Bella's POV

I coat my lips in red lipstick, a colour I'd never usually pick but today I want to do something different. I add a little more hairspray hoping it will hold the curls a little longer than usual. My hair is never great to curl, they always seem to drop out, I just don't get how other girls manage to keep them all night.

"Ah look at my dress!" Cassie cheers excitedly as she barges into my room. I laugh at her but quickly tell her how amazing she looks. She's wearing a deep blue skater dress which shows off her long tanned legs, god she's lucky with her legs. I'm too quite blessed, but Cassie is taller than me.

"Looking hot too sis." Cassie winks and I smile at her. My black dress is a little too short, I don't think Dad will be very impressed but I like it and I'm hoping I will make a good impression tonight.

"Thanks." I say as I feel a little nervous to going out like this, I rarely doll myself up because I hardly ever go out.

"I would wear tanned tights though, your tights don't look right" I laugh as I tell her I don't have any skin coloured tights. A smirk appears on her face so I know she has some, she leaves the room confirming I'm right. "Don't get a ladder." She jokes as she hands me her tights.

"I can't promise anything." I laugh and I begin to get changed. Half way through changing the doorbell goes and it must be either Louis or Harry. I try to hurry up as I hear my Dad answer the door. One more glance in the mirror and I tell Cassie I'm ready to go down stairs.

"Come have some cake, she's cutting it in a minute" I hear Mum say and I hear Harry answer her. I hope Louis is with him.

"Hey Bella." Harry smiles as he turns around whilst I walk into the living room. No sign of Louis. I smile at him and he scans my outfit. "Looking good, dressing to impress?" He teases and I playfully lean forward and hit his arm. "Happy birthday Cass!" He adds as he leans forward and kisses her cheek.

"Thanks babe, where is Louis?" Cassie asks and I look away pretending I'm not too bothered. I remember the first time she called Louis babe, I got really wound up but now I'm used to her calling everyone names like that. I've lost count the amount of times she says babe and hun. I don't say anything like that.

"He's outside, just finishing off his cigarette." Harry rolls his eyes, he's not a fan of smokers even though I remember he used to smoke when he drank, I'm not sure if he still does. I hear the door open and I quickly walk out into the hallway and I meet Louis.

"Bella." His eyes widen and I have to blush as he locks his eyes on to me. "You look amazingly hot." He says and then quickly shakes his head. "Beautiful. I meant beautiful." He tries not to smile but I can see that he's desperate too.

"You look good too Louis." I reply looking away as I really don't want to blush infront of him. "Come through." I say as I head into the living room, I hear him follow me.

"Happy birthday!" Louis smiles as Cassie throws her arms around him. I can't help but look at Louis, I love how he's dressed in a white shirt with a black tie, I can't quite believe how hot he looks.

As my parents start to have individual conversations with Harry and Louis, some of Cassie's friends arrive and I watch as they admire Louis and Harry. This is so awkward I hate how they're looking at them, but I have no right to be like this.
So I head into the kitchen trying not to get too wound up. Pouring myself a neat vodka, I hear footsteps behind me so I spin around and I'm met with Louis.

"Would you like one?" I ask and he smiles as he stands beside me, I pour him one and hand it to him.

"Thanks." He says as he quickly downs it, I do the same but am unable to keep a straight face unlike him. I'm not a good vodka drinker at all. "You seem a bit off?" He asks as he places his glass by the sink, I do the same.

"I'm fine." I answer with a smile. We're soon interrupted by Lea, one of Cassie's friends. Louis looks to her and politely talks to her as she asks him a few questions. All I want is five minutes with Louis on my own without being interrupted or someone gawking at him.
"Come on, we're having shots!" Cassie calls and I watch as Lea smirks at Louis, I roll my eyes and I walk into the living room. I lean on the doorway as Lea steps in and I feel a hand on my back, I glance up at Louis as he looks down at me and winks, I don't do anything as I look away from him.
My Dad pours everyone a shot and hands them out, as he turns to me he starts to question my outfit.

"I just think maybe cover up a little?" Dad says and I sigh as I reassure him that my outfit isn't as bad as he thinks.

"I'll look after her anyway, don't worry." Louis says as Dad looks up at him.

"I know, I just don't like guys thinking of her or Cassie inappropriately. " Dad says and I roll my eyes.

"Don't be silly Dad, have a shot" I say as I down mine and realise it's sambuca, I hate sambuca so much. I turn around and quickly walk back into the kitchen, I grab a glass of water.

"Who wants some cake?" I hear Mum ask and all I want to do is go out. I'm fed up of being in this house. I mumble to myself as I walk back to the living room where Cassie is cutting the cake.

"Can't wait to try this." Louis smirks without looking at me. My Mum looks at him and smiles proudly.

"Can we just go?" I ask and everyone looks at me. Harry frowns as he knows I'm not being myself just as much as Louis does.

