Eleanor POV


The rest of the day was lovely. We did a mess of things, never finishing anything we started. When lunch time rolled around, Perrie made sure I finish. Then deciding she still wasn’t satisfied we went out for ice cream. And who am I to turn down ice cream? The day ended all too quickly and before I knew it me and Louis were alone in our bedroom again.
I was sitting on my bed playing a game on my phone when Louis sat down next to me. I got the sinking in my stomach again as I realized something. Louis' going to want to talk now. And after today there's no way I'm getting out of it. Unless, maybe he doesn't want to. Maybe he doesn't care anymore.
"Eleanor," damn, I knew it. And full name is never good.
"Yes?" I asked. I knew exactly where he was going, but I was open to any chance to push it off.
"Babe you know we're going to have to talk about this sooner or later," he says sighing.
"Later sounds good." I say kidding. Well, only kind of. He smirked but didn't let it go.
"Eleanor, I can't leave you like this to go on tour. I need to know you're okay." He says looking at me.
"Perrie and Sophia will be here." I pointed out.
"Please talk to me." He said grabbing my hand. I sighed.
"I didn't always. I tried Lou, I really did. But I can't escape me. I broke when I got that." I said pointing to the box under my nightstand. He slowly stands up picking up the box and sitting back in his original spot. He looked at it confused.
"Fan mail?" He asked.
"I don't know what I'd call it fan mail." I said. He picked up the note and read it, then stopped and look at what was inside. I had left everything just as I had gotten it. I hadn't even used to card, or eaten the candy. I didn't want anything from that girl. Not to mention the candy was probably drugged.
"Eleanor I don't see how this made you-" he stopped when he read what was on the carrot. "What?" He asked allowed then picked up the book. He open up and few pages before quickly shutting it. "Now that's just nasty." He said tossing the book. I laughed slightly but I knew there were tears pooling in my eyes. I quickly wiped away one that escaped. He looked at the note again and his eyes widened.
"This is where you got the blades?" He asks looking at the bottom. Another hot tear rolled down my cheek.
"Why didn't you tell me?" He whispered.
"It's not easy to." I said trying to catch my breath."Louis I'm ugly, useless, I'm too fat I'm nothing special, I'm -"
"Eleanor you don't actually believe that do you?" He asked.
"I-I." I Stuttered.
"Eleanor babe," he wraps his arms around me and I fall apart for the hundredth time. He just holds me.
"Eleanor." He says tilting up my chin so I'm looking into his deep blue eyes. "Eleanor Jane Calder I can't explain in words how much you mean to me. You're more than beautiful you're absolutely stunning. You're not fat in the least. I hate it when you think you are. You're more special than you will ever know. Their words can change that. I love you so so much." He says bringing his lips to mine. I felt my heart nearly beating out of my chest.
I may never love who I am. But Louis does. I'm enough for him. He couldn't make that up on the spot if he didn't. I can't keep doing this. For him. I have to stop. Just for now. The last thing I remember is mumbling,
"I love you too." Before falling asleep in his arms.

Notes

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