I Want....but that's crazy

What happened in the ten seconds between me standing up to see Dani…and now??
Niall has just kissed Melannie, and there I was full expecting her to pull away. She didn’t, they just lingered in a deep meaningful kiss. I felt my heart sink and my face dropping was obvious to anyone who cred.
Even kissing my best friend, she was still beautiful…elegant and well poised. I couldn’t face them any longer without feeling angry and hurt. I shouldn’t feel protective, hurt or fractured. I have a girlfriend who I am perfectly happy with.
…..
Fuck that. I don’t know who im kidding. She is controlling and manipulative. She is sour and sassy at the worst of times, I just didn’t have the heart to break up with her. I had tried 4 times in the past week before we came to uni, but each time, it resulted in dinner and sex afterwards.
I needed to break up with her…but for what…Melannie? The girl I met 15 minutes ago and fell in love with, deep into her eyes? No! She obviously wouldn’t go for someone like me, not considering she has Niall now. Im not her type and she obviously doesn’t feel the same as me.
I ended up in the toilet on the train, sat on the floor, my back against the toilet bowl, thinking about how to break up with Dani and how to justify my feelings to and for a girl I had just met.
Just as I was in the depth of my thinking, and close to tears, I heard boots on the floor. Healed. I tilted my head so I could see the shoes. Female or cross dresser? A bang on the door made me stand up. I was silent, waiting for the person on the other side of the door to justify themselves.
“Harry? Are you okay? You seemed upset when you left the table. The lads and Dani said you would be fine, but I wanted to see if you we-“I opened the door to melannie stuttering out her words.
Her hair was beautifully pushed back off her face and had been tied in a small French braid around the side of her shoulder.
“Are you okay?” she moaned drawing me in for a hug wiping a single tear from my eye. I nodded, burying my head into her neck.
“I’m fine” I whispered, my throat croaky.
“Don’t lie to me mr.styles” she ordered.
The door behind her began to open and she pushed me into the toilet following swiftly after me, locking the door. She placed a finger on my lips instructing me to be quiet.
She sat down her back against the door, and I followed sitting with my back against the toilet bowl.
“Where is he? He said he would be in here?!” I heard dani shout from outside the cubicle.
“He has probably gone for a walk, come on” said Louis. The door shut. And we stayed sat in the toilet for a couple of seconds.
“So come on, what’s wrong?” asked Melannie, crossing her legs under the wall. I shook my head and stared at the floor.
“Do what you think is right, not what will hurt less” she whispered putting a comforting hand on my shoulder.
“What do you mean?” I looked confused at her.
“I don’t know what’s wrong, but that tip usually helps in most situations” she smiled.
“And what about this one?” I asked putting my hand on the side of her face.
“What about this one?” she whispered moving a little closer to me and bringing her hand to rest on top of mine at the side of her face. We moved in slowly and our faces were but a millimetre away when she whispered into my lips.
“Harry?”
“Yeah” I mumbled.
“I think I might be falling for you”

Notes

this girl moves fast