Rachel’s P.O.V.
We are walking through the hotel casino, and I feel as though time stands still. Usually the sounds of the slot machines and all the other commotion going on in here is deafening, but I don’t hear a thing tonight. I focus on my breath as it rises and falls, my breathing seems shallow and my nerves are threw the roof. I try to pull myself together as I notice Niall looking at me. He smiles small but I see a hint of concern on his face, it scares me. I shouldn’t be this nervous, I mean I have already spent the night with him.
I can’t help but laugh. “What are you laughing at babe?” Niall questions me. “I was just inside my head with my thoughts.” He looks at me confused but chuckles, his laugh is perfect.
We continue walking, until he leads me into an elevator. The doors close and we are alone behind them. Nervously I look down at my hands, I hear a small laugh and look up. Niall is clearly amused. “You are so adorable when you are nervous.” I look up and his eyes meet mine and instantly my eyes fall back to the ground. “I wish you would let me look at you.” He says a little frustrated.
“I am sorry.” I respond quickly. “I am just really nervous, I have never been on an actual date before.” I admit to him. When I look up his eyes are large, he clearly looks stunned. “No one has ever asked me on a formal date before, only to hang out or chill (which means something completely different).” Embarrassed I speak at the ground. I feel his hand embrace my cheek as he pulls my face up, so he is looking directly into my eyes. “Why didn’t you tell me you had never been on a date before?” He asks his eyes intently set on mine. Tears well up in my eyes, “I didn’t want you to know, I wish I cold redo it all.” I try to pull away, but he tightens his grip on me. Breathing is getting harder for me.

“I don’t care about your past.” He says sternly, as he forces eye contact between us. I know he means well but it is all suffocating. “You have to care, my past has turned me into who I am now.” I quietly say, but it feels as though I screamed it at him. He can see how upset I am, and he pulls me into his chest. “Everyone makes mistakes, it is how we learn; I only want to know who you are. Your mistakes do not define you.” He speaks into my neck as he embraces me. I look up to see his sad eyes.

The elevator door opens and we step out. I regret that I have let myself get so emotional. I don’t want to look at Niall I feel like such an idiot, I am with the most adorable boy, and still I manage to let my doubts and insecurities get in my way. I am so mad at myself. I wish I could find the confident girl that I saw less than an hour ago.
Niall looks at me, and smiles slightly trying to assure me that my emotional outburst has not ruined our night. I don’t want to let it, but the thoughts they never leave. I can’t help but replay every bad decision I have ever made, any time I have ever felt pain it all crowds my brain.
To top off my emotional state, I can’t stop thinking about how Louis defended me against Liam. Granted I never want to get in the middle of their friendship, but it was so sweet. He protected me when I felt vulnerable. He has been so silly and fun, but his protective side, that is something I will never forget. I can tell that me and Louis will become close friends. I feel like I can tell him anything and he wouldn’t judge me, of course I won’t though. I have too much to loose and I refuse to burden him with the darkness that is my mind.
Niall’s P.O.V.
The date hasn't even started yet and everything is falling apart. I am not sure what to do, I feel this strong connection to her but it is like no matter what I do the broken girl underneath her skin won’t let her feel happiness. I don’t know what I am supposed to do. I feel frustrated, but I won’t let her see that. Why can’t she see how perfect she is? I wish she could see herself through my eyes. I look over at her, she looks small and insecure, but I can see the beauty underneath that; I see it behind her eyes.
I walk forward leading the way. Shockingly I am actually really nervous. I haven’t felt this in a very long time, it feels terrible and amazing all at once. I take her hand in mine, as we walk down the hall. At the end is another door that will take us out unto the roof. As we near the door, I can’t help but stop. I grab Rachel, and I pull her close. As I do so I reverse our positions, so that she is pressed up against the door and my body is pressed tightly into hers.
I look down at her, I can feel her breath on my lips. Her heart races through her body, I can feel it as I place my hand on her chest. Every breath she takes becomes shorter. I can’t help but smile. I teasingly grin at her as I press my lips onto hers. She doesn’t resist me, her lips melt into mine.

As I pull away, she playfully glares at me and laughs. I can’t hide the amusement as I smile uncontrollably. I could tell by her reaction that she wasn’t ready to stop, but I was only teasing so I could get her to focus on something other than the thoughts going on in her head. If I do say so myself it totally worked. I mean I want more, but I don’t want to push her until I know she is ready. The last thing I want is to rush all of this, then she may regret being with me. I want to do this right. I pull her into my chest and hug her tightly I can feel her smile into my neck. Once I release her I look down at her and kiss her nose, then Proceed to open the door. I think to myself this is it, as we step though the door and out onto the roof.

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