Finding her

JOSLYNS POV
it was probably 12 in the morning and Michael and I were sitting on the couch watching attack on Titan.( if you don't know it's an anemia it's amazing.) " Michael I'm so tired do you wanna go to bed." I said. " sure." He turned off the tv and went to the kitchen to set the alarm when my stomach started to hurt really bad. I ran to the bathroom and threw up. Michael ran in and pulled back my hair. He picked me up and carried me upstairs. " I love you." I said. " I love you too." He said and set me on the bed and pulled the covers over me. He got in bed, turned off the light, and wrapped his arms around me. " jos?" " hmm," " I forgot to tell you but the tour starts tomorrow." Michael sad in a sad tone. " oh. It's ok ill be fine just plz call me everyday ok?" " I promise and I will miss you so much. Ill be back in a 2 months for 2 weeks ok?" He kissed my forehead. " ok." It really hurt me when he left but I trust him. He wouldn't risk it again would he? I love him and I know he loves me too. I closed my eyes and fell asleep.

THE NEXT MORNING
I woke up and Michael wasn't in bed. So I got up and walked downstairs and instantly smelt pizza. " morning." Michael said and put his arms around me and brought me into a kiss. " what time do you leave?" I said setting my head on michaels chest. " 3 so we have 5 hours. What do you wanna do?" Michael said. " to be with you." I hid my face in his chest and wrapped his arms even tighter around us. I'm going to miss his presence and him being near me. " then lets stay home and spend the rest of the day with eachother." Michael set me on the counter and handed me a piece of pizza. " I hear calum and Chloe are getting pretty serious." Michael said breaking the silence. " ya she really likes him. Keep him out of trouble plz for his sack and hers." I said laughing. " of course I wouldn't want him to have to loose his girl for a couple years like I did." When he said my girl my heart hurt because he would be so far away soon.

" Let's watch the titanic!" I said. " alright." Michael said And grabbed tissues, a tub of ice cream and a blanket for us. I put in the movie as he sat on the couch. I sat on the couch as the movie started. Michael handed me a spoon andi put the blanket over our laps.


It was the part when rose was holding jacks hand and he was dead. I was crying and I'm pretty sure Michael was but he was acting like he wasn't. He put his arm around me and kissed my forehead.

I was helping Michael pack up his stuff for the tour. He had gone to the bathroom so I went on his phone and took a photo of myself and made a caption on it that said," I love you baby ill miss you don't forget about me!" I went on his photos and he had photos of us and pics of me when I had left from videos and stuff like that. I put his phone back down and grabbed one of my necklaces and put it in his bag. Michael came back out and looked sad," the guys are picking me up in about 10 minutes." Before I could say anything Michael picked me up and pressed me against the wall. He pressed his lips against mine and I did the same.

He carried me over to the bed and layed on top of me while we were kissing me. I put my fingers in his hair. About 10 minutes later Luke walked in," hey mike- woah sorry." He quickly closed the door. Michael and I quickly got up," you can uh come in," I said.

Luke Ashton and calum walked in," ya done snogging?" Ashton said laughing. " you should knock next time." Michael said laughing, " well we need to go." Calum sAid sadly, " I'll miss you guys." I said as we walked downstairs. Michael put his stuff on the bus and I hugged all the guys good bye.

Michael and I kissed one last time," i love you bye jos ill miss you." Michael said getting on the bus. " I love you too by Mikey." He waved as the bus drove down the street and I went inside.

once I got inside I broke down crying. I can't wait 2 freaking months that's so long away. My tour doesn't start until October which is like 5 months away. I went upstairs and grabbed one of Michaels flannels and put if on. I got a text," hey baby I'm getting on the plane rn I miss you so much. Ill call you when I land love you bye." Michael texted me. I felt like my heart was breaking. " I love you to have a safe flight bye."

I missed my period so I bought some pregnancy tests last week but I never used one. I did 3 and waited for my results. They were all positive.

great Michael is gone but I have a great suprise for him when he come back.

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