Closeted {Larry Stylinson AU}
Chapter I
Louis's POV
"Have yourself a merry little Christmas now..."
The crowd roars with cheers and applauding as Mr. Benjamin tells us to get ready for the next song. I'm surprised at how the elderly people in this old folks home aren't telling us toshut up, or that we sound terrible. I at least think everyone sounds bad including me, except Harry. Since I'm standing right next to him as we sing, I can hear every word he sings, and his voice is absolutely amazing.
Come to think of it, Harry is just amazing in general. His curly brown hair, is beautiful green eyes, perfectly pink lips... He is the most perfect human being there is. Then there's me... Even if he was gay he'd never fall for this... Plus my dad would kill him before we would be old enough to get married. What am I thinking? He's definitely not gay. Why am I gawking at the straight boy I could never have?
I hadn't realized I was staring at him and not singing, but when I did, I quickly kept my gaze on Mr.Benjamin and remained singing 'Christmas time is here'.
"We want to thank you for letting us sing at the Newark senior center today, and we hope you had a merry Christmas, kwanza, Hanukkah, and New Years."
The whole place filled with applause and we walked off the stage. Mr.Benjamin informed us that if we forgot to bring lunch, they serve food in the cafeteria. I had forgotten my lunch so I had to go to the cafeteria to get my lunch. Harry brought his so he told he would save me a seat next to him. He's so thoughtful...
I made my way to the lunch line, and it was exactly the same as the one at our school, except with old people.
"Boy, are you following me?" An arm grabbed my shoulder and I spun around as quick as I could to see my neighbor Mrs. Roma. She took her hand off my should and laughed with her raspy voice.
"I didn't know you could sing!" My fear turned into happiness and I smiled. She's one of my best friends and one of the funniest people I know.
"Hi Mrs. Roma. I didn't know you went here..." Her face changed into a matter-of-fact expression.
"Yeah! See right over there is frank, he has no sense of smell... And over there is Barbra, she went grey when she was only 16... And there's Bob, he ain't got no teeth." I chuckle at how she was just sharing her friends information with me, not caring if I don't know them or care for them.
"Well I have to get back to Harry and eat my lunch. Thanks for the chat Mrs. Roma."
"Wait," I stop in my tracks and turn back around just to approach Mrs.Roma again.
"How are you and Eleanor doing?" My heart sank, and the topic was getting a little Awkward now.
"We broke up. We just found we didn't like each other so I just broke it off." She pulls me aside from the crowd of elderly, and I had no idea what is going on.
"Do you like girls, Lou?" I felt my face drain it's colour and nodded my head. "I mean sexually..."
I didn't think my face could get whiter then it already is, but it was possible. I wanted to tell her the truth, but what she told my parents? I couldn't believe that I was having this conversation right now. She's was staring at me waiting for an answer, and I shook my head under pressure.
"Do you like boys?" The shade of my skin colour changed from white to tomato red instantly. Where the fuck did she get that from?
"Yea." I choked hurriedly. 'I Chocked' is a bad choice of words to say if you're gay, just saying.
"I suspected you were a lot earlier, also, I saw the way you looked at Harry when you were on stage. You were admiring every inch of his face. Im okay with it." She smiled and my face mirrored hers. My colour turned back to normal and she put both her hands on my shoulders.
"Do you love him?" I felt so much more comfortable talking to her, but I honestly don't know. I wouldn't want to be with anyone else, but I don't know what love is all together... This could just be a phase I'm going through and I don't like him at all.
"I-" She shook her head.
"Nevermind, terrible question at your age." Her kind eyes looked into mine and my vision started to blur.
"Do whatever your heart tells you to do..." She finally let's go of my shoulders and starts walking away.
"And don't worry, your secret is safe with me..." She winked at me with a smile and a tear fell upon my face. I don't know why I was crying, but I felt loved, scared, sad, and confusion all at the same time. She could be lying and tell my parents anyway.
I wiped away the tear and finally started walking back either my lunch to Harry's table with his lunch almost all gone.
"There you are... What the hell took you so long?" I shrugged and bit into my turkey sandwich. "It was a long line."
Harry smiled and looked into my eyes. "Don't chew with your mouth open..." I laughed and took another bite. Dear god, I hope he has the same feelings for me, because his dimples are killing me...
"Have yourself a merry little Christmas now..."
