Saving Addison White (A famous Harry Styles fanfiction)

"Smoking weed and recording it?" yelled a livid Naomi. "Addison White, what the hell were you thinking smoking weed and recording it?"


I stared right at her, unsure of what to say. I knew the answer of course -- I was highly pissed off at Harry and wanted to de-stress, I wasn't thinking much and it was supposed to stay on Louis' phone -- but I don't say a single word to her, it was a tense time and anything I said could've been used against me in the future.


"Why aren't you answering me, Addison?"


"Because I don't know what to say," I responded softly. "It was supposed to stay on Louis' phone and -"


"Yeah but you weren't supposed to be smoking the stuff in the first place Addison!" she was yelling so loudly, I was almost 100% sure that the whole building could hear the whole conversation. "Your mother and father are livid, Stephen doesn't want you on the film anymore and don't get me started on the fans who are super disappointed at the fact that you're using again."


"That was months ago, so, so long ago!" I yelled back. "I'm clean now, a brand new person and you know that!" I pointed at the computer screen. "That's old Addison, reckless and selfish Addison -" a tear ran down my cheek. "I'm the new Addison, I can't change my past but you judging me for this..." I shook my head. "It's not fair."


"Addison, it's not me."


"Then who the fuck is it Naomi?" I questioned, my voice raised. "Of all people, I didn't expect getting all this crap from you and -"


I was cut off by my phone vibrating in my handbag. It was obviously a text, from who? I really didn't know so I excused myself and took the phone out. When I read the name on the screen my heart sank to the pit of my stomach. It was a message from my mother, it wasn't a long one. It just read: 'fix it or I will'. Not a lot of words but it left me a little frightened. Whenever Molly got involved, it rarely ended happily.


"I need to go," I spoke softly, my voice breaking a little as tears threaten to fall. "It's a big day tomorrow..." It was the truth, Zac and I were going to be working on promoting the new film we were both going to be staring in which was set to be released in the new year. "I have to rest."


"Uhm, yeah," Naomi didn't dispute it too much. "I guess I'll see you tomorrow then." She smiled at me but because I was so upset and tired of life, I didn't say much, instead walked out of her office.


When I got home, I left a trail of clothes all the way to my bedroom, changed into comfortable clothing then grabbed my laptop. I sat on my bed, fired the machine and sat back as I looked at the screen, on it was me of course and there was a red light flashing. It was recording. Molly had told me to fix the situation at hand and I was going to do exactly that, I was going to set the record straight once and for all and I wasn't planning on holding anything back. I was sick and tired of people assuming shit about me and I was just going to set them straight.


"Hi," I said, my tone monotonous. "I know I haven't done these in a while and to be honest, I think I've forgotten how to do it not that it's important." I ran my fingers through my hair and sighed. "So, it's been a long few months. A lot has happened in the past year, good and bad. I've done a lot of growing, I fell in love and got heartbroken. I've mended my life and career and all in all I'd like to think I'm now a good person."


It was awkward for me, I was nervous to say the wrong thing because Molly was going to freak out of me but it needed to be done. I sighed and bit on my lower lip.


"So, this morning a video was leaked and I was in that video with two of my good friends smoking an illegal substance... Marijuana." I was close to bursting out crying. "Yeah, I know its really bad, especially considering that I'm a role model to so many young girls and boys out there and trust me when I say I haven't heard the end of it. From the time I've woken up 'til now, a lot of people were disappointed and I'd just like to apologise for doing it."


"Yes, the video was taken some time ago. I've changed, I've cleaned up my act and I've been working real hard over the past months to get my life back on track. You've all been witnesses, so why are you all attacking me? As a human being, am I not allowed to make mistakes? I'm young, I'm still growing and as I grown, I learn new things about myself every day. I make mistakes which I learn from. You attacking me just isn't fair."


A tear rolled down my cheek and wiped it away. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry for not being a good role model. I'm sorry for acting so recklessly over the past two years. I'm sorry for letting my fans and myself down. I'm sorry to all those actors and directors who had to work with me at my most difficult time. I'm sorry to myself for not staying true to myself. I'm sorry to Harry for lying to you that day. I'm sorry to both my parents for not being the daughter you want me to be. All in all, I'm sorry to everyone I've ever hurt..." I sighed and again wiped the tears that were streaming down my face. "I'm sorry to the whole world and I hope you all find it in your hearts to forgive me for my mistakes."


Once finished recording the video, I didn't go over it, I didn't bother with trying to edit the crying bits because they were the vital part of it all and it just made me seem more sincere. I posted the video on my YouTube channel and when I was done, I slid under the bed covers and snuggled close to my kitten, Lorax. About half an hour later, I started getting twitter notifications. When I opened the app, I realised that the hash tag 'we love you Addie' was trending on the famous site. There was message after message from fans that were encouraging, showing me the support I was needing at that moment and just being good fans. It was so nice, I did start getting a little emotional about the whole thing.


A few of my famous friends also showed their support which also made me happy. I was feeling the love. When I was done looking at all the messages for me, I went onto my timeline and one particular tweet caught my eye. It was a tweet by Harry and it simply read: 'I forgive you'.

Notes

Hey, so guys I've been missing for over a month, I'm really sorry but I am back and I'll try uhm update more regularly.



So, Addison's in trouble but it seems that she's got her life back on track... Without Harry. I feel that this chapter was missing the boys. They're coming to South Africa in March/April and I'm so excited, it's the first time I'm seeing them and I just can't wait for the show :)



Anyway, the boys will be making their return in the chapter I'll hopefully post tomorrow :) if all goes well but if it doesn't, I have the next day to do it. The internet sucks here so... It makes the job a little harder.



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