Love Hate

She stayed quiet not answering my question.

"I don't want to talk about it" she said not looking at me.

"Jess tell me" I demanded.

"You and Niall" she whispered.

"What'd I do" I asked. I understood why she cut herself for Niall, but what'd I do to make her do it.

"I missed you and when I saw you I just lost it when I got home" she told me.

"Did you cut yourself before you saw me today" I asked her.

"Y-Yeah" she stuttered. I felt the tears coming back in my eyes.

"How come I didn't see any scars then when I saw you" I asked looking at the wall in front of me.

"I put makeup on them" she answered.

How didn't I think about that, that's how she hid them the last time.

"I cut myself too" I told her.

"What" she said, her breath hitching.

"I cut myself" I told her looking down.

"Why" she asked.

"I missed you" I told her. I felt a tear roll down my cheek.

"This is all my fault" she said like she was about to cry.

"No, please don't blame yourself for this" I begged.

"But it is my fault" she said letting a few tears slip.

"No it's not" I told her.

"Yes it is. If I would've just stop being so stubborn and told you I missed you too, then this wouldn't have happened" she cried.

"It was my choice, it's not your fault" I tried to tell her but she wouldn't listen.

"Did you tell Harry" she asked.

"Yeah" I said looking back down.

"He probably hates me for making his girlfriend cut herself" she said.

"You didn't make me cut myself and he doesn't hate you" I told her.

"Sure whatever say" she said.

"Can we just stop talking about this" I asked.

"You're the one who brought it up" she scoffed.

"Okay well I want to stop talking about it" I told her getting off the bed, walking to the couch.

The rest of the night was quiet. We didn't say one word to each other.
***
I was woken up by a door opening. I opened my eyes only to close them again because of the light. I slowly opened them again and saw a nurse walking over to a still sleeping Jess.

I looked at my phone that was on a small table charging. It read 12:01 pm. I wasn't shocked by the time because I usually wake up at this time when I get to sleep in.

I watched as the nurse changed Jess' iv. Jess didn't even move. Jess is a really deep sleeper but I still looked to see if her stomach was moving so I knew she was still alive.

"Good morning" the nurse said staring at me.

"Good morning" I said smiling at her.

"I was told to tell the person that's in here that whenever she gets hungry you go can get her stuff from out of the hospital" she told me.

"Okay" I said sitting up and stretching.

"Okay someone will be here in a few hours to change her iv then whenever her mom comes back she'll be able to leave" the nurse told me.

If she even does come back, is what I wanted to say but didn't.

I decided to get up and go get something to eat. I didn't have a car right now so I had to walk.

I left the room closing the door quietly. I walked out the hospital. There was a McDonald's not to far from here so I just walked there.

When I got there I walked in and walked to the register.

"How may I help you" the guy behind the counter asked smiling.

"Um… can I have a number ten" I ordered.

"Meal or just the nuggets" he asked.

"Meal" I told him. "And can I have a double quarter pounder with cheese" I ordered Jess' food.

"Meal" he asked.

I nodded my head.

"Is that all" he asked.

"Yup" I answered.

"Your total is $11.75" he told me.

I took my credit card out and swiped it. He handed me my receipt. I walked over to where I picked my food up and waited. About ten minutes later I was handed my bag of food and two cups. I walked over to the drink dispenser and got Jess and I's drinks.

Then I walked out and walked back to the hospital which was like a fifteen minute walk.

When I got back to the hospital I walked through the sliding doors.

I didn't need to check in so I just walked into the area with the rooms. When I got to her room I saw her door was open.

I thought nothing about it so when I turned the corner and looked into her room I almost dropped the food and drinks.

I saw two boys with messy brown hair, one with messy black hair, one with blonde hair, and one with curly brown hair.

"Harry" I said it barely coming out as a whisper.

He snapped his head around looking at me. When I saw it was him I set the food down and jumped into his arms. He hugged me tighter than he usually did but I didn't care, I hugged him just as tight.

"I missed you" I said into his neck.

"I missed you too" he said hugging me tighter.

Then I realized something. They're here, at the hospital, in Jess' room.

I let go of Harry and he put me down.

"Why are you guys here? How did you know she was here?" I asked.

Niall's POV

~Flashback~
We finished the interview about an hour ago. I was laying in my bed at the hotel, while Harry was in the shower.

His phone starting ringing on the night stand. I looked to see who it was. Gabby's name flashed across the screen. I accepted it and just decided to talk to her until Harry came out.

"Hel-" I started but she started talking.

"Why'd you do it" she asked. I was going to ask her what was she talking about but then a different voice answered.

"I don't want to talk about it" I heard Jess' voice. Talk about what?

"Jess tell me" Gabby demanded.

"You and Niall" she whispered. Me? What'd I do?

"What'd I do" Gabby asked.

"I missed you and when I saw you I just lost it when I got home" Jess told her.

"Did you cut yourself before you saw me today" Gabby asked her. My jaw dropped. Jess cut herself? I felt tears in my eyes.

"Y-Yeah" she stuttered. I felt the tears fall down my cheeks.

"How come I didn't see any scars then when I saw you" Gabby asked.

"I put makeup on them" she answered.

"I cut myself too" Gabby told her. I felt more tears fall down my cheeks. This must be why Harry cried onstage and why Zayn punched a wall.

"What" she said, her breath hitching.

"I cut myself" Gabby told her again.

"Why" she asked.

"I missed you" she told her. I felt tears flowing down my face.

"This is all my fault" Jess said like she was about to cry.

"No, please don't blame yourself for this" Gabby begged.

"But it is my fault" she said.

"No it's not" Gabby tried to tell her.

"Yes it is. If I would've just stop being so stubborn and told you I missed you too, then this wouldn't have happened" she cried.

"It was my choice, it's not your fault" Gabby tried to assure her.

"Did you tell Harry" she asked.

"Yeah" Gabby said. Now I was 100% sure that's why Harry and Zayn did what they did.

"He probably hates me for making his girlfriend cut herself" she said.

"You didn't make me cut myself and he doesn't hate you" Gabby told her.

"Sure whatever say" she said.

"Can we just stop talking about this" Gabby asked.

"You're the one who brought it up" Jess scoffed.

"Okay well I want to stop talking about it" she told her. I quickly hung up so she didn't know I just listened to their whole conversation.

Harry soon walked out and looked at me confused.

"Are you crying" he asked me.

"Yeah" I said.

"Is that my phone" he asked.

I nodded my head.

"You know now don't you" he asked looking down.

"Yup" I said. "Did you know Jess cut herself too" I asked my heart breaking at the words.

"She did" Harry asked shocked.

I nodded my head not trusting my words.

"She said she did it because of me and Gabby, but they didn't say anything about how it was my fault" I told him.

"Wait, how'd you find out" he asked confused.

"Gabby butt dialed you I guess and I answered" I told him.

"And Gabby was with Jess" he asked.

"Yeah. Why wouldn't she be" I asked.

~Flashback over~

"Then Harry explained your argument and how it started" I told Gabby.

"How'd you know she was here though" she asked confused.

"We went to her house first and her mom told us she was here" I told her.

"Oh" she said.

"N-N-Niall" I heard a tired voice say. I looked over to the bed where Jess laid her eyes now partially open.

"H-H-Hey" I stuttered.

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