The crowd roars with cheers and applauding as Mr. Benjamin tells us to get ready for the next song. I'm surprised at how the elderly people in this old folks home aren't telling us toshut up, or that we sound terrible. I at least think everyone sounds bad including me, except Harry. Since I'm standing right next to him as we sing, I can hear every word he sings, and his voice is absolutely amazing.
Come to think of it, Harry is just amazing in general. His curly brown hair, is beautiful green eyes, perfectly pink lips... He is the most perfect human being there is. Then there's me... Even if he was gay he'd never fall for this... Plus my dad would kill him before we would be old enough to get married. What am I thinking? He's definitely not gay. Why am I gawking at the straight boy I could never have?
I hadn't realized I was staring at him and not singing, but when I did, I quickly kept my gaze on Mr.Benjamin and remained singing 'Christmas time is here'.
"We want to thank you for letting us sing at the Newark senior center today, and we hope you had a merry Christmas, kwanza, Hanukkah, and New Years."
The whole place filled with applause and we walked off the stage. Mr.Benjamin informed us that if we forgot to bring lunch, they serve food in the cafeteria. I had forgotten my lunch so I had to go to the cafeteria to get my lunch. Harry brought his so he told he would save me a seat next to him. He's so thoughtful...
I made my way to the lunch line, and it was exactly the same as the one at our school, except with old people.
"Boy, are you following me?" An arm grabbed my shoulder and I spun around as quick as I could to see my neighbor Mrs. Roma. She took her hand off my should and laughed with her raspy voice.
"I didn't know you could sing!" My fear turned into happiness and I smiled. She's one of my best friends and one of the funniest people I know.
"Hi Mrs. Roma. I didn't know you went here..." Her face changed into a matter-of-fact expression.
"Yeah! See right over there is frank, he has no sense of smell... And over there is Barbra, she went grey when she was only 16... And there's Bob, he ain't got no teeth." I chuckle at how she was just sharing her friends information with me, not caring if I don't know them or care for them.
"Well I have to get back to Harry and eat my lunch. Thanks for the chat Mrs. Roma."
"Wait," I stop in my tracks and turn back around just to approach Mrs.Roma again.
"How are you and Eleanor doing?" My heart sank, and the topic was getting a little Awkward now.
"We broke up. We just found we didn't like each other so I just broke it off." She pulls me aside from the crowd of elderly, and I had no idea what is going on.
"Do you like girls, Lou?" I felt my face drain it's colour and nodded my head. "I mean sexually..."
I didn't think my face could get whiter then it already is, but it was possible. I wanted to tell her the truth, but what she told my parents? I couldn't believe that I was having this conversation right now. She's was staring at me waiting for an answer, and I shook my head under pressure.
"Do you like boys?" The shade of my skin colour changed from white to tomato red instantly. Where the fuck did she get that from?
"Yea." I choked hurriedly. 'I Chocked' is a bad choice of words to say if you're gay, just saying.
"I suspected you were a lot earlier, also, I saw the way you looked at Harry when you were on stage. You were admiring every inch of his face. Im okay with it." She smiled and my face mirrored hers. My colour turned back to normal and she put both her hands on my shoulders.
"Do you love him?" I felt so much more comfortable talking to her, but I honestly don't know. I wouldn't want to be with anyone else, but I don't know what love is all together... This could just be a phase I'm going through and I don't like him at all.
"I-" She shook her head.
"Nevermind, terrible question at your age." Her kind eyes looked into mine and my vision started to blur.
"Do whatever your heart tells you to do..." She finally let's go of my shoulders and starts walking away.
"And don't worry, your secret is safe with me..." She winked at me with a smile and a tear fell upon my face. I don't know why I was crying, but I felt loved, scared, sad, and confusion all at the same time. She could be lying and tell my parents anyway.
I wiped away the tear and finally started walking back either my lunch to Harry's table with his lunch almost all gone.
"There you are... What the hell took you so long?" I shrugged and bit into my turkey sandwich. "It was a long line."
Harry smiled and looked into my eyes. "Don't chew with your mouth open..." I laughed and took another bite. Dear god, I hope he has the same feelings for me, because his dimples are killing me...
Notes
Hiiiiiiiii if you read my previous story, you know that i stopped it because I didn't have a resolution for it. So this is my second story and I plan to Finnish this one. If there are any typos I'm sorry because I stayed up all night, I have to go to school in an hour *cries*. Tell me if this story is worth continuing, and trust me, it will get better as it goes along. GOOD NIGHT and I love yers!!! <3
Loved the chapter!!! Update again soon!!!
4/16/16