Only Reason
Chapter 18: Unable
Niall’s POV
‘’I love you baby, if you need Daddy just tell Harry to call me, okay?’’ I mumble as I kiss Tori’s forehead. ‘’Okay!’’ She smiles brightly as she kisses me back on my lips. ‘’Alright, come on angel.’’ Harry says as he takes her from my arms. She giggles as he makes a funny face at her.
‘’I’ll call if anything goes on.’’ He says to me. ‘’Okay. That’s fine.’’ I nod gently before he exits through the front door and takes her to his SUV. I hope she’ll be okay. They’re going to the zoo, so I’m sure nothing will happen.
I go into the kitchen and grab me a bottle of water from the fridge and head back upstairs where Jana still lies in the bed sleeping. I stayed up late last night on the lap top, so I’m sorta tired. But I’m not going back to sleep, I don’t feel like it.
Once I get to our room, I sit on the bed beside her sleeping, peaceful body. I take out my phone and start playing Candy Crush, trying to beat this level I’m still stuck on, and have been for almost two weeks now.
‘’Ni?” I hear Jana mumble as she touches foot with hers under the cover. ‘’Hmm?’’ I ask, looking down to see her eyes are open and she staring up at me, lying on her back. ‘’You okay, babe?’’ I whisper, concerned a tad.
‘’Yeah.’’ She sighs out, licking her lips lightly. I throw my phone on the bedside table and I climb on top of her. She giggles gently as I kiss her nose. ‘’You okay with this, baby?’’ I whisper, worried she won’t be up to do this right now. She nods lightly as she leans up, her eyes closed, and kisses me softly on my lips.
But I could tell it was hard for her to try and enjoy this moment because of her being pregnant and all. I stop kissing her neck and I look into her beautiful eyes. ‘’Why’d.. you stop?’’ She whispers, concerned that something as wrong.
‘’Because.. I know.. you can’t.. do this..’’ I whisper, glancing towards her stomach as I lean off her and lie beside her, taking her hand in mine and intertwining our fingers together. ‘’But.. I-‘’
‘’No, Jana.’’ I cut her off, ‘’Its too dangerous.. and knowing me, I would have went too far.. and there’s no telling what could have happened.’’ I whisper, trying not to be so mean and stern to her right now.
“Okay.’’ She mumbles, I’m sure she understands.. right? “So.. do you wanna talk about something with me?’’ I ask her, not telling her what yet though. ‘’I guess.. what is it?’’ She asks me, confused I know, like she always is.
‘’The.. wedding and stuff.’’ I mumble, hoping to get a response from her, and thank God I do. ‘’What about it?’’ She says as I lean up a little, still holding her hand as I put my back against the headboard like before, she moves over closer, lying her head in my lap as she lies on her side, her hand still holding mine.
‘’Have you decided what you want yet?’’ I ask her, curious to know what she wants and what she thinks about. ‘’I dunno.. if I want a bunch of people there. You know I don’t.. have a.. supportive family.’’ She sighs, upsetting.
‘’I know.. that’s why I’m asking if you just.. want to maybe.. have.. the guys, my parents.. Greg and Denise, your mom and dad.. Perrie, Sophia and Eleanor.. and maybe that girl, Kayla is it? Anyways, and maybe.. you could call up.. some of your.. family members.. I’m sure they would be glad to know.. you’re getting married.’’ I tell her, offering her the best advice I can give about this situation.
‘’That.. sounds actually pretty good, Ni.’’ She says, shock in her voice. ‘’Glad I can help.’’ I smile lightly to myself. I hear her laugh softly to herself. “Okay, lets move on then.’’ I insist and continue asking her questions about the wedding, hoping she has planned out all this stuff.
‘’Your maid of honor?’’ I ask, ready to find out who she’s picked. ‘’I think.. I want Sophia.. to be my maid of honor.’’ She whispers against my hand as she holds it close to her mouth, for some reason I have yet to discover, I just know she loves to hold my hand close to her face whenever we hold hands.
‘’Whatever you want, Baby.’’ I say, telling her that it doesn’t matter to me who she picks. ‘’And then.. Perrie.. and Eleanor.. my bridesmaids, since we’re all good good friends.’’ She adds, placing a soft gentle kiss on the top of my hand. ‘’Okay..’’ I nod to myself, trying to remember all this stuff.
‘’What about you? Who’s gonna be your.. best man?’’ She asks me. This is something that’s very hard for me to do. I’m not sure if it’s the best thing I have chosen in my life, but I guess I’ll go with it now since I’ve been thinking about it for months now.
‘’Harry..’’ I sigh, hoping I made the right choice on this. ‘’Why? I’m not.. like.. hating on that.. I’m just saying.. why?’’ Jana asks, curious as always, but I love it when she questions everything. It shows that she’s too damn innocent to understand most things.
“I dunno.. he’s really close with you.. and Tori.. and me. I just think.. he’s been the most supportive guy since I met you.’’ I say, assuring myself that that’s my reason for choosing my best friend to be one of the most important things in a wedding.
‘’Oh.. well what about the color? I think I want to go with.. pink.’’ Jana suggests, I know she wants me to agree, so I will, just so she’ll be happy. I don’t mind the color, as long as it’s what she wants.
‘’I like that.. it’ll look nice.’’ I say, smiling to myself again as I realize this is coming true. My life is going to change in a month and a half, and then.. a few months down the road.. I’ll be marrying the love of my life live forever with her.
I think I’m glad I chose this life for myself. Very happy.