"Come outside." Louis says as he heads into the kitchen. I sigh as I follow him, watching him pour us a vodka and coke, I open the back door and I step outside. "Here." He says as he passes me my drink.

"Thanks." I take a sip, I watch as he lights up a cigarette. Knowing he had one earlier I can't help myself from asking,

"I thought you quit." He looks at me and smirks.

"I did, but I started again." He says as he takes another drag. I shake my head at him as he was doing so well. I'm a little bit like Harry, I'd only smoke if I was drinking.
"I needed to speak to you." He says and I turn to look at him again.

"Go ahead.." I say as I watch him look away from me.

"I saw Emily yesterday." He says and I feel sick to the stomach. I nod for him to continue even though I really don't want him too. "She revealed that she was in an abusive relationship and she basically was at breaking point." He adds and I look away as I'm full of mixed emotions. Okay I feel awful that she was in such a horrible relationship but why does Louis have to run to her?

"So you spent the night with her?" I ask and he frowns whilst shaking his head.

"No, I came and she's gone to her Mum's in Lancashire." He answers and I sigh with relief. "But I did kiss her." His words shock me and I look at him, my face tells him exactly what I think of that.

"You still like her.." I mumble and I look away from him. I can't describe how disappointed I am.

"No, I don't. She kissed me and I kissed back. But I told her no and explained that it's not right. I told her I don't want her, you know how I feel about you." He says desperately but I can't even be bothered to do this with him.

Emily is always going to be first, whether he admits it or not. How can I possibly be with Louis when I know if she clicks her fingers, he will go running to her just like that. I can't let myself get hurt by Louis, I know I won't recover well from it. So why bother.

"It doesn't matter how you feel about me." I snap and I go to walk inside but he quickly grabs my hand. I stop and look at him.

"Please don't look into it, it meant nothing trust me." He whispers and I shake my head.
Before I can answer Cassie is calling us as we are about to head into town. I look back at Louis.

"As long as she's around, I can never trust you." I whisper back and I pull my hand away from him. Inside I'm screaming and I wish I had longer to tell him exactly how I feel. Maybe a few more drinks in me that's exactly what I will do. But right now I don't want to look at him or be around him.

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Louis' POV

This night out isn't going how I expected it too. Bella is refusing to talk to me and I can't stand the fact that she won't hear me out. I don't know what I'm supposed to do, I keep throwing the drinks down my throat as I just want to get wasted now I'm here. I glance over at Bella as she's at the bar drinking with Harry, she hasn't left his side. Whilst Cassie and her friends are sat at the table with me, I don't know why those two are alone over there.

"Are you okay?" Lea, Cassie's friends asks as she nudges me. I look at her and I nod as I down the rest of my drink. "Bella is so beautiful, she's really blossomed." She adds and I quickly look confused at her comment. "I see the way you look at her I've known Bella for ten years, so I know what she sees when she looks at you" She answers and I shake my head.

"She's angry with me, I don't blame her either." I snap and I finish my drink, my head does feel a little dizzy but I've got a long way to go before I'm properly drunk.

"Doesn't mean she stops liking you." Lea says and I shrug as I don't have a clue what's going on in Bella's head.

"She's not going to let this go, I've done the worst thing in her eyes." I answer and Lea looks concerned at me. I start to explain everything about what had happened Emily. I don't go into every detail as I just want to get to the point. Going over everything makes me feel really anxious as I'm not stupid, I understand everything to why Bella is annoyed at me.

"So basically I was obsessed with Emily, thenme I find out she has a boyfriend and it was all pretty much used as an escape from him." I sigh as I hate going over this. As I continue to explain she looks at me with a sympathetic look, I chose to continue. "So cutting a long story short, I kissed my ex who has now gone after telling Bella I liked her. So Bella doesn't trust me. Or believe me." I snap and I go to drink forgetting that my glass is empty.

"What are you doing over here then?" Lea asks and I look at her and frown. "Louis, get over there and tell her exactly how you feel!! Make her believe you, grab her and kiss her if you have too!" Lea says as she nudges me.with a smile. I shrug as I'm not sure if that's such a good idea.

"She really doesn't want to know-" I say and Lea rolls her eyes.

"Oh come on!! she needs that passion from you, make her feel special. Walk over t he re and just kiss her." Even though I think Lea is out of her mind, something inside of me is telling me to listen to her.

"Fuck it!" I say as I try to feel enthusiastic. I stand up and Lea looks at me grinning. I look over to Bella smiling as what I witness makes me feel physically sick. I've never felt so angry and shit in all my life, is this realy happening?

Bella and Harry. Kissing.

Notes

Here's update number two!!

So Bella and Harry... A lot of you knew something like this was close to happening. But what do you make of this? Please, please let me know your thoughts.

Thank you xx