Social Casualty

*Luke*
2010

Pain, fear, love, hate, happiness, sadness. So many emotions. We don’t know how to process them. Pain, something that no one wants to go through. It cuts deep. Fear, something that no one wants to see. It pierces the mind. Love, something that no one wants to be hurt from. It opens your heart. Hate, something that no one wants to have too much of. It’s coldhearted. Happiness, something that no one wants to live without. It clears your mind. Sadness, something that no one wants. It’s depressing.
I stare out the window of the train and just think. I don’t know where I’m going, or why. I just need to get away from the clutter of the world surrounding me. No one knows that I’m gone. Reign and everyone else is at school. I ditched and called in sick. Yes, I’m “sick”.

*Ashton*

“Where’s Luke?” I say, walking up behind Reign, Michael, Calum, Amber, Addy, and Hayley.
“We haven’t seen him all day,” Calum says. I nod.
“It’s kind of weird,” Reign says.
“Yeah, Luke’s never absent,” Addy says.
“He’s only been absent like once and it was for a doctor’s appointment,” Michael says.
“Did you try calling him?” Hayley says.
“I tried once, but he didn’t answer,” Amber says.
“I’ll try again,” I say. I pull out my phone and dial Luke’s number. Surprisingly, he picks up after the first ring.
“Hey,” he says.
“Where are you?” I ask, worried.
“I don’t know, Ash,” he says. “I’m on a train right now.”
“He’s on a train,” I say to the group. They look at me like I’m crazy. I just shake my head.
“Why?” I ask.
“I just felt like I needed to get away from life for a while.”
“Okay, but you need to come home tonight,” I say.
“Okay, I will,” Luke says, and hangs up.
I stare at the group in shock. “He needs help. He said he needs to get away from life,” I say.
“What, is he suicidal?” Michael says.
We all just look at each other.
“Okay, well I need to get to class,” I say. “C’mon, Reign.” Reign and I are in the same music class.
We walk in and the teacher tells us that we need to find a partner. We will be singing a duet in front of the class today. We have very little time to prepare. Reign and I decide to be partners.
“Would you like to perform today?” Ms. Reynolds asks us.
“Um, sure,” I say. She nods and walks away.
“What are we going to sing?” Reign says, freaking out.
“How about,” I stop and think. “We could change the song, Amnesia(A/N- 5SOS was not a band at this point in the story so let’s pretend that someone else wrote this song) into a duet.” Reign nods and we practice. Then, we walk up to the front of class and perform.

[Ashton]
I drove by all the places you used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss
How it felt
The way you tasted

[Reign]
And even though your friends tell me you’re doing fine,
Are you somewhere feeling lonely, even though she’s right beside you?
When she says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?
Sometimes I start to wonder,
Was it just a lie?

[Both]
If what we had was real,
How could you be fine?
Cause I’m not fine at all

(A/N- Ashton and Reign sing different parts for the chorus so I’m going to put the original lyrics and the different parts that Reign is singing will be in parentheses)

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the making running down your face (I remember the makeup running down my face)
And the dreams you left behind, you didn’t need them
Like every single wish we ever made

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

Cause I’m not fine at all

[Ashton]
The pictures that you sent me,
They’re still living in my phone
I’ll admit I like to see them
I’ll admit I feel alone
[Reign]
And all my friends keep asking why I’m not around
It hurts to know you’re happy
Yeah, it hurts that you moved on
It’s hard to hear your name when I haven’t seen you in so long
It’s like we never happened
Was it just a lie?

[Both]
If what we had was real,
How could you be fine?
Cause I’m not fine at all

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the making running down your face (I remember the makeup running down my face)
And the dreams you left behind, you didn’t need them
Like every single wish we ever made

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

[Ashton]
If I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream,
I’d hold you closer than I ever did before
And you’d never slip away
And you’d never hear me say

[Both]
I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the making running down your face (I remember the makeup running down my face)
And the dreams you left behind, you didn’t need them
Like every single wish we ever made

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

Cause I’m not fine at all


[Ashton]
No, I’m really not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream

[Both]
Cause I’m not fine at all

I sit with my eyes closed as the class erupts into applause. I love that song. It’s just really deep. It understands me. That’s strange but it does.
“You did amazing!” Ms. Reynolds says enthusiastically. I guess that means we got an A+. The class is already over and we walk out. I see Calum and walk over to him. I walk silently behind him, with Reign following. I grab his shoulders and watch as he jumps. I laugh.
“That was not funny!” Cal yells.
“Sorry, but it was,” I say, still laughing.
“Whatever,” he says, smiling. “Let’s get out of here though.” We walk out of the school and wait for Addy, Amber, Hayley, and Michael to come. Eventually they come and we leave.

Notes

Sorry that I haven't posted in FOREVER!!!! So, I'm trying to post as much as possible. I'm working on four other fan fictions so it's kind of hard. Love you guys!
-Emily x