my heart does a flip. I refuse to deal with this right now. I’m in this beautiful location with this amazing man and I’m going to relax and enjoy this time light heartedly. I’m sure these feelings will be here to deal with later.
I decide it’s time to lighten the mood. I tell Liam. “Let’s have a race.”
He looks a bit surprised but smiles and agrees.
“We’ll race to those olive trees over there. Here’s the starting line.” I point to the ground. I tell Liam to count to three and then we’ll go, but as he starts counting I push him back and start running without him.
I hear him laugh and I’m sure with his long legs it won’t take him long to catch up to me. I feel his hands on my waist and we are falling to the ground. He makes sure that I am on top of him when we hit the ground though so he takes the brunt of the fall. I make sure he’s alright and after he assures me he is, I kiss him.
He smiles and rolls so that I am laying on the grass and he is lying beside me facing me, up leaning on his elbow. He looks at me for a moment before saying anything.
“Sometimes, it takes my breath away just how beautiful you are.” Liam says so sweetly.
I can’t look away from his stunning eyes. “You take my breath away quite often too Liam.”
He leans down and kisses me. We lie there kissing in that beautiful setting for awhile before we start our walk back to the house.

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