No One Can Know

I get home after my first day where i'm greeted at the front door with kisses on each of my cheeks by my twin sisters, Daisy and Phoebe. They just started kindergarten today so this morning they got a huge breakfast of eggs, bacon, toast, and orange juice, where I had to get my own breakfast which was only Cheerios and the tiny bit of milk that was left. They still had their pig tails in and they looked so cute but I wanted time to myself so I told them I had homework to do and I would see them at dinner. They seemed sad because they wanted to tell me about their day but they understood and let me go. I walk up two flights of stairs to get to my room, being the oldest and the only guy In the house I get my own floor in the house which is pretty cool. I get to my room and close the door and lock it, I go to my closet were I have a secret drawer on the left hand side that only I know about, I take out some paper and roll the little bit of weed I have. Shit I need to get some more tomorrow. I get my lighter and hold it towards the other end of the joint to start the burning of the weed then I remember to open my window so no one can smell it when they enter my room. I'm a little bit high when i'm scared half to death by my IPhone, it had made that ding sound to tell me I got a notification, I look at the lock screen to see its a friend request on Facebook from some guy named Harry Styles. I unlock my phone and go to his profile to look at his pictures. OHHHHH its that quiet kid in my 6th period, hmm I would have never guess he would find me interesting, especially after seeing me become the carrot canon in the beginning of class. So I accept and lock my screen again then put my phone face down on my bed next to the ash tray I use to collect the extra bits I didn't smoke. A second later the phone makes another ding, I hold it up again to see its a message from Harry. Damn that was fast but hey maybe he's new and wants some friends so I message him back. Eventually he had to go and he told me he would see me tomorrow. I finish my joint, put it out, then throw the ashes out the window. I hear the front door of the house open and close and I hear my mother scream my sisters names so I started to go down stairs to greet her.

"Hey mom!"

"Hey Louis!"

She kisses me on the cheek as well.

"How was the first day?"

"Basically same shit different day to be honest."

"Ah well can you help me with dinner tonight? I had a long ass day and i'm to tired to cook a meal by myself."

"Sure mom i'll get started if you want to grab a shower and rest for a few minutes."

"That would be great son. Thank you."

"No problemo. Put what are we having?"

"The girls want spaghetti so I guess that's what we are having."

"Ok."

My mother goes up stairs to the second floor because that's were her and the twins sleep and my other two sisters, Charlotte and Felicite, sleep on the first floor. I begin dinner when my Pit Bull, Carter, runs in and trips me when i'm in between the island and the stove.

"Fucking dog! You're so fucking lucky my bones are unbreakable because if you broke my leg I would have broken yours!"

I get up and brush myself off of the little bit of dog hair that was on the tile. I turn on the stove and began to boil the water then began to heat up some butter since no one in the house really likes tomato sauce. When dinner is finish my mom is getting down the stairs. She looks at the food that was all ready made.

"Awe hunny thank you i'm so sorry you had to do this all by yourself."

Then she takes her plate and leaves to eat in the living room. She's not sorry, she did that on purpose, she always does. It doesn't bother me anymore because I have gotten so use to it since I was 10. As everyone took their plates to the living room I sat at the dining room table under the flickering light as I ate slowly, eventually the light gave up and went out so I pushed my plate forward and put my head down. I got up 25 minutes later and collected everyone's plate to wash. After all of them are rinsed and put in the dishwasher I turn it on to let it wash the dishes. I head up to my room and lock my door again. God I would give anything to have a guy friend over who is normal and doesn't always talk about sports and shit I could care less about. Just once so i'm not always out numbered by my four sisters and mother. I go over to my bed and take out my laptop from my nightstand drawer to listen to some of The Fray on Spotify. I listen to 6 songs then decide to go to my stress reliever. I take out my tissues and lotion, go to my favorite porn site I go on every day then start to unbuckle my pants. I look up some lesbian porn and start going at it harder each time one of them would touch each in a way I would touch a girl if she was in bed with me (Or multiple girls for that matter). I keep going till I finally explode and it goes all over my bed. FUCKKKKKKK! I knew I should have put a towel down! I go down the hallway to my bathroom and get a towel to try to clean up the little bit that had gone on the covers. I go to my bathroom and take a shower to clean off the rest that I was able to catch with my body. After i'm clean I throw on some boxers and face plant on to my pillow but then turn over and lay on my back to retrieve my phone to start looking at the new pictures on ifunny. I plug my phone in after about a half hour and lay there with my eyes closed and try to fall asleep. Eventually at 12:34 am I fall sleep and all I saw was that kid Harry's face in my dreams. We were hanging out and he decided to hold my hand while we were walking in a park and then we were on a bench and I decided to kiss him and shove my tongue down his throat. What. The. Fuck. is wrong with me? I'm not gay nor do I think i'll ever be, but I will admit that the kid is kind of cute.

Notes

Hey guys so I decided to throw a little dirty stuff in there. Lol but trust me it will get better! Its still a work in progress and I think i'm getting there but I promise there will be some drama and smut later on. (: Stay wonderful!

~Mikki