Saving Addison White (A famous Harry Styles fanfiction)

“Last night he told me that he was going to dinner with friends,” I slurred, sitting in the middle of the couch with my legs crossed and a glass of red wine on my lap. “I didn’t bother to ask who the ‘friends’ were,” I spat out. “Then again we weren’t really on speaking terms…”


Louis’ house wasn’t too far from the hotel Demi was staying at so we decided to go visit him instead because we didn’t want to be with other alone. I didn’t mind that too much, I didn’t want my last memories of London to be of me sitting in front of the TV with Demi. I would’ve much rather had memories of me sitting in front of the muted TV with Demi AND Louis, drinking our lives away.


“He came into my bed in the guest bedroom and held tightly on to me… He wreaked of alcohol which explained why he did it. I should’ve told him to go away…”


I remembered how good it was to be lying next to Harry after so long. My last memory of Harry and me together. I remembered how even though he smelt of alcohol there was a slight smell of his cologne. I remembered how he nuzzled his nose in my hair and how when he had his arms around me I felt so safe and secure.


“We hadn’t really spoken… not after the surprise party. I don’t know what I did to him and I can’t blame anyone else because well I have no one to blame. Zayn was only joking when he made that comment,” I rambled on and on. “The poor guy doesn’t even know that we’re not really together.”


I shook my head and took a swig of my wine. I had always been a tequila girl but since moving to London I’d grown really fond of red wine. I could drink it with everything and it was a more fancy way of getting wasted. Demi was also having a glass and Louis stuck to his beer.


“I woke up the next morning to millions of twitter mentions and text after text of the same site.” I sipped on the wine until it was empty in the glass so I uncrossed my legs and reached for the wine. “He went on a dinner date with Kendall fucking Jenner. There was no denying it, there was a video and picture after picture…” a hot tear ran down my cheek.


“Addie, I’m so sorry,” Demi said softly. She was semi-sober although I didn’t understand how, I was almost sure she’d had more than me.


“Don’t be, my fault for agreeing to doing this stupid thing all in the name of pissing my parents off!” I sniffed. “And to think I was hoping that maybe there was hope for us after all. I thought that maybe he felt how I felt for him…”


Demi’s phone started vibrating on the table and I got a little
glimpse of it. Naomi’s name was flashing on the screen and I knew she couldn’t ignore it. She excused herself and ran out of the room. I got off my seat and went to join Louis where he was sitting, climbing onto his lap like I usually did.


“Why the long face Tommo?”


He turned to me and smiled. I don’t think he’d noticed I was sitting on his laps until that moment. “When did you get there?” his speech was only slightly drawled.


“Just now,” I rested my head on his chest and listened to his heart beating, believe it or not it was very different to Harry’s heartbeat. “It’s been a long day Lou. Actually, it’s been a long year…”


Louis chuckled and his chest moved up and down. “Addie, it’s only April love. The year’s barely started…”


“Exactly and everything was going perfectly smooth until Harry came into my life and literally ruined everything in just a month…” I chuckled at how much my life had changed. Where I was staying. The friends I’d made and the way I was. “Do you think he’ll ever feel anything for me? Or should I give up and carry on living my life?”


“The truth? I don’t know Addie,” he took a sip of his beer before placing it on the table beside his armchair. “I haven’t spoken to the lad in a long time…”


I didn’t say anything after that. I kept my head on his cheat and didn’t move, even when Demi came back from taking her phone call. Instead I acted like I was sleeping and listened as they spoke for hours. I dreamt of Harry and I being happily together, conquering Hollywood and ultimately being the best couple in the world. I wasn’t hated by anyone and there was no drama.


Oh how I wished it would come true…

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