Closeted {Larry Stylinson AU}

Harry's POV

I've gone too far, And I can't stop. Lex has been trying to help, but every time I think I'm done with it, I find the crack again and sniff it. Lou is coming back in a month and I'm sure I'm far away from giving this up. It's not like Lex can just take it away from me... It's my mums, and she's already accused me of using it. I'm laying here in my bed and I'm trying to think of a solution to this problem.

BUZZ, BUZZ! POP!

I unlock my phone and the brightness makes my eyes squint in my dark room. I read the text I just got from Louis.

From: BooBear 11:45 pm
Hey Hazz :) can you get on FaceTime?

I smile at the message and tap my FaceTime app. It's amazing he still knows I'm awake, I thought he was sleeping... Then again in America it's probably 6:45. I'm not that bright. Anyway, I tap the call button and almost immediately, he answers. Thank god I'm not drugged up right now... I want to experience Louis like I haven't in a while. Though because I'm not on crack right now, I'm sad. I won't show it though. For Louis...

"Hey Harry! How are you doing?" I force a smile even though I should be happy to see him. He's sitting on his computer chair with a big grin on his face.

"Hi BooBear... I'm grand. How are you?"

"I miss you like hell..." He gives me the puppy dog eyes he always makes when he's sad. That makes two of us.

"I miss you too Louis, but you're coming back home in a month!"

"I can tell, you sound like shit! What's wrong?" I didn't realize my voice had a gloomy tone to it, making me sound as sad as I was.

"Nothing's wrong Lou, I'm fine." Louis looked at me with his judgmental eyeballs. I want to tell him, but that would hurt him... It's stupid how after only a week after him being gone I went to drugs. Now I feel like fucking shit and I can't do anything about it.

"Harry, you've been acting really strange lately... Are you sure you're okay? I can help you, I love you you know..." I'm on the verge of telling him, but I can't. I sit up on my bed and my blanket exposes my bare chest.

"...Damn Hazz, have you been working out? Your chest is making me so horny..." I laugh, and I'm glad he changed the subject. I could last any longer if he asked me again.

"Oh yeah? You want to fuck me in my arse?..." Louis nods and licks his lips.

"But I'd rather have you fuck me..." Were both talking big, But I can swear to you, that even when he comes back from his vacation, we won't be ready for that... Maybe some foreplay...

I take out my member from my pants and make sure Louis can't see it. But he already knows what I'm doing... He steps out of frame for a brief second to lock his door and turn his bedroom lights off. We've known each other for so long, were already comfortable with this, which is why our relationship is moving so fast. I guess it's because we both have been waiting for this forever we don't need to start off slow.

"I'd fuck you so good..." This is going to end with both of us cumming... I know that for a fact.

"Tell me how you'd fuck me." I start to stroke my cock at the sound of his voice, and by the look on his face, he's doing the same thing.

"I'd start fingering your arse, and suck your penis at the same time... Then I'd slide into you replacing my mouth with my hand."

"You feel so good inside me." I start moving my hand up and down faster.

"You're so warm on my cock Lou..." I hear Louis moaning and that turns me on so much, it's not even funny. My boner rises to my stomach and I'm already so close.

"Moan louder..." Lou moans again and this time louder, like I told him.

"Stroke me faster Harry..."

"I start pumping you, faster and faster as your cock grows larger making me thrust into you more."

"Oh yes Harry... Fuck me like you mean it!" I pumping my member from my tip to my balls faster, and Louis doesn't look like he's gonna last longer. I start to bite my lips to resist screaming bloody murder, but Louis is doing the complete opposite. He's screaming his lungs out with pleasure.

Just then, Louis eyes shut tight, and I see a stream of cum fountain high above Louis head. I follow after with a loud groan deep in my throat and cum all over my stomach. Told you so. After we both come down from our high, were both panting and sweaty.

"I... love you... so much Hazza..."

