Falling… for real this time

"Gabby I'm leaving" Jess yelled to me from the front door. She was on her way to hang out with the boys and it.

"Okay bye" I yelled back to her.

"Are you sure you don't wanna come, I think they really like you" she asked for the millionth time today.

"Jess I'm 100% sure I don't want to go" I told her and rolled my eyes even though she couldn't see me.

"I think you should come" she said walking into the living room, where I was.

"Jess I'm not coming, I'm not giving in like I did last night" I told her.

"Why not" she whined.

"Because I don't want to, why don't you ever respect that I always don't want to do stuff you do" I asked her harshly.

She looked down.

"I-I'm sor-"

"It's fine, you're right" she said looking up into my eyes. There's was a hint of sadness behind them and it made me feel worse than I did before. The room fell silent. It felt so weird, if Jess I were together it was never quiet.

"I should probably get going" she said breaking the silence.

"Okay. I love you" I told her.

"I love you too" she said giving me a weak smile then walked out the living room. I soon heard the front door close.

***
It's been an hour since Jess left. I'm so bored and tired even though I took a nap almost right after she left.

"Ugh I'm so bored" I groaned loudly. I should've left with Jess. Being with Taylor would've been better than sitting at this house by myself. Plus I missed Harry.

Look at me, hasn't even been twenty-four hours since the last time I saw him. He's probably kissing all over Taylor. I wonder if his lips fit perfect with hers like they did with mine.

The thought alone made me nauseous. I wish all that shit was real. Even the part when I found out he cheated on me with her. At least he'd still be mine.

Okay, I'm not sitting here alone with nothing to do. I could watch tv but that lost my interest five minutes after Jess left.

I stood up from my bed and walked down the stairs. I'm not changing my clothes or putting any makeup on because come on, who the fuck am I trying to impress.

I slipped Jess' shoes on again. I don't know why, but I always wear these shoes. Jess and I both find it strange because I have my own pair, and mine are in way better shape than hers. But I actually like the light stains of dirt that cover most of the two shoes.

That's how I am with shoes. I get new shoes and I will stop at nothing to get them to look like I've owned them for at least a few months and they were the only shoes I wore in that period of time.

When I first told Jess about my destroying new shoes "obsession" she laughed and always teased me about it. When she noticed a person with new shoes, or when she got a new pair she would always say, "Gabby look at those shoes, they look so new. They disgust me. You should really teach the owner how to make shoes look good after they buy them." I would always laugh at her and she would laugh with me.

But as the years went on she stopped teasing me about. I didn't like the change, but I never told her. Every time I noticed a pair of new shoes I would point them out to her and ask her if she liked them. Like a normal person would, she answered with a yes or no, clearly not noticing that I wanted her to say it. It kinda felt like a family ritual had been taken away from me. But let's get back to reality.

After I put the shoes on my feet I grab my car/house keys off the hook thing. I opened the door and walked out. I shut the door then headed to my car. I got in and drove off.

Since I was so tired I decided that I should go to Starbucks, then maybe I'd have the energy to do something else.

I turned the radio on as I drove to Starbucks. Big mistake.

Right when I turned the radio on Little Things was on and it was already at Harry's solo. I listened as his voice came through the speakers and into my ears.

I could feel the tears pricking my eyes. I bit the inside of my cheek, hoping it'd help me keep the tears in. I also blinked so many times, hoping that'd help me too. Through Niall's solo I did the same thing. I only did that because in the coma dream Harry told me he loved singing that part to me.

I'm a super insecure person. People always tell me how pretty I am now, but instead of feeling happy that someone thinks I look good, it's always the opposite. I always want to tell them that I'm not and that they don't need to lie to me, but I refrain from doing so just so it doesn't seem like I'm being rude.

As you know, in high school I was not the most popular kid in school, complete opposite from that. All those years of bullying really had a toll on how I felt and feel about myself. To be honest I don't know if I'll ever love myself the way I thought Harry did.

I pulled into Starbucks. I looked around for a parking spot until I finally found one. This one wasn't as close as I usually get but I'll survive with the extra few steps.

I made my way to the doors. Once I walked in the smell of coffee filled my nose. I walked over to the counter and ordered my drink.

I stood over where I would pick my drink up. I looked around the coffee shop. It was quite big for a Starbucks. I looked at the people. There were many of them so I guess the size of the building fits with the number of people that come here.

"Grande Carmel Frappuccino" a guy called out my order. I grabbed the drink and said a small thank you. He smiled then went to go make the next drink.

I took my phone out my pocket and started walking to the exit. I looked at the screen and saw I had a text from my mom. I opened and looked at it.

From: BirthGiver❤️
I was wondering if you and Jessi bear wanted to come over for dinner

The text read.

I was going to answer but then I bumped into someone. Making me drop my phone and my drink. The drink fell right onto my phone. My phone was definitely broken now.

"Oh my gosh I am so sorry" I heard a familiar voice apologize. I looked up and my eyes locked with emerald green ones. "Gabby" he said confused.

"Harry" I said. "You asshole you broke my phone" I said picking it up off the ground.

"We don't know for sure it's broken" he said trying to make things sound like everything was okay.

"Then how do you explain this" I showed him the now cracked screen.

"That doesn't mean it doesn't work" he said.

I pressed the power button and the phone didn't turn on. The screen stayed black.

"Okay yeah it's broken" he chuckled.

"This isn't funny Harry" I pouted.

"Aw I'm sorry babe" he said. I smiled a little by his words. "Okay here's what I'll do, I'll buy you another drink, then we can go get you a new phone. Deal?" He offered.

"Harry I'm not letting you buy me a new phone" I told him. I know he has the money to buy me a billion phones but I don't want him to spend money on me.

"Why not, I broke yours" he asked as if he were upset I didn't accept his offer.

"Because I don't want you to spend money on a phone for me" I answered.

"Babe, I have enough money to buy you a billion phones and still have thousands of dollars left, I don't think spending five hundred to six hundred dollars will hurt me" he told me.

"Six hundred dollars! What kind of phone are you trying to buy me" I asked him.

"iPhone 5s" he answered. "Your iPhone 4 just isn't doing it anymore babe" he told me chuckling.

"It was 4s actually" I corrected him.

"Oh I'm sorry I forgot about Siri" he rolled his eyes playfully.

"Yes, she's very important, you can't forget about her" I told him chuckling.

He took his phone out and held the home button down. I heard the beeping noise that sounded before Siri came on.

"I'm sorry I forgot about you" he said to his phone.

"Oh my gosh you're so stupid" I laughed at him. He laughed with me and put his phone back into his pocket.

After he calmed his laughter down he said, "it's not nice to call people stupid." He tried to make his face look serious, but he failed miserably at it.

"I know, I'm sorry Harry" I apologized trying to keep a straight face too. I didn't but I know for a fact I did a better job than Harry did.

"You're forgiven" he smiled, his dimples indenting his cheeks.

"Good, I don't know how I would ever live with myself knowing Harry Styles was upset with me" I said jokingly.

"I know because I'm just that cool" he chuckled. I just rolled my eyes at him. "Now come on let me buy you another drink and buy you a new phone" he said.

I thought about it, "fine" I sighed giving in.

"Thank you" he smiled.

Notes

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