‘’I love you baby, if you need Daddy just tell Harry to call me, okay?’’ I mumble as I kiss Tori’s forehead. ‘’Okay!’’ She smiles brightly as she kisses me back on my lips. ‘’Alright, come on angel.’’ Harry says as he takes her from my arms. She giggles as he makes a funny face at her.
‘’I’ll call if anything goes on.’’ He says to me. ‘’Okay. That’s fine.’’ I nod gently before he exits through the front door and takes her to his SUV. I hope she’ll be okay. They’re going to the zoo, so I’m sure nothing will happen.
I go into the kitchen and grab me a bottle of water from the fridge and head back upstairs where Jana still lies in the bed sleeping. I stayed up late last night on the lap top, so I’m sorta tired. But I’m not going back to sleep, I don’t feel like it.
Once I get to our room, I sit on the bed beside her sleeping, peaceful body. I take out my phone and start playing Candy Crush, trying to beat this level I’m still stuck on, and have been for almost two weeks now.
‘’Ni?” I hear Jana mumble as she touches foot with hers under the cover. ‘’Hmm?’’ I ask, looking down to see her eyes are open and she staring up at me, lying on her back. ‘’You okay, babe?’’ I whisper, concerned a tad.
‘’Yeah.’’ She sighs out, licking her lips lightly. I throw my phone on the bedside table and I climb on top of her. She giggles gently as I kiss her nose. ‘’You okay with this, baby?’’ I whisper, worried she won’t be up to do this right now. She nods lightly as she leans up, her eyes closed, and kisses me softly on my lips.
But I could tell it was hard for her to try and enjoy this moment because of her being pregnant and all. I stop kissing her neck and I look into her beautiful eyes. ‘’Why’d.. you stop?’’ She whispers, concerned that something as wrong.
‘’Because.. I know.. you can’t.. do this..’’ I whisper, glancing towards her stomach as I lean off her and lie beside her, taking her hand in mine and intertwining our fingers together. ‘’But.. I-‘’
‘’No, Jana.’’ I cut her off, ‘’Its too dangerous.. and knowing me, I would have went too far.. and there’s no telling what could have happened.’’ I whisper, trying not to be so mean and stern to her right now.
“Okay.’’ She mumbles, I’m sure she understands.. right? “So.. do you wanna talk about something with me?’’ I ask her, not telling her what yet though. ‘’I guess.. what is it?’’ She asks me, confused I know, like she always is.
‘’The.. wedding and stuff.’’ I mumble, hoping to get a response from her, and thank God I do. ‘’What about it?’’ She says as I lean up a little, still holding her hand as I put my back against the headboard like before, she moves over closer, lying her head in my lap as she lies on her side, her hand still holding mine.
‘’Have you decided what you want yet?’’ I ask her, curious to know what she wants and what she thinks about. ‘’I dunno.. if I want a bunch of people there. You know I don’t.. have a.. supportive family.’’ She sighs, upsetting.
‘’I know.. that’s why I’m asking if you just.. want to maybe.. have.. the guys, my parents.. Greg and Denise, your mom and dad.. Perrie, Sophia and Eleanor.. and maybe that girl, Kayla is it? Anyways, and maybe.. you could call up.. some of your.. family members.. I’m sure they would be glad to know.. you’re getting married.’’ I tell her, offering her the best advice I can give about this situation.
‘’That.. sounds actually pretty good, Ni.’’ She says, shock in her voice. ‘’Glad I can help.’’ I smile lightly to myself. I hear her laugh softly to herself. “Okay, lets move on then.’’ I insist and continue asking her questions about the wedding, hoping she has planned out all this stuff.
‘’Your maid of honor?’’ I ask, ready to find out who she’s picked. ‘’I think.. I want Sophia.. to be my maid of honor.’’ She whispers against my hand as she holds it close to her mouth, for some reason I have yet to discover, I just know she loves to hold my hand close to her face whenever we hold hands.
‘’Whatever you want, Baby.’’ I say, telling her that it doesn’t matter to me who she picks. ‘’And then.. Perrie.. and Eleanor.. my bridesmaids, since we’re all good good friends.’’ She adds, placing a soft gentle kiss on the top of my hand. ‘’Okay..’’ I nod to myself, trying to remember all this stuff.
‘’What about you? Who’s gonna be your.. best man?’’ She asks me. This is something that’s very hard for me to do. I’m not sure if it’s the best thing I have chosen in my life, but I guess I’ll go with it now since I’ve been thinking about it for months now.
‘’Harry..’’ I sigh, hoping I made the right choice on this. ‘’Why? I’m not.. like.. hating on that.. I’m just saying.. why?’’ Jana asks, curious as always, but I love it when she questions everything. It shows that she’s too damn innocent to understand most things.
“I dunno.. he’s really close with you.. and Tori.. and me. I just think.. he’s been the most supportive guy since I met you.’’ I say, assuring myself that that’s my reason for choosing my best friend to be one of the most important things in a wedding.
‘’Oh.. well what about the color? I think I want to go with.. pink.’’ Jana suggests, I know she wants me to agree, so I will, just so she’ll be happy. I don’t mind the color, as long as it’s what she wants.
‘’I like that.. it’ll look nice.’’ I say, smiling to myself again as I realize this is coming true. My life is going to change in a month and a half, and then.. a few months down the road.. I’ll be marrying the love of my life live forever with her.
I think I’m glad I chose this life for myself. Very happy.
It's finally over! Time for the sequellllll!
4/17/15