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Held Tight, No Fright

My minds opinion

Was the whole point of that to get me so fucked up... Harry could just have his way with me? I mean, who does that. Sure when I was younger, I had the small urges to try drugs, but it never happened. I had just tried Ecstacy. A drug. I had done Ecstacy AND I cheated on Scott. Sure, it wasn't really my fault. My brain was on hold and I wasn't in control of anything my body was doing... But it still happened and I could still feel the feeling of Harry's hands... Touching me. Along with Louis. What makes it worse, is for a minute, I enjoyed it. I didn't want him to stop. For the time being, I had felt young and free. I didn't have the thought of being kidnapped or the thought of my mom or dad, or the baby sister that was supossed to be. All I was thinking about was his rough yet soft hands causing me to moan and makes noises i thought Id only ever make with Scott. I wasnt coherent... But the fact that I enjoyed it and wanted more is what made it cheating.

I love Scott. Its always been Scott. I can't keep thinking about harry or Louis.

Dont get the wong idea either. I'm not in love with harry or Louis... But I can't help but want their touch again. I crave it. Its a strong lust... Way stronger then how I first was with Scott. God, and the way Harry had used. Y thigh to create his own pleasure- ugh! Why was that so hot. It was by far the hottest thing I've ever witnessed. His eyes scrunched up in concentration, his teeth biting down on his full bottom lip, the movements of his hips. I could have orgasmed just by the sight.

I just couldn't get passed the fact that I was here against my own will. I was here, trapped, and not to mention scared. I was just forced into drugs, and it scares me that i liked the feeling of it, and I want more. They originally wanted me to do Cocaine, but I had refused. Will I be able to refuse a second time?

A knock on the door made me flinch amd instinctively bring my blanket up to my chest "yeah?"

Whoa, was that my voice?

It sounded hoarse and rough, nothing like my usual voice. "Its Liam."

What? Liam? Who was liam again? I had only met the others once, and I can't remember which one he was. "Come in." I huddled deeper into my blanket, awaiting him.

A boy walked in. He dark brown hair with a tiny little quiff, he also had a small smile on his face which oddly eased me a little bit. He didn't seemed fimilar until I spotted a birthmark on the lower part of his throat. "Hey."

"Hi" the fact that I had no idea why he was here made me eye him suspiciously.

"Sorry to walk in on you... Harry asked me to check up on ya." He shrugged his shoulders and walked in a little bit more so he could close the door.

I actually relieved Harry didn't check up on me himself. I can't stand to look at him right now, its to soon and it makes me uncomfortable. "Oh" was all I said.

"Yeah."

Well this was awkward.

"I guess i'm gonna go." He made a weird noise with his mouth and started to open my door.

The thought of him leaving made my stomach drop. I don't know why I wanted him to stay... But all I know is I don't want to be alone and I NEED to talk to someone. "Wait!"

This caused him to stop and turn my way "Please don't go... Not yet."

He replied with a small smile and a swift nod of his head, which prompted him to close the door and walk my way.