Once In a Lifetime

Louis P.O.V

I don't know what came over me, but somehow I went from fighting with the girl I've loved since I first saw her, to kissing her without a second thought. The kiss gets deeper and I have no idea how long we've been standing here in each other's arms. I know it's wrong, that I shouldn't push this further, but instinctively my toungue reaches her mouth, asking for entry. She complies, even though I'm not so sure she realizes what she's doing. I don't care though, I need her. I need her more than air and I missed her. In this moment, everything feels right again. I feel her hands on the back of my neck and suddenly her delicate hands are in my hair. It's messier than she proabably remembers it because for a minute all she does is let her hands roam. But then she tugs gently on it. I have no idea if she remembers but her doing that has always sent me over the edge. Unintentionally, I let out a soft moan.

And then she's gone. Her lips no longer moving against mine, and her hands no longer take up residence in my hair. I already miss the feeling. I already miss her. I can't lose her again.

I see her staring at me, and then her hand moves to her mouth, softly touching her lips. She looks shocked at first, but then she seems upset. Probably upset with herself, but knowing my Kara, she'll blame it on me.

"Why'd you do that?" She finally speaks. Her voice shakes though, and as if it ever became whole again I can feel my
heart cracking.

"I don't know. I didn't plan to do that. I just wanted to talk. Maybe reminisce a little bit but not fight with you and then kiss you Kara. But I'm not apologizing because that felt right and you know it." I explain, trying my best to keep her calm and with me.

"You knew I was going to be here?" She asks looking up at me, her face twists in confusion and I again can feel my heart cracking. She didn't know I'd be home, let alone here.

"I asked...I hoped you would be Kara, I've hoped every day since you left that you'd come home. Today though, I texted Izzy and she didn't tell me but she kinda hinted that you'd be home. Kara I didn't plan on this happening." I try to explain but I'm toungue tied and absolutely terrified of her walking away from me.

Just then, the door opens, and a very drunk Izzy comes stumbling out toward us.

"Hey you two, how's it going?" Izzy giggles sloppily, she's stumbling and clearly not in her right mind but honestly I don't blame her because if I wasn't having this conversation is be getting as high as possible right now.

Before I could speak Kara answered her.

"You knew about this? You knew he'd be here and you didn't tell me?" Kara yells.

"Kara I..." Izzy begins but it's clear Kara doesn't care about her answer because she cuts her off.

"No, don't. That's what all of this was for Iz, wasn't it? The hair, the makeup, the clothes? How could you do this to me. I mean damn haven't you both put me through enough?" She yells looking between Izzy and I. I can hear the tears in her voice. And there she goes, Blaming everyone but herself.

"Kar...no stop it wasn't all because he'd be here. Yeah I knew but please don't be mad. This was bound to happen. I'm so so sorry." Izzy pleads. But I won't, I'm not being blamed anymore and I won't let her blame Izzy either.

"No, Izzy don't." I say to my best friend. I then turn to Kara.

"Kara I know you're hurt. I know this feels planned but it wasn't. But maybe instead of blaming us you should look in the mirror, or maybe even at your mother. Izzy was a good friend to you when you left. She never told me a damn thing that could help me find you and dammit I was searching. She respected your wishes even though it nearly killed me. And what did I do Kara? What did I do to hurt you? All I ever did was love you and support you. Shit Kara, I still love you. When your mom brought you to get rid of the baby I was heartbroken but I stood by your side because I thought that's what you wanted. I wanted that baby and I wanted you. And then you left. It was always your choice. So don't blame us for your own issues and heartbreak because all we ever wanted was for you to be happy. That's still all we want." I say to her, not breaking eye contact once. I'm surprised by the fact that I didn't yell or stumble on my words. I guess the truth might be easier to say than I thought.

Once again, she stood there just looking at me. But I could see her face glistening with her tears. Her muffled
cries and hiccups becoming more and more evident. And then suddenly she speaks, but so quietly that if you weren't waiting for it, you wouldn't hear it.

"I wanted the baby too, Lou. Don't think that I didn't." She whispers, just loud enough for Izzy and I to hear. And then she walks away. Shivering and crying.

That did it. My heart is once again broken. But I need her, I need her so badly. my eyes are pricking with tears but I try to pull myself together.

"Lou...go. Go after her. I know it doesn't seem like it but she needs you." Izzy says quietly but sincerely. It seems like she's sobered up quickly.

All I do is nod and make my way to the house. I search everywhere for my girl. I go upstairs to Izzy's bedroom and there is no trace of her. As I make my way through the house dozens of people try to grab my attention and start conversations but I push my way past them and through the front door. The front porch light illuminates the yard as I stand there searching for Kara. And then out of the corner of my eye. I see a girl walking on the sidewalk, right in front of my house, shivering and stumbling while crying. I quickly run across the yard and to my girl. Im not letting her go this time.

Notes

So there it is. We know why Kara had to leave. What do you think? Were you expecting that or no?