"BooBear, you're so lucky I love you and didn't take a shower yet, or I would have killed you..." Louis chuckles and picks up his phone from his computer table. Then he flops on his bed. His hair is messy and he's in sweats, but he's still fucking sexy...

I yawn and Louis is smiling at me. "Are you tired Harry?" I nod my head and lay back down on my side with the camera still facing me.

"Alright, goodnight."

"Wait Lou, can you stay until I fall asleep?" I hear him chuckle again. "Sure Hazz... Anything for you."

"Thanks..."

"No problem love..." I close my eyes and start to drift off into sleep. This is what I needed... I think I can stop the cocaine if I just think about Louis. I. Just need to try, I can't give up! I'm calling Lex again tomorrow to get help.

just before I lose consciousness, I hear Louis whispering...

"Hazz... Are you sleeping?" I don't say anything, cause I kinda am...

"Goodnight babe... Love you more than life..." I hear Louis press the hang up button and I finally go to sleep...

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I wake up with my phone next to my face, my boxers halfway down my legs, and dry cum all over my abdomen... I forgot to take my shower. I pull up my underwear and walk into the hallway half naked cause who gives a fuck? Anyway... I walk into my bathroom and open up the cabinet and find my mums cocaine. Don't use it... Don't sniff it... Don't even look in its direction... I quickly grab my wash cloth and slam the cabinet door. I start shaking and I know that just giving it up isn't going to be easy.

I turn on the shower head, still shaking, and step in the warm stream of water. I just stand in the shower not caring that waters getting in my eyes and that I didn't even turn on the light for the bathroom. I'm trying not to think about using... It. And that requires total stupidity. As the waters running down my arm, is start to itch and I scratch the hell out of it. Then my legs start to itch as well.

just then, everywhere on my body starts to itch. Why is this happening? I run out of the shower to see if I have a rash, or a bug bite, but the only thing there is the red skin I have from all the scratching. The itch is unbearable, and every time I itch there's a pain from my raw skin. I start to cry and keep itching uncontrollably... I start calling for my mum, but she doesn't answer.

"Mum! Mum!... Is anyone here?!" No one answers. I quickly get the soap and run back into the shower, almost slipping and falling. I scrub everywhere. And I mean Everywhere. It wasn't helping the itching, but I was clean. Plus, it was making my skin burn worse. I start screaming my mothers name loader.

"MUM!" I can't take the burning anymore and rinse my skin of with the water.

"Fuckin' Hell." Then I realize it's Sunday... Fuck... My mums at church, and she probably left me home to sleep in. I dry my self off with my towel, hissing at the sensation the towel on my raw skin make.

I bolt into my bedroom and painfully pull my clothes on. Then I call Lex's number.

"Ello Styles! How are you today?" I keep itching my skin, and regret every time I do.

"Not too good, I'm itching like crazy... Can you look up detoxing side effects for cocaine?"

"Course, hold on a minute." I can't search it myself in the state I'm in. I hear Lex tap on her keyboard and click her computer mouse.

"Itching is a side effect... So is depression, nausea, and major headaches. Sorry man..." I groan and keep scratching my arm. I shouldn't of even started this shit... I only did it because of the rumors it said. 'It makes you happy!' And 'It makes you look cool!' And when I finally found it, I just wanted to try it. I'm gonna die if I don't sniff anymore.

"But... Louis will be happy, and you won't risk dying from drugs! Keep going. I believe you can do it!" I don't... I need it, anything is better than detox. ANYTHING. I swear to you I can do it, just not now.

"I have to go Lex,thank you." I'm still itching my skin, and I'm surprised I'm not bleeding.

"No problem buddy! Bye!" She hangs up her cell and. I run to my bathroom cabinet again... I stand corrected, this is going to be way harder than I thought...

Notes

Hi highs! Okay, I know I haven't updated in a while, but don't worry... I have a new schedule! Instead of posting everyday (like I try to) I'm posting at least every Saturday! There's a chance more than one will be posted each week, so be happy!!!! (For people in the UK, it might be early Sunday morning.)