The Wallflower
Fights
I sat outside. Humidity hung in the air. Silence. It reminded me of how it felt before I had met the boys, before Jules. When I was alone.
I was past eight, the boys and Jules had gone home, Alex was asleep and I was up waiting for my mom. She said she would come home tonight from her "Business Trip", she had been taking long ones all month. Though she was fired. I can't help but wonder where she goes. I planed to confront her about the job. Although sometimes she had to stay an extra night.
Thinking it might be one of those nights, I stand from my sitting position on the porch and turn to go inside when bright headlights shine from behind me. Mom pulls into the drive way and parked. I leaned against the closed door and watched as she got out and locked the car. She walked up to the porch, her heels clicking as she walked. She was searching for something in her purse, when she looked up she stopped walking.
"Oh, Kat! You almost gave me a heart attack!" She smiled.
"Where were you?" I ask. Fear clear in her eyes she mumbles a response,
"A-at a business trip. I t-told you when I left."
"Don't lie to me, mom!" I hissed. "I know you were fired from your job. Now tell me where you've been going." I said in a calm voice.
"Kat, I'm sorry I had to lie." She paused. "But that is not any of your business. Now I'd like to go into my house and sleep." She walks towards the door and reaches for the door handle before I block her way.
"I think I deserve to know who's been paying for the bills. Who's been paying for me and my little brother while you go away for a week to your nonexistent job. Sometimes you come home for one night and in the morning your already gone. Now where the hell have you been."
"Young lady, You do not talk to me with that mouth and let me in MY house before I ground you and I'll make sure you never see that Louis boy ever again!" She yells.
"Ground me? Ha. You can't ground me. You can't make sure that I never see Louis again. Your never here. I am practically raising Alex because my no good selfish mother is somewhere I don't even know because she lied to me. I haven't told Alex yet, so tell me where you've been going and getting money to pay the damn bills." I say, glaring at my mother.
"Do not use that language with me. I raised you better than that." She hisses.
"Yeah, well what about Alex? Your barely around and I wouldn't be surprised if he didn't even remember you." I say, tears escaping my eyes. Her gaze softens.
"Your dad." She whispers. My eyes widen. "I've been getting money from your dad, I've been visiting him."
"You went back to that bastard." I whispered. "He left us! How could you even think about going back to him?!" I yell, losing my calmness.
"Kat, I-" I shake my head, tears threatening to spill.
I moved past her and ran. Away from my house and my mother. Away from the memories of my father. I ran until my feet ached but I kept going. There was one place I knew I would be safe. Sadly I didn't know where that one place was, so I settled for the second best. As soon as I knocked on the door Jules answered. She saw my tears and pulled me into a hug.
"Oh, sweetie. It'll be okay." She whispered, bringing me into the warmth of her home.
I sat on the couch, feeling numb. She tried to ask questions to why I was crying. She soon gave up. I only stared at the floor, tears still pouring down my face. She said words that made my heart fill with warmth, but it didn't stop the tears,
"I'm calling Louis."
I sat there as she talked to Louis. She up as gave me a sad smile.
"He's coming."
Minutes later, the doorbell rung and Jules jumped up. I heard them talking.
"Louis tried to run here but I made him get into the car." I heard Harry say.
"Where is she? Is she hurt?" Louis.
"She's not hurt but she's crying really bad." Jules replied. "She wont tell me anything."
I heard footsteps and soon I was engulfed into a hug. I automatically knew it was Louis. My silent tears turned into loud sobs.
"Shhhh, It's okay I'm here." He rubbed my back soothingly.
"My mom was with my dad the whole time." I whispered into his chest. He tensed but kept rubbing my back.
He didn't ask questions. He just sat there and rubbed my back as I sobbed. It was then I knew where my safe place was,
with Louis.
I was past eight, the boys and Jules had gone home, Alex was asleep and I was up waiting for my mom. She said she would come home tonight from her "Business Trip", she had been taking long ones all month. Though she was fired. I can't help but wonder where she goes. I planed to confront her about the job. Although sometimes she had to stay an extra night.
Thinking it might be one of those nights, I stand from my sitting position on the porch and turn to go inside when bright headlights shine from behind me. Mom pulls into the drive way and parked. I leaned against the closed door and watched as she got out and locked the car. She walked up to the porch, her heels clicking as she walked. She was searching for something in her purse, when she looked up she stopped walking.
"Oh, Kat! You almost gave me a heart attack!" She smiled.
"Where were you?" I ask. Fear clear in her eyes she mumbles a response,
"A-at a business trip. I t-told you when I left."
"Don't lie to me, mom!" I hissed. "I know you were fired from your job. Now tell me where you've been going." I said in a calm voice.
"Kat, I'm sorry I had to lie." She paused. "But that is not any of your business. Now I'd like to go into my house and sleep." She walks towards the door and reaches for the door handle before I block her way.
"I think I deserve to know who's been paying for the bills. Who's been paying for me and my little brother while you go away for a week to your nonexistent job. Sometimes you come home for one night and in the morning your already gone. Now where the hell have you been."
"Young lady, You do not talk to me with that mouth and let me in MY house before I ground you and I'll make sure you never see that Louis boy ever again!" She yells.
"Ground me? Ha. You can't ground me. You can't make sure that I never see Louis again. Your never here. I am practically raising Alex because my no good selfish mother is somewhere I don't even know because she lied to me. I haven't told Alex yet, so tell me where you've been going and getting money to pay the damn bills." I say, glaring at my mother.
"Do not use that language with me. I raised you better than that." She hisses.
"Yeah, well what about Alex? Your barely around and I wouldn't be surprised if he didn't even remember you." I say, tears escaping my eyes. Her gaze softens.
"Your dad." She whispers. My eyes widen. "I've been getting money from your dad, I've been visiting him."
"You went back to that bastard." I whispered. "He left us! How could you even think about going back to him?!" I yell, losing my calmness.
"Kat, I-" I shake my head, tears threatening to spill.
I moved past her and ran. Away from my house and my mother. Away from the memories of my father. I ran until my feet ached but I kept going. There was one place I knew I would be safe. Sadly I didn't know where that one place was, so I settled for the second best. As soon as I knocked on the door Jules answered. She saw my tears and pulled me into a hug.
"Oh, sweetie. It'll be okay." She whispered, bringing me into the warmth of her home.
I sat on the couch, feeling numb. She tried to ask questions to why I was crying. She soon gave up. I only stared at the floor, tears still pouring down my face. She said words that made my heart fill with warmth, but it didn't stop the tears,
"I'm calling Louis."
I sat there as she talked to Louis. She up as gave me a sad smile.
"He's coming."
Minutes later, the doorbell rung and Jules jumped up. I heard them talking.
"Louis tried to run here but I made him get into the car." I heard Harry say.
"Where is she? Is she hurt?" Louis.
"She's not hurt but she's crying really bad." Jules replied. "She wont tell me anything."
I heard footsteps and soon I was engulfed into a hug. I automatically knew it was Louis. My silent tears turned into loud sobs.
"Shhhh, It's okay I'm here." He rubbed my back soothingly.
"My mom was with my dad the whole time." I whispered into his chest. He tensed but kept rubbing my back.
He didn't ask questions. He just sat there and rubbed my back as I sobbed. It was then I knew where my safe place was,
with Louis.
@Soul Screamer
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2/